I'm so hungry that my stomach hurts.

I want to move back to France. And get away from this piece of shit hell hole. I miss benjamin, and I miss my cousin. I feel like shit here. Nothing ever works out. Blah blah blah.

But I guess I should be grateful for what I do have and blah blah blah SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Dyed my hair. It's blonde. I love my hair blonde. SOO much. I'll post pictures tomorrow. Or another day ( Read more... )

Mmmm. So. Everything's.. boring I guess. I think my mom's gonna let me go to main street festival with Ryan. Which is super cool because that kid is like.. supercooltothecorexalot.
M.. boys can shut up. I shouldn't care because i'm moving. But I do. Because I depend on others for my happiness. So suck it.

So. Lenora saved me yesterday. Woo. Benjamin emailed me today. I'm pretty sure we're moving, and if we do, that means BENJAMINNNN WOOO.
m. Nothing much is going on.

I don't want to be 21. Well, why not, but I don't like alcohol so it won't make a difference for me ( Read more... )

So.. I got fed up. Left my house when my parents weren't home. Went to Ryans. My mom picked me up. We didn't talk. No one's mad. Um. Shit happens.

I completely trashed my room. I ripped down all the posters and threw all my books in a corner and took everything off of my shelf and shoved it all in my closet.
I was going to call someone, and I listed everyone in my head but I could find no one to call. I don't.
Fuck everything.

I am really really sick of people lying to me. It's not even lying. Just not saying anything. Like saying you're gonna.. come back, or do this, and then never calling back or doing something else. I guess I shouldn't make a big deal out of it, so i'm not going to say anything to anyone. But jesus christ. It's things like these that make me want to ( Read more... )