Biggest Regret [One Shot]
Title : Biggest Regret
Author : nana aka athena aka yamachiisuki
Pairing : YamaChii
Rating : around NC-17
If only I didn’t accept my girlfriend offer to come to her house. If only I didn’t go home and took her offer to sleepover instead. If only I didn’t take that shortcut road to go home faster. If only I didn’t choose the wrong option that day, I wouldn’t thrown into a nightmare.
I just realized when the way seems quiet than normal. But it making me notice his presence. The sound of his footsteps, the terrifying sound that follows whenever my legs take a step. I’ve been stalked.
I turn back at once and I saw a glance of his figure. But it’s too dark. As I thinking, I prefer to walk in the light, so he wouldn’t dare to do anything.
But I’m wrong.
He suddenly marched and hug me from behind. His hand slip inside my collar and grope my chest while the other hand touch my belly.
Even its too dark to see his face clearly, I can still caught his sound of breathing. As a man, I know very well that he’s being in term like whenever I want to touch my girlfriend. My instinct said its dangerous so I kick him hard on the stomach.
And it’s my another mistake that day, I should have knock him out until he losing consciousness instead of one kick. But I choose to go to my friend’s house that was near there. The trusted friends whose also my girlfriend’s childhood neighbour. The same friends who introduce me with my girlfriend.
But little did I know that it was my biggest mistake.
I knocked one time and they let me in.
“Chii, what’s wrong? You’re panting.”
“A crazy guy were following me Yuto. He’s insane!”
“Are you sure?” Another one walk out from his room.
“Well Keito, you should feel how he touch your skin so you know I’m sure!”
“Gomen Chii, I didn’t intend to..”
“Just.. let me stay here today. I will go home once its bright.”
“Sure, Chii. Come, sit.” They invited me to sit on the wide sofa.
I told them the whole thing while I calm a bit with the warm milk Yuto made. They listen to my story and by talking to them make me gradually forget about the bad feeling.
“So you finally come to her house eh? You guys are finally getting serious.”
“Well I’m not sure about that. But she’s nice and I don’t want to make her sad. So maybe we are.” I smiled proudly.
“Woo.. Looks like we’re gonna be invited soon.” Yuto whistling.
“You should thanked us.” Keito smiled.
“Haha hai hai.” And I thought my night has end but it turns out it would still become a long night when I saw the door opened.
I gasped as the figure I saw before is there, looking at me with lust face.
Shit! Seems like Yuto forgot to lock the door.
“Yu-Yuto! That’s the guy!”
Yuto looked at the guy behind the door and said something that make my brain empty for a moment, “Oh.. Yama-chan, it's you? If I know, I wouldn’t let you outside too long.”
Huh?
“Yuto?”
“Come in Yama-chan.” Keito with his smile invited him.
“Keito! What do you think you’re doing? I told you he’s insane!”
“Calm down, Chii. It’s only Yama-chan.”
I looked at them in disbelief. Why they talk like it’s not a big matter? Like I’m the only one freaked out here?
The guy called Yama-chan come inside while not leaving his eyes on me. I feel horrible as I don’t know what’s happening.
“Are you guys insane? I told you he’s the same guy who attack me!”
“Don’t shout Chii. We told you its only Yama-chan. There’s nothing to be afraid of.”
I frown. They know him? This crazy guy?
If they know him, maybe this guy not a bad person like I think he is. Or maybe he’s just play a prank on me because he knows I’m their friend? Maybe even Yuto and Keito are involved in this joke.
But as I thought that, his arms reach onto me and grope me on the back. Another one sneak inside my shirt and touch my belly sensually. His lips on my neck. I startled as I push him hard away from me.
I’m not wrong about my instinct. He’s.. weird. And dangerous.
“You saw it?! He’s insane! Get him out of here!”
But my friends just stare us and not doing anything. Something odd is obviously going on here.
“Forget it. I just go home to my own house.”
I walk towards the exit but my feets never reach it that night. I’m being pushed to the wide sofa and I could feel he’s settling above me.
