I consider myself so extremely lucky to have found someone so incredibly wonderful. I'm not trying to compete, I'm just amazed, simply amazed that this person has come into my life. I almost feel like I don't deserve him, like he's much too good to be with me, but I know that that isn't true, otherwise I wouldn't be here today expressing such ( Read more... )

These past few weeks have been so indescribable. I lost a loser, angered one of my best friends, and opened up to someone who I can honestly say is really good for me. I'm excited/sad/angered/optimistic/depressed/scared right now, and I love it.

One thing I've gotta say, relationships and work do not mix, whatsoever. It's even better when one of his best friends is a girl, not only that, but she's also a co-worker, and she hates my guts. Now, I'm not actually with the guy, nothing's official, but she likes to think that I'm slutty for talking to other male co-workers, and she deems it ( Read more... )

I think about it over and over, and everytime I come to one conclusion, confused. I'm confused on just about everything. I don't know how I'm feeling, what I'm feeling, and whether or not I should be feeling this way. I seriously hate all that is happening, and not because it's all bad, but because I don't know what to make of it.

You tell me one ( Read more... )

So, I guess I was right, things won't be working out after all. And I know that that's okay, because there were a few things that I wasn't looking forward to, a few things that I wasn't willing to sacrafice, A few things that I didn't want to have to go through.

Today I'll be celebrating Thanksgiving with the one guy who can't dissapoint me, the ( Read more... )

Things are incredibly great. Don't get me wrong, I love that everthing's working out, but at the same time, I'm so suspicious. I feel like, what the hell did I ever do to deserve this? It's the whole "you're not good enough" belief that I'm referring to, it's always there just waiting for me. Plus, you know, I'm just not used to all the attention, ( Read more... )

Didn't have work today, so instead I was able to go shopping, get a new bank account, hang out with one of my best friends, and manage to have an AMAZING night out. Yes, it's love.

Things have been so completely insane lately. It's like everything's getting thrown at me all at once, but the weird things is, is that it's all good things. I'm talking to people that I haven't seen in 4 years, I'm getting back in touch with people I thought I'd never talk to again, I'm meeting new people, I'm loving my job at the moment, I'm not ( Read more... )

I wasn't even able to go to any of my classes today. I woke up and just felt like shit, so I went to the doctor's, and had my blood drawn, there's nothing in this world I hate more than getting my blood drawn, typing it out just gives me the creeps, guh!

What's up with people trying to set me up with these random guys? I get this new job and ( Read more... )

People are probably going to hate me tomorrow, today I mean, but I really don't care.

Work=busy

I went to my first strip club on Friday! It was so much fun! I got a lap dance and everything! I expected it to be all gross and everything, but it really wasn't, it was fun and I'd totally do it again if someone wanted to go with me.

Things are so ( Read more... )