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[xxxmorbidiaxxx]

I suppose I should actually write something here, since it has been about a year since I did so. I'm just always afraid that what I write will come off as nothing but complaining and bitching about my shitty life. I guess the first thing I could do is write up the things that have been going on in my life lately. I'll try not to be too cynical.

Comments

[xxxmorbidiaxxx]

Yeah. When I was in there it was very dirty. I wasn't very scared. Its a lot different up here in our sunny, happy, clean little town than it is where you went, I'm sure. Did you go to the one in LA? That must have been scary.

I think I'd actually like a collaboration between Lovecraft and John Waters. Pink Cthulus?

I'm hoping I'll get it on the first try. It could only be 3 months. I just have to find the umph to get out of bed, throw on some eyeliner and grab a pen and fill that damned shit out. I want it to be perfect so there is less of a chance they will deny me.

Hey, thanks for replying by the way. I really like ya, girly. Its too bad we only got to meet the one time. I had fun though. :)

Re: PINK CTHULHUS!

[xxxmorbidiaxxx]

Oh gods, I could imagine the one in Hesperia. Whacked out tweakers to the max.

I'm sorry you're stuck out in Arizona without pills. You could come live in the kitty condo in the seaside town that they forgot to bomb. Every day is like Sunday. Every day is silent and grey. Until my grandmother comes out to the kitty condo to start her daily bitch fest.

elise the pessimist

[queenofveils]

Open up to your doctor about the cutting and eating disorders. Even if you have to get all emotional and cry about it just do it. If you are trying to get on permanent disability they will sometimes turn you down 3 or 4 times ..actually thats usually what they always do. My freind Bob who is actually whacked out. He cannot even socialize normally like you can, or go out doing things without snapping at some point- he was turned down for disability 3 times. He had friends and people he knew write letters about him and his condition (also bi polar) and all the times he did things that were odd. Maybe you can have some friends and family do that for you

Re: elise the pessimist

[xxxmorbidiaxxx]

I opened up to the doctor about everything. I'll post on how that went. Thanks for your support. I know we've both been through a lot and a lot of it has been very similar. WTF, does this happen to all JW kids or what? Seriously. As per the boy situation, I'm taking things slow. I don't want to do as I always do and rush into things without letting them know the full extent of my crazy.

Re: elise the pessimist

[queenofveils]

Speaking of JWs...if you want some good reading try "kingdom of the cults". I find it amazing that these religious people give themselves over to these religions they never studied the background of. Totally Recockulous. Once upon a time Eden worked at the morongo basin mental health. He told me while working there that the number one suicidal people were catholics. The second are JWs.
I am sure that the religion had to mess with you somehow. People who join cults have a certian way of thinking. They try and train the children and young ones related to them to feel and think the same. If you don't have that mindset to be in a cult- then you just get screwed up.

Re: elise the pessimist

[xxxmorbidiaxxx]

One day, you, Eden and I should write a book about what happens to grown up JW kids.