I arched my head to look at Yuto whom behind me. “Yuto, if this is a joke, it’s enough! Stop it! Or I would beat this guy up not minding even he’s a friend of yours!”
Yuto look at Yama-chan. He sighed.
“I’m sorry Chii. I cannot not obey Yama-chan.”
“What?”
My arms being held over my head by both Yuto and Keito. No matter how strong my strength, I couldn’t fight three guys at once. They tied my hands with a tight rope and tied the other end of it to the sofa’s leg.
“I THOUGHT YOU GUYS IS MY FRIENDS!!” I yelled angrily.
“We are your friends, Chii. That’s why we don’t let you guys do this outside.” Keito smiled warmly, but in this state, the smile is very much frightening for me.
Both of them went inside their bedroom and leaving me behind, alone with this maniac. I couldn't believe they turn their back and closed the door. They're like persons I never know.
I back to my awareness as I feel my neck being kissed. The guy called Yama-chan nuzzle his head down while kissing the side of my neck.
“Stop that! What do you think you’re doing?”
I tried to get my hands off but it's useless. The rope is just too tight.
He pull up my shirt and kissing me down to my broad chest until he found my nipple. He start kissing it the way it making me dizzy and he keep swirling around until both of its get wet. I tried my best to hold out and thinking how should I get out of this nightmare.
But I can't hold out any longer when I feel his hand moving to my pants.
"Aghh.. I said stop! Don't dare to touch it!"
I heard knocks from inside the room where Yuto and Keito are. “Can you at least reduce the shouting?”
“He didn’t want me.” He answered while still look at me.
“Yama-chan, don’t you know you should kiss each other before going to next part?”
I heard Keito said it in kind tone. But it’s so scaring to my ears. Yama-chan look at me with an eyes filled with realization. I closed my lips inside my mouth cause I know what’s gonna happening if I don’t.
He look at me as if he sad, “I don’t want to do this in the first kiss.”
He pressed my cheeks with his hand that make my mouth open on its own and slip his tongue inside. He began to kiss me passionately.
“Mmmphh..!”
Our lips pressed strongly together as he keep pressuring me and make my head arched back onto the sofa. His tongue touching and playing with mine inside that sent a chill on my back. I can't escape since he explore all of the area inside my mouth. Our tongues just keep meeting and he always licking onto me whenever its happen.
I just cursed in my mind repeatedly, damn with all this.
We’re breathing heavily when the long kiss finally released. I could feel he pull my zipper down.
"Why..?"
"Eh?"
"I never know you. Who are you?"
"I'm Ryosuke."
"Not your nam--" I twitched as he suddenly touching my dick which already free in the air. He licks it with his tongue several times before put his mouth onto my length.
"Errh.. ahh.."
I moaned while bite my lip. The tied around my hands feels tighten everytime he bobbing it up and down. I feel mine begin to stand proudly as he keeps stroke it inside his mouth. He keeps going faster and faster and after seem like a hour, I gasped as my fluid explode in his mouth, which he drinks it down to his throat.
He's looking like he satisfied that he could make me cum with his mouth.
"Everybody would if you did that." I answered sarcastically with my remaining strength while panted, not willing to see him happy.
Looking frustated, he then doing something at my ass with his fingers before he open his own shirt and pant, leaving him naked in front of me. I gasped as he suddenly thrust into me. I start to not care to anything after that and just close my eyes.
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I looked at the guy sleeping beside me before I stand up on my feet.
"Yuto.. you're there right?" I said while wearing my shirt that thrown quite far. I never heard my voice could be as low and cold as now. "Tell me, why did you guys do this to me?"
There's a silence before an answer came from inside the room. I could hear the door being opened a little. I could now see Yuto face. But the guilt that I searched for is not there on his face.
“Can’t you see it? He just wants you. All of his life. No matter even there’s a prettiest woman or me and Keito naked in front of him, he will just see you. Just you Chii, just you.”
I feel surprised but its not shown on my cold face. "It's not an answer."
I pick up my jacket as I walk out silently.
I don't want to think after all that. I don't want to even remember that ever happened. That day was my biggest regret in my life.
