I have a little sadness in my heart

[xxsistersoulxx]

I am feeling a little blue. A little sadness is creeping its way back in...I know it's all part of the process and when I let myself think about it i know that there is no reason for me to feel this way, but I do..just a little...

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[kazatomic]

*HUGS*

[xxsistersoulxx]

thanks kaz :0 How are things with you?

[kazatomic]

Things are pretty good with me at the moment. I'm rushed off my feet trying to get into a routine with the new job, but apart from that reasonable I have to say.

[archangelgone]

Hey, I didn't want to post something like this in the public journal, so I thought I'd post here-

What really helped me in similar experiences was the realization that the sensation of completeness that we seek in the fantasy of 'perfect romance' is something that can only happen internally- we all seek that other half of ourselves. The problem alot of us have is that we look for that other half in other people, when you can only really find it deep down on the foundation of our soul.

In reality, we are all really complete, we just tend to foget that. So anyways, thats what I can tell as I see it. If it doesn't help you, please feel free to ignore it. :)

[xxsistersoulxx]

What you are saying is nothing i haven't heard before. And it is true. But how do you find that inner piece? and inner peace?

It does help me. I dont want to feel the way I do, I don't want to need a relationship or a fantastical relationship. I don't expect another person to complete me or to make up the other part of me. I really just want to be with someone, share my life with someone, hard, easy, bad good, all that shyte.

I just dont want to walk my life alone. I feel like I have been alone for so long and when I finally found something, I didn't want to let go of it even though it was not right. Yet, I was the one who let go first. My heart and my mind are constantly battling, how to get them to play for the same team? I dunno.