so hello peeps, ive just read through all of your LJ accounts, i didn't reply, not because i dont care because i do, theres just been alot thats went online at its too difficult for me to reply to them all ( Read more... )

its not nice being in hospital esp when they dont speak english, one women understood a little of it but i was left from 7am in the morning until 9am next day in intensive care. all my bloods were off, u name it it was off, i was on 4 bags of fluid at a time ....it all just started with me not feeling too well i was going to have my morning swim ( Read more... )

Its beautiful  here, the sun is hot the surroundings are lovely, the people are fantastic.....i love it. its a bit overwhelming to be in such a beautiful place when your so disgusting like me, sometimes i just sit and tears start rolling down my face and i tell kev im too awful to be in this place ( Read more... )

I am sooooo busy these days, its good but i am looking forward to thursday when we go on our pre honey moon holiday. 2 weeks in the sun, bliss ( Read more... )

i need to write, i am just so busy i havent had the time...but an update will bee coming soon, anorexia is still very strong in my life...im reading peeps xox

so yday was manic but so much fun, and I GOT MY WEDDING DRESS ( Read more... )

wedding is booked, last saturday of november, 24th i think ( Read more... )

im struggling big time, today i have woken up so depressed, K is still in bed.
im up 0.9 in 3 days now. CW 29.9kg
i feel fat and ugly.... and i wont hide this from K.

anorexia is so strong. i am not sure if i do this, K wont let me skip feeds 
ugh im just so pissed off and fat and low i dont even know what to write about!

So things have been hectic to say the least ( Read more... )

yes... i am home ( Read more... )