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"You guys still dare to show up before me?"
I said angrily when seeing they come to my class. They were silent maybe finally feeling guilty for what they done so I speak out.
"Did he threat you or something? Even if you scared, there’s three of us. We can beat him together. Or does he had your weakness? If you told me, I could at least do something about it."
"No Chii, he didn't."
I looked at them in horror. I still hope they were doing that for a better reason so I could forgive them somehow. "T-then why?"
"We just want to help him, that's all."
I continue to look at them in disbelief, "You both don't regret it at all, don't you?"
"No.. we're not."
I banged the table as I stood up, the anger overwhelmed me. It's hard to believe they were somebody I ever trust. "Don't ever get near me again!"
"Chii, let's eat lunch together." I heard my girlfriend walk inside the class at the same time. So I walk to her.
"Eh? What happened?"
I embrace her shoulder and pull her away from there.
"Don't get near them again. They're sick."
She confused but she just follows me obidiently. Then we take a break on the bench at the backyard. Turns out she brought me some food. I like when someone spoiled me like this.
"Did you fight with them?"
I stay silent. And she just looking at me worriedly.
"Yuto and Keito are a good person. I may not close to them but I know them since we’re little. Besides they're who introduce us together remember?"
"Right. I feel stupid I get close to them just because they introduce you to me."
She’s frowning, “Isn't it just yesterday you stayed at their house?”
I choked the food and cough, felt like hearing thunder. I looked at her in horror. “How do you know about that?”
“They told me when I met them this morning.”
“They.. told you?”
“..and they said something unbelievable. I don’t even want to believe it.”
“What.. what else they say?”
She’s frowning and avert her eyes nervously, “I can't believe they said that you...”
Oh no please tell me they didn’t tell her about what happened.
“That you were sleeping loudly. Pfft..” She giggled.
I blinking few times before my brain taking everything in. “Ahh.. you teased me.”
“I'm sorry. I want to punish you a little. Because you reject to sleepover at my house yet you stayed at their house afterward.”
“Youu~~” I mess up her hair while she keep on giggling. I smiled too. But suddenly I saw a figure behind her back, standing across from where we sit that makes my eyes widen.
Why the hell he’s here?
“Chii?” She confused looking at my sudden unmoved.
“I.. I have to go somewhere. Ja ne.” I run from there, my eyes still follows him. I could hear her calling from behind but I could careless at this time.
I still run towards where he is while my eyes still looking at him. He looked back at me, obviously know that I will go to him and he doesn’t seem has any intention to avoid me.
As I got to his place, I look at him like making sure it was really him. And by seeing him on the broad light like this, I just realize he's quite hot. But then I quickly back to my sense and glaring at him. “Why are you here?”
“I’m studying here.”
I looked him at disbelief. He’s in the same institution as me?
“You’re studying here? But I don’t-“ He cut my word.
“See me?”
I don’t answer but he looked at me knowingly.
“I know you don’t. You never see me eventhough I’m around.”
Huh?
"Hey Yamada~"
Some students called his name and he waved.
It seems the others know him. But why I don’t remember him at all?
“You just simply not interested with me.” He answered like he knows whats in my mind. "Or you only interested to someone you like."
I frown. “Nevermind that! I stiil want to beat you up for what you did! Don’t tell it to anybody, you hear me?”
“You mean to your girlfriend?” He look at me again. I just silent.
“Sure. Why do you think I would waste my time for something like that? But I’m not apologizing either.”
“Why?”
“Because I have no regret on what I did.”
I glared at him in anger. “After forcing someone like that, you don’t have any regret? You sure are sick!” I yelled and walk away. I don’t want any second more being around him. I feels sick.
But seeing his face somehow brought me to the feeling I want to forget.
His touch.
How my nipples throbbed against his touch. How he licked my need and make me cum. How his lips pressed strongly onto mine. Just by remembering it, my body feels hot. I couldn't erase the feeling of his touch all over my body.
I hit the wall besides me in upset.
What the hell is happen to me?
