I always feel better when I make plans.
I have a goal.
I have a way to make money, which I can buy things and food.
I have Xine, allowing me to help her around her house, and which she also helps me emotionally.

I think I'm going to be fine.

Nothing, what a horrible word ( Read more... )

I hate making friends.

They just fade away. In such short time, they fade...

Fuck it. it's worthless...

I feel so beautiful...


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What's your name?
Samantha Fucking Shameless

Okay, but what does your best male friend call you?
All my boys call me Cup-Cake

How many pillows on your bed?
four

Who's the last person you texted?
Michael

Is there someone you can't stop thinking about?
Uh, yeah <3 ( Read more... )

"You know what? Kill me. Go ahead. I'm ready!!! Do it!! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!!!"

Updates on my living issues: They seem to be in the progress of fixing my apartment. I have to ask for a new one, I can't live like this ( Read more... )

Going to Baltimore, MD was great. The trip wasn't bad at all ( Read more... )

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While driving home yesterday from work, I had this odd flashback of Rocky...it's not like it was a bad one, it was good...and I started crying. Why? I don't fucking know. Maybe it's because I try too hard to think that he was a good person when he really isn't. No one believes me, and they think I'm crazy. I was with that man for 5 years, I think I ( Read more... )