Love the life you live and live the life you love... or somthing like that. although I feel lonely at times. I still am just so glad to be alive and where I am at this point in my life, I played softball today it was awesome. I also have been reading alot lately..... and Im going to finish the book I am reading in like 2 days so please if you ( Read more... )

So I droped Tahli and Kitt off at the bus station today, they were going to RI then Boston, and I wasnt feeling that bad. Then I get back to the room and look in my desk and what do I see but a letter. I open this letter and its from Tahli, at this point I just lost it. The letter pretty much told me that Im one of the greatest friends anyone ( Read more... )

i feel as though you can read me like an open book, but some people are so blind they cant see when they need to lend a helping hand or fucking try to understand when someone is feeling empty and they can fill it... I dont understand if someone had the ability to fill this emptyness and they want to, but they just worry about complicating things. ( Read more... )

so after a long talk.. I now understand things, and feel that Im appriciated. Also a little weird becuase many people have told me that im amazing, its hard to swallow all at once.

so nothing ever gets better it only feels at its getting worse.... you think the day came and I would feel better, but I just feel more jelous. or how ever you spell that word....damn... I just feel like my insides are being ripped out and i have to watch, then Im forced to eat them. Good times.

so for some reason I feel real nervous about this upcomming week. I feel that this semester is going to be lonely. It seems the nights are getting very cold very fast, which means fall is on its way. And in no way am I complaining about cold fall nights. It feels like Im in limbo, its like im just looking forword for somthing bad to happen. ( Read more... )

I saw some sign of hope today, where did it go? If anyone see it let me know..... I am picking up my ipod early tomarrow...

so its almost been 2 weeks and still no word, I should give up, no hope anyway... am I going to get a call, or an emial... who knows. I need closure....

So yesterday I finally gave in and bought an Ipod Im so fucking excited woooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

When is it going to happen, when is it going to get better, when am I going to stop caring about stupid shit......


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so camp has finally ended, Im not sure how i feel about that. Wait a minute yes I am. Camp sucked alot of balls and Im glad its over. Although I did make a few new friends this summer which it was sad to say good bye to them. It was really hard to say goodbye to one of them, even though that wasnt the real goodbye. Im trying to figure out what ( Read more... )