After that, he still watch me whenever I’m with my girlfriend. I can't get what he want. But as his eyes looking at me with the same passion like that night, I could feel my face blushing for unknown reason. If this keep going longer, I could be insane.
I start to not hearing my girlfriend voice although we’re together. Eventhough she’s beside me, my mind flew to that night and my eyes gazing at him whom behind her back.
"What do you want?"
Why did I come here again?
"Do you want to make her know about everything?!"
I’m getting sick being watched with those eyes.
I feel my body froze when I realize he moving closer to me. He then whisper huskily to my ear, "If you worried so much about it, then how about shutting my lips? You know how right?"
I felt my blood boiling. I biting my lips in upset and embarrassment. Guess I don't have another choice.
I move closer to him and aim for his lips, pressing my lips onto him. I sweep his lips with my tongue and slip mine inside. As our tongues meet just like that day, I feel surprisingly intoxicated this time and keep doing more.
But when I'm about to losing myself, he shove me away. He’s giving me an icy stare.
"You really did it just because you don't want her to know? Pathetic." His tone was clear as an insult. "You don’t even deserve my time. I regret I ever waste my time on you if I know I would hate you."
Just like that and he walk away.
I should be happy that it seems he won’t bother my life anymore. But why do I feel upset?
"Who is exactly he is? You both know him right?"
Yuto and Keito looked at me. It's the first time I came to meet them again after that day.
"He said I don’t deserve his time. He said he hate me." I muttered nonstop while gazing down, its sounds like a complaint more than a question. "Yet he still watching me with those eyes."
"He always watching you. Even before that night." Keito said.
"You just never realize."
Seeing me frown, Keito smiled.
"Do you know that his whole family moved to Tokyo? But he insist to live here alone so he won't be apart from you."
What?
“Do you know that he choose this institution just so he can watch you from afar?”
Yuto looked at my expression and continue Keito words.
"And do you know why you suddenly being introduced to the girl you like? It's because he asked us to do that. He did it for you. He sacrifice his own feeling to make you happy."
I feels my eyes widen.
"We just can watch him doing all of that eventhough it hurt him from the inside."
"That's why that day, when we saw him there, we're willing to help him. To give him a chance, just like what we did to you as your friends."
"All he ever want that its to stay as a secret. But maybe that day he saw you going to her house and the thought of never could have you again make he couldn't hold himself."
"Now you say that he said he hate you? Do you know how much power for him to say that? To let you go once again?"
I fell silent. What the hell?
"...I don't care about all that." I said coldly. "Just tell me one thing."
Yuto and Keito looked at me.
"Tell me.." I said again. "Tell me his full name."
"Gomen." I bow to her deeply and I get a slap but its nothing compare to what I did to her. To make her cry. I'm sorry.. but I can't lie to myself anymore. That day made me realize, that I actually never been in love before. Not.. until that day.
I find myself running to where he always watch me. But nothing come out from my mouth once I’m there. I'm panting hard from all that running as I lean my hands on my opened knees. But I can sense that he doesn’t step away from me.
"What are you feel for me?" I looked at him. "Do you actually... love me?"
"I hate you."
"RYOSUKE!" I raised my voice so suddenly.
He look at me when I called his name. It seems I hit his weakness.
“Just say it.”
"..yes."
I sighed deeply while looked at my knees. "Tell me that before you suddenly marched into me.Tell me whenever you watch me in here."
"If I did, you'll return my feeling?"
"No.."
I closed my eyes while smiled helplessly. "I would still falling in love with you either way."
I opened my eyes and look at him and I really like the expression on his face right now cause it help me to prove that I do the right thing.
He rushed into me and hugs me tight.
"I love you, Chinen Yuri. I love you so much that I don’t care even if I hurt. I love you." He's telling me over and over again like he's making up for the past time whenever he wants to tell me. I hug him back as tight as he is while telling him what he always wants to hear.
It's the day when my biggest regret turn to be the biggest thankful I ever feel. For the day I met him and for having him now on my side.
