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Willow I tried to end the world, and killed people, Giles wanted to send me to England but they wouldn't take me. I didn't understand why they didn't just kill me, but I didn't dare ask that. Instead Giles sent me to Angel, Angel then had me work with someone that he didn't trust himself, but knew he was the only o ne magickally that could help me. I didn't get it, but I went along with it and moved on.
WesleyI look over at Angel. "Are you certain this is a good idea?" I ask him. He just shrugs and answers, "You're the only chance she's got," he says, walking out my door. I look back at Willow. "Can I get you something? Tea?"
Willow I sit curled up on his couch. "You can send me away if you want." I say plainly
WesleyI sit down on the couch near her, giving her a small smile. "I don't want to send you away."
Willow "You should."
WesleyI shrug. "I should do a lot of things, but I don't. I'm going to have some tea," I say, walking to the kitchen.
Willow I don't move, unsure what to do. "Just saying" I whisper.
WesleyI return with two cups of tea, offering her one. "Would you like to tell me why you feel you're here?"
Willow "I should be dead Wesley, I should have been killed for what I did, so no I don't know why I am here."
Wesley"Yes, well, so many people should be," I say, taking a sip of the hot tea. "So, you are here, then, to learn to forgive yourself and learn to control the magic, I assume."
Willow "They should have just taken it from me." I say bluntly
WesleyI lean forward and touch her hand softly. "I'm afraid it doesn't work that way. Once something is so engrained in one's body, it is impossible to remove it safely. You would have been turned into a vegetable."
Willow "And thats bad why" I start to cry as he touches my hand.
Wesley"Willow," I say softly, putting my tea down and pulling her to me, hugging her gently.
Willow "I killed people Wesley" I say through the tears.
WesleyI find myself rocking her gently. "Unfortunately you're not the only one ever to have done that," I say softly.
Willow "Wesley...just take it from me, I don't care if I die, just take it from me."
Wesley"No. You are needed here, Willow. You're not going to die."
Willow "No one needs me, No one wants me...I mean they wouldn't even take me in england, they were all scared of me as they should have been."
Wesley"Well, I'm here, aren't I? I've made you welcome in my home and I'm not afraid of you," I say simply.
Willow "I just don't understand..." I whisper as I lay against him.
Wesley"It's okay. I don't need you to understand, just to trust me, okay?" I say softly.
Willow "I..I will try" I whisper
Wesley"That's all I'm asking, Willow," I say gently.
Willow I cling to him. "You won't kill me?"
Wesley"I will never kill you Willow. You're needed in this world," I say gently.
Willow I cling "Thank you"
WesleyI hold her tightly to me. "You're welcome, Willow." I just hold her, I don't know what else I can say, nothing is going to make it any better right now.
Willow I close my eyes trying to take in this moment. "Why aren't you scared of me?"
Wesley"Why aren't you scared of me? I've done bad things, too. I'm not afraid of you, Willow."
Willow "You didn't kill people did you?" I ask
Wesley"Not yet, but I did kidnap the only child Angel would ever have. I tend to think that's a little worse," I say softly.
Willow "You did it to protect him didn't you."
WesleyI shrug. "I thought that's what it was, but I was wrong."
Willow "You did what you had to." I say softly
Wesley"I guess, but that's not important."
Willow "It is." I said softly "I'm sorry."
Wesley"Sorry for what?" I ask softly.
Willow "For bringing up bad memories." I say softly "I should go." I add as I stand up.
Wesley"No, please don't go," I say, taking her hand. "Please, Willow. I want to help you, but you've got to let me."
Willow I shake my head "You are better off without me."
Wesley"No. You will stay," I say, almost as an order.
Willow I whip around "You aren't my boss" I say defensivly "You aren't holding me captive are you?"
Wesley"No, god no, Willow. I'm sorry. It's just a habit, I guess." I try to explain.
Willow "Then I am leaving" I say as I head for the door.
Wesley"Where will you go?" I ask, standing in front of the door.
Willow "I will figure it out." I say "You want to move ornot?"
Wesley"Actually, no, I don't want to move."
Willow I push him out of the way "Then I will help you." I say as I push past him and out the door.
WesleyI follow her out the door, grabbing her and pulling her back into my apartment. "I don't want to force you to stay here, but I will."
Willow "Wesley, let me go" I say firmly "I am not a prisoner, you don't have me in chains, so let me go."
Wesley"That can be changed," I say firmly.
Willow "Let me go" I say "I will turn you into a toad."
Wesley"No you won't," I say confidently.
Willow I break free of his grasp "I am leaving, and you aren't stopping me." I raise my hand blocking him in and walk off. I needed out of there, why did Angel leave me there.