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Unsp0ken Secr3t: OMFG...i think imma fucking cry no i know i'm crying :-(...i fucking hate my muthafucking dad....i just wanna go kill myself or cut or fuck watever..... My life is just fucking great and then i get home and it all starts to turn back to muthafucking shit....thats why i always wanna be out of the house. In my room.crying.withmusiconveryfuckingloudforthehellofit and shit! My Away Message on 10/18/05 around 9:00 I was having a good day with my friends april and shelly doing a makeover and then we went over tophers and erics house to show them and hang out and all...and we watched/listened to them play their awesome music and such on the guitars...and then we went up to Mcdonalds to get free food but didnt. Shelly got a phone call saying she had to be home NOW...so on the way back home we went to jacobs house and eric got off there and i dropped shelly off and then me, april and chris went to the central city park and hanged out...saw melanie there! w00t. i missed her bunchies! :) and then we went back to Mcdonalds to see amber and all.....i dropped chris off and then went to shellys house to drop off the stuff we borrowed for the day and dropped april off...i go home....i had to park in the driveway cause there were people parked in my spot in the dead end. and i walked in go up stairs and came back down and went to tell my dad that i'm home and alive and such...then he was like you've been gone for 6 hours and i was like yeah i was hanging out with my friends and such and he was like for 6 hours and i was like yeah i can hang out with my friends cant i? and shit and then he was like well why didnt you call me and i was like wtf! i told you i was going over shellys for the makeover...duh! and then he was like go park over there. and i didnt want to park there to make it difficult for the person who parked there ahead of where my car would have been to get out...so i said no and blah blah and then he said talking shit about me driving and if i couldnt do that i shouldnt be driving and i was like shit up watever and walked away. i come upstairs to put the away message up and i was about to cry but then my dad walks in and such and saw the mcdonald pop and i was like a friend brought it over when she was done workig and such...and then he was like gimme your keys and we just started argueing...and then right off that i was crying my fuckin eyes out....I just fucking hate life at home but i love it outside of home....usually it was different for me... i just really feel like just fucking killing myself cause i dont wanna deal with it for the next few years...i cant....i've cried sooo many times i cant even keep up with the count...it is soo over 239752975297 that many times....totally beyond that...i've been hurt so many times and so many different ways...its not even funny...i become very very emotional ever since....and i wasnt crying anymore for a while and now i'm back at this regular so called normal life of mine that i dont want back ever.... Well i think thats enough drama for you guys...i'm off to cry again....maybe write some poetry....just hopefully i dont end up cuttin myself even though i never done it before but iwth this anger and sadness i have, i know i could do it...but i know im strong enough to stop me...but still. iunno if imma have the car away from me too or not? GOD LIFE FUCKING SUCKS RIGHT NOW! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i jsut wanna fucking scream so loud where everyone would bleed in their ears and become deaf! AH! damit! I'm off. bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOREVER! psh watever.