~Owatta~
P.S. I’m still working on the next chapter of my chaptered and I will post it soon ^^ Please enjoy this one first in the meantime. Hope you like it. Sorry for bad grammar. Comments are very loved by me :))
Author : nana aka athena aka yamachiisuki
Pairing : YamaChii
Rating : around NC-17
If only I didn’t accept my girlfriend offer to come to her house. If only I didn’t go home and took her offer to sleepover instead. If only I didn’t take that shortcut road to go home faster. If only I didn’t choose the wrong option that day, I wouldn’t thrown into a nightmare.
I just realized when the way seems quiet than normal. But it making me notice his presence. The sound of his footsteps, the terrifying sound that follows whenever my legs take a step. I’ve been stalked.
I turn back at once and I saw a glance of his figure. But it’s too dark. As I thinking, I prefer to walk in the light, so he wouldn’t dare to do anything.
But I’m wrong.
He suddenly marched and hug me from behind. His hand slip inside my collar and grope my chest while the other hand touch my belly.
Even its too dark to see his face clearly, I can still caught his sound of breathing. As a man, I know very well that he’s being in term like whenever I want to touch my girlfriend. My instinct said its dangerous so I kick him hard on the stomach.
And it’s my another mistake that day, I should have knock him out until he losing consciousness instead of one kick. But I choose to go to my friend’s house that was near there. The trusted friends whose also my girlfriend’s childhood neighbour. The same friends who introduce me with my girlfriend.
But little did I know that it was my biggest mistake.
I knocked one time and they let me in.
“Chii, what’s wrong? You’re panting.”
“A crazy guy were following me Yuto. He’s insane!”
“Are you sure?” Another one walk out from his room.
“Well Keito, you should feel how he touch your skin so you know I’m sure!”
“Gomen Chii, I didn’t intend to..”
“Just.. let me stay here today. I will go home once its bright.”
“Sure, Chii. Come, sit.” They invited me to sit on the wide sofa.
I told them the whole thing while I calm a bit with the warm milk Yuto made. They listen to my story and by talking to them make me gradually forget about the bad feeling.
“So you finally come to her house eh? You guys are finally getting serious.”
“Well I’m not sure about that. But she’s nice and I don’t want to make her sad. So maybe we are.” I smiled proudly.
“Woo.. Looks like we’re gonna be invited soon.” Yuto whistling.
“You should thanked us.” Keito smiled.
“Haha hai hai.” And I thought my night has end but it turns out it would still become a long night when I saw the door opened.
I gasped as the figure I saw before is there, looking at me with lust face.
Shit! Seems like Yuto forgot to lock the door.
“Yu-Yuto! That’s the guy!”
Yuto looked at the guy behind the door and said something that make my brain empty for a moment, “Oh.. Yama-chan, it's you? If I know, I wouldn’t let you outside too long.”
Huh?
“Yuto?”
“Come in Yama-chan.” Keito with his smile invited him.
“Keito! What do you think you’re doing? I told you he’s insane!”
“Calm down, Chii. It’s only Yama-chan.”
I looked at them in disbelief. Why they talk like it’s not a big matter? Like I’m the only one freaked out here?
The guy called Yama-chan come inside while not leaving his eyes on me. I feel horrible as I don’t know what’s happening.
“Are you guys insane? I told you he’s the same guy who attack me!”
“Don’t shout Chii. We told you its only Yama-chan. There’s nothing to be afraid of.”
I frown. They know him? This crazy guy?
If they know him, maybe this guy not a bad person like I think he is. Or maybe he’s just play a prank on me because he knows I’m their friend? Maybe even Yuto and Keito are involved in this joke.
But as I thought that, his arms reach onto me and grope me on the back. Another one sneak inside my shirt and touch my belly sensually. His lips on my neck. I startled as I push him hard away from me.
I’m not wrong about my instinct. He’s.. weird. And dangerous.
“You saw it?! He’s insane! Get him out of here!”
But my friends just stare us and not doing anything. Something odd is obviously going on here.
“Forget it. I just go home to my own house.”
I walk towards the exit but my feets never reach it that night. I’m being pushed to the wide sofa and I could feel he’s settling above me.
I arched my head to look at Yuto whom behind me. “Yuto, if this is a joke, it’s enough! Stop it! Or I would beat this guy up not minding even he’s a friend of yours!”
