Dear Friend,
So I think this is the most often I have posted in livejournal in years. I don't feel as much like a mental basket case as I felt when I posted last night which is good. I have been thinking though, and I realized that I need to get over you. I know I can't cast you completely out of my life, but I figure I can attempt to limit my interaction with you. I even moved where your screen name is on my aim buddy list so that way I won't really ever know if your online. There is about nine months until you get back and I'm hoping that maybe by then I can have gotten over you. I'll still keep up with these notes to you though. I think doing that might help me with limiting my interaction with you because I know it's not going to be easy to avoid talking to you. I do know that I need to try to get over you. I realize how lame and pathetic I am for having allowed myself to like you for this long.
I don't know. Maybe I'll try and you'll still be the only guy that I've ever really liked. I just know that by allowing myself to have feelings for you I do more harm than good. I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to hurt myself. Thereforth, I'm going to do my best to forget about how I feel.
I don't know. Maybe I'll try and you'll still be the only guy that I've ever really liked. I just know that by allowing myself to have feelings for you I do more harm than good. I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to hurt myself. Thereforth, I'm going to do my best to forget about how I feel.