"I remember the smile that always brought me back yo you"

May 18, 2010 12:29

That is a lyric from "Stories" by Trapt. The whole song reminds me of me and my husband. He gets really upset when I tell him that. But if you look at the words, they fit perfectly. I put the lyrics behind the cut...

I found a line and then it grew
I found myself still thinking of you
I felt so empty and now I'm fine
But still it's burning when will you be mine

Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for change, don't you?
Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for us to walk away from here

Look at me, still in your mind
Our memories, so intertwined
Well you broke through, you found your way
And so did I, no need to stay
Same old picture, tried and true
We've been through that, let's look for something new

Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for change, don't you?
Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for us to walk away from here

you remember lying on the beach so late at night?
you remember running through the sprinklers that night?
you remember all the songs that I have wrote for you?
All the songs that I have wrote for you

I remember the way you made me feel when I was with you
I remember the smile that always brought me back to you
That look in your eyes,
I never thought that this could be untrue
That look in your eyes,
I never thought that this could be untrue
Untrue

Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for change, don't you?
Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for us to walk away from here

All of the issues that I have in my marriage are the same things over and over. Our issues are emotions, drugs, and money. Things will be good for a while...but then they slowly start to go backwards. Heres how things play out...Jay and I are happy, things are good. then something happens that puts Jay in a depression. Jay then starts to hate himself and the world. He tries to forget about his "sorrows" by medicating  himself. By doing that, he spends alot of OUR money. I find out and I confront him about it. That usually couses a major fight between us. Then we make up and are both upset about where are lives currently are. We eventually forget about the downs in our life and are right back where we started. It's a vicious cycle.

I love my husband, more than he will ever know. I am just so tired of the same thing over and over and over again. We need change...together. And when he uses, he looks so...different....gone. I don't like that person. But when I see that certain look in his eye, I know that man I fell in love with is back. I know that we still have amazing love. I just want that to stay and I don't know how.
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