Yuto look at Yama-chan. He sighed.
“I’m sorry Chii. I cannot not obey Yama-chan.”
“What?”
My arms being held over my head by both Yuto and Keito. No matter how strong my strength, I couldn’t fight three guys at once. They tied my hands with a tight rope and tied the other end of it to the sofa’s leg.
“I THOUGHT YOU GUYS IS MY FRIENDS!!” I yelled angrily.
“We are your friends, Chii. That’s why we don’t let you guys do this outside.” Keito smiled warmly, but in this state, the smile is very much frightening for me.
Both of them went inside their bedroom and leaving me behind, alone with this maniac. I couldn't believe they turn their back and closed the door. They're like persons I never know.
I back to my awareness as I feel my neck being kissed. The guy called Yama-chan nuzzle his head down while kissing the side of my neck.
“Stop that! What do you think you’re doing?”
I tried to get my hands off but it's useless. The rope is just too tight.
He pull up my shirt and kissing me down to my broad chest until he found my nipple. He start kissing it the way it making me dizzy and he keep swirling around until both of its get wet. I tried my best to hold out and thinking how should I get out of this nightmare.
But I can't hold out any longer when I feel his hand moving to my pants.
"Aghh.. I said stop! Don't dare to touch it!"
I heard knocks from inside the room where Yuto and Keito are. “Can you at least reduce the shouting?”
“He didn’t want me.” He answered while still look at me.
“Yama-chan, don’t you know you should kiss each other before going to next part?”
I heard Keito said it in kind tone. But it’s so scaring to my ears. Yama-chan look at me with an eyes filled with realization. I closed my lips inside my mouth cause I know what’s gonna happening if I don’t.
He look at me as if he sad, “I don’t want to do this in the first kiss.”
He pressed my cheeks with his hand that make my mouth open on its own and slip his tongue inside. He began to kiss me passionately.
“Mmmphh..!”
Our lips pressed strongly together as he keep pressuring me and make my head arched back onto the sofa. His tongue touching and playing with mine inside that sent a chill on my back. I can't escape since he explore all of the area inside my mouth. Our tongues just keep meeting and he always licking onto me whenever its happen.
I just cursed in my mind repeatedly, damn with all this.
We’re breathing heavily when the long kiss finally released. I could feel he pull my zipper down.
"Why..?"
"Eh?"
"I never know you. Who are you?"
"I'm Ryosuke."
"Not your nam--" I twitched as he suddenly touching my dick which already free in the air. He licks it with his tongue several times before put his mouth onto my length.
"Errh.. ahh.."
I moaned while bite my lip. The tied around my hands feels tighten everytime he bobbing it up and down. I feel mine begin to stand proudly as he keeps stroke it inside his mouth. He keeps going faster and faster and after seem like a hour, I gasped as my fluid explode in his mouth, which he drinks it down to his throat.
He's looking like he satisfied that he could make me cum with his mouth.
"Everybody would if you did that." I answered sarcastically with my remaining strength while panted, not willing to see him happy.
Looking frustated, he then doing something at my ass with his fingers before he open his own shirt and pant, leaving him naked in front of me. I gasped as he suddenly thrust into me. I start to not care to anything after that and just close my eyes.
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I looked at the guy sleeping beside me before I stand up on my feet.
"Yuto.. you're there right?" I said while wearing my shirt that thrown quite far. I never heard my voice could be as low and cold as now. "Tell me, why did you guys do this to me?"
There's a silence before an answer came from inside the room. I could hear the door being opened a little. I could now see Yuto face. But the guilt that I searched for is not there on his face.
“Can’t you see it? He just wants you. All of his life. No matter even there’s a prettiest woman or me and Keito naked in front of him, he will just see you. Just you Chii, just you.”
I feel surprised but its not shown on my cold face. "It's not an answer."
I pick up my jacket as I walk out silently.
I don't want to think after all that. I don't want to even remember that ever happened. That day was my biggest regret in my life.
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"You guys still dare to show up before me?"
I said angrily when seeing they come to my class. They were silent maybe finally feeling guilty for what they done so I speak out.
"Did he threat you or something? Even if you scared, there’s three of us. We can beat him together. Or does he had your weakness? If you told me, I could at least do something about it."
"No Chii, he didn't."
I looked at them in horror. I still hope they were doing that for a better reason so I could forgive them somehow. "T-then why?"
"We just want to help him, that's all."
I continue to look at them in disbelief, "You both don't regret it at all, don't you?"
"No.. we're not."
I banged the table as I stood up, the anger overwhelmed me. It's hard to believe they were somebody I ever trust. "Don't ever get near me again!"
"Chii, let's eat lunch together." I heard my girlfriend walk inside the class at the same time. So I walk to her.
"Eh? What happened?"
I embrace her shoulder and pull her away from there.
"Don't get near them again. They're sick."
She confused but she just follows me obidiently. Then we take a break on the bench at the backyard. Turns out she brought me some food. I like when someone spoiled me like this.
"Did you fight with them?"
I stay silent. And she just looking at me worriedly.
"Yuto and Keito are a good person. I may not close to them but I know them since we’re little. Besides they're who introduce us together remember?"
"Right. I feel stupid I get close to them just because they introduce you to me."
She’s frowning, “Isn't it just yesterday you stayed at their house?”
I choked the food and cough, felt like hearing thunder. I looked at her in horror. “How do you know about that?”
“They told me when I met them this morning.”
“They.. told you?”
“..and they said something unbelievable. I don’t even want to believe it.”
“What.. what else they say?”
She’s frowning and avert her eyes nervously, “I can't believe they said that you...”
Oh no please tell me they didn’t tell her about what happened.
“That you were sleeping loudly. Pfft..” She giggled.
I blinking few times before my brain taking everything in. “Ahh.. you teased me.”
“I'm sorry. I want to punish you a little. Because you reject to sleepover at my house yet you stayed at their house afterward.”
“Youu~~” I mess up her hair while she keep on giggling. I smiled too. But suddenly I saw a figure behind her back, standing across from where we sit that makes my eyes widen.
Why the hell he’s here?
“Chii?” She confused looking at my sudden unmoved.
“I.. I have to go somewhere. Ja ne.” I run from there, my eyes still follows him. I could hear her calling from behind but I could careless at this time.
I still run towards where he is while my eyes still looking at him. He looked back at me, obviously know that I will go to him and he doesn’t seem has any intention to avoid me.
As I got to his place, I look at him like making sure it was really him. And by seeing him on the broad light like this, I just realize he's quite hot. But then I quickly back to my sense and glaring at him. “Why are you here?”
“I’m studying here.”
I looked him at disbelief. He’s in the same institution as me?
“You’re studying here? But I don’t-“ He cut my word.
“See me?”
I don’t answer but he looked at me knowingly.
“I know you don’t. You never see me eventhough I’m around.”
Huh?
"Hey Yamada~"
Some students called his name and he waved.
It seems the others know him. But why I don’t remember him at all?
“You just simply not interested with me.” He answered like he knows whats in my mind. "Or you only interested to someone you like."
I frown. “Nevermind that! I stiil want to beat you up for what you did! Don’t tell it to anybody, you hear me?”
“You mean to your girlfriend?” He look at me again. I just silent.
“Sure. Why do you think I would waste my time for something like that? But I’m not apologizing either.”
“Why?”
“Because I have no regret on what I did.”
I glared at him in anger. “After forcing someone like that, you don’t have any regret? You sure are sick!” I yelled and walk away. I don’t want any second more being around him. I feels sick.
But seeing his face somehow brought me to the feeling I want to forget.
His touch.
How my nipples throbbed against his touch. How he licked my need and make me cum. How his lips pressed strongly onto mine. Just by remembering it, my body feels hot. I couldn't erase the feeling of his touch all over my body.
I hit the wall besides me in upset.
What the hell is happen to me?
After that, he still watch me whenever I’m with my girlfriend. I can't get what he want. But as his eyes looking at me with the same passion like that night, I could feel my face blushing for unknown reason. If this keep going longer, I could be insane.
I start to not hearing my girlfriend voice although we’re together. Eventhough she’s beside me, my mind flew to that night and my eyes gazing at him whom behind her back.
"What do you want?"
Why did I come here again?
"Do you want to make her know about everything?!"
I’m getting sick being watched with those eyes.
I feel my body froze when I realize he moving closer to me. He then whisper huskily to my ear, "If you worried so much about it, then how about shutting my lips? You know how right?"
I felt my blood boiling. I biting my lips in upset and embarrassment. Guess I don't have another choice.
I move closer to him and aim for his lips, pressing my lips onto him. I sweep his lips with my tongue and slip mine inside. As our tongues meet just like that day, I feel surprisingly intoxicated this time and keep doing more.
But when I'm about to losing myself, he shove me away. He’s giving me an icy stare.
"You really did it just because you don't want her to know? Pathetic." His tone was clear as an insult. "You don’t even deserve my time. I regret I ever waste my time on you if I know I would hate you."
Just like that and he walk away.
I should be happy that it seems he won’t bother my life anymore. But why do I feel upset?
"Who is exactly he is? You both know him right?"
Yuto and Keito looked at me. It's the first time I came to meet them again after that day.
"He said I don’t deserve his time. He said he hate me." I muttered nonstop while gazing down, its sounds like a complaint more than a question. "Yet he still watching me with those eyes."
"He always watching you. Even before that night." Keito said.
"You just never realize."
Seeing me frown, Keito smiled.
"Do you know that his whole family moved to Tokyo? But he insist to live here alone so he won't be apart from you."
What?
“Do you know that he choose this institution just so he can watch you from afar?”
Yuto looked at my expression and continue Keito words.
"And do you know why you suddenly being introduced to the girl you like? It's because he asked us to do that. He did it for you. He sacrifice his own feeling to make you happy."
I feels my eyes widen.
"We just can watch him doing all of that eventhough it hurt him from the inside."
"That's why that day, when we saw him there, we're willing to help him. To give him a chance, just like what we did to you as your friends."
"All he ever want that its to stay as a secret. But maybe that day he saw you going to her house and the thought of never could have you again make he couldn't hold himself."
"Now you say that he said he hate you? Do you know how much power for him to say that? To let you go once again?"
I fell silent. What the hell?
"...I don't care about all that." I said coldly. "Just tell me one thing."
Yuto and Keito looked at me.
"Tell me.." I said again. "Tell me his full name."
"Gomen." I bow to her deeply and I get a slap but its nothing compare to what I did to her. To make her cry. I'm sorry.. but I can't lie to myself anymore. That day made me realize, that I actually never been in love before. Not.. until that day.
I find myself running to where he always watch me. But nothing come out from my mouth once I’m there. I'm panting hard from all that running as I lean my hands on my opened knees. But I can sense that he doesn’t step away from me.
"What are you feel for me?" I looked at him. "Do you actually... love me?"
"I hate you."
"RYOSUKE!" I raised my voice so suddenly.
He look at me when I called his name. It seems I hit his weakness.
“Just say it.”
"..yes."
I sighed deeply while looked at my knees. "Tell me that before you suddenly marched into me.Tell me whenever you watch me in here."
"If I did, you'll return my feeling?"
"No.."
I closed my eyes while smiled helplessly. "I would still falling in love with you either way."
I opened my eyes and look at him and I really like the expression on his face right now cause it help me to prove that I do the right thing.
He rushed into me and hugs me tight.
"I love you, Chinen Yuri. I love you so much that I don’t care even if I hurt. I love you." He's telling me over and over again like he's making up for the past time whenever he wants to tell me. I hug him back as tight as he is while telling him what he always wants to hear.
It's the day when my biggest regret turn to be the biggest thankful I ever feel. For the day I met him and for having him now on my side.
~Owatta~
P.S. I’m still working on the next chapter of my chaptered and I will post it soon ^^ Please enjoy this one first in the meantime. Hope you like it. Sorry for bad grammar. Comments are very loved by me :))