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Willow: I look through the boxes and see everything even my laptop. "Its all here..." I say happily.
Wesley I nod at them, thanking them again. "I told you they could handle it," I say as I shut the door as they leave.
Willow: "It isn't them I doubted." I said softly
Wesley "Mmm, I understand that. I'm pleased they were able to get everything without a conflict," I say, tring to sound a little too chipper.
Willow: "Wh..Where should i put this?"
Wesley "Where ever you like. As I said before, I want you to feel at home here. I honestly meant it," I say gently.
Willow: I want to be with him...wake up next to him every morning, but I can't...he doesn't want that...I don't think. "Since I just cleaned the spare room out, and located a bed in there. "...I will put everything in there." I say softly
Wesley "Oh," I say a bit sadly. "Of course, if that's what you'd like." I pick up a couple of the boxes.
Willow: "Is that not where you want me to put it?" I ask
Wesley I shrug, "No, it's fine. I was just..." I shake my head. "It's more than fine, Willow. Where ever you are the most comfortable," I say with a forced smile.
Willow: "Ok" I say as I carry the boxes in the room and put the clothes in a dresser and set out some pictures...feels like home...if this was home.
Wesley I let out a held breath and follow her, carrying in the rest of her boxes. "Can I help you with anything?
Willow: "Tell me it gets easier." I say suddenly
Wesley "It does. I promise you."
Willow: "Thank you" I whisper "Let me make lunch for you."
Wesley "I'd like that, Willow. Will you eat with me?" I ask, offering her my hand.
Willow: "No I am going to cook you a meal and not eat with you..." I say sarcastically. "Yes I will eat with you" I say with a smile.
Wesley "Smart ass," I say playfully, pulling her up against me.
Willow: I smile "Better than being a dumb ass." I say with a smile "Now I am making you lunch, no you can't help." I say softly as I guide him into the front room.
Wesley "Yes Mistress," I say with a grin. "Can I watch or is it a surprise?"
Willow: "No you can't, and no I am n ot your mistress, I just want to do something nice for you." I say and turn to walk in the kitchen.
Wesley "Willow, wait," I say softly.
Willow: I turn to him "Yes?"
Wesley I pull her to me and hug her tightly. I want to kiss her so bad, but I don't. "Thanks."
Willow: I hug him back "Don't know what for, but you are welcome."
Wesley I release her and go to the couch, openning the book I had pulled out of the shelf earlier.
Willow: I smile "Thank You" I whisper and go in the kitchen making lunch. Once I put it in the oven I start cleaning. Its the only way I can keep from doing something stupid like kissing him again when I know it isn't the right time for that.
Wesley I listen to her in the kitchen, wanting nothing more than to go wrap my arms around her and make her some how believe everything is going to be okay. I look down at the book, I think I've read the same paragraph about twenty times now. I sigh and try to concentrate, but my focus is on the sounds she's making, imagining her graceful movements.
Willow: The buzzer went off and the food was ready and the kitchen was clean, perfect timing. I pull everything out of the oven and dish it up. "Lunch is ready." I say with a smile.
Wesley I stand and smile, inhaling deeply. "It sounds great," I say honestly.
Willow: I set the plates out, make him some water and a beer. "Here you go."
Wesley "Wow, I'm impressed," I say as she offers me a beer. "This looks amazing, really."
Willow: I smile "I like to cook." I say as I sit down with him, my plate has less on it, but enough.
Wesley I smile at her, almost forgetting the food on my plate. "Oh," I say softly, prying my eyes away from her as I take a bite of the enchiladas. "Oh wow. You should like to cook because you're amazing at it."
Willow: "Thank you" I say with a smile.
Wesley "No, thank you." I smile at her, taking a drink from my beer. "I'm glad you've decided to stay, at least for now," I say softly.
Willow: I sigh "Where else would I be?" I ask "My only other option is jail..and they can't really charge me when the missing person burned away."
Wesley I look down, scooting the rice around on my plate. "I guess you're right."
Willow: "That and you wanted me here" I add
Wesley "I do," I say honestly, taking a bite of the rice.
Willow: I reach over to his hand and caress it "You are all I have Wesley." I admit...I can't admit he was all I wanted.
Wesley I tremble slightly as she caresses my hand, looking up to meed her eyes. "You're all I have, too. All I've had for a long while now."
Willow: "I won't leave as long as you allow me to stay." I say honestly.
Wesley "You don't have to leave ever, Willow. I honestly meant it when I said I wanted you to make yourself at home. It might be kind of nice to have a, um, roommate," I say. I want her to be so much more, but I can't tell her that right now.
Willow: "Then I am here until you get sick of me" I say with a smile.
Wesley I lace my fingers in hers. "I don't see that happening," I say, grinning.
Willow: I smile "Good, then we have nothing to worry about." I pick up my empty plate and his. "You want another beer?"
Wesley I shake my head. "One is my limit during the day. Thank you though."
Willow: "Yes sir" I say semi joking. I walk in the kitchen and do the dishes.
Wesley I shiver as she calls me sir. I watch her doing the dishes, taking the opportunity to look at her body as she moves gracefully.
Willow: Once the dishes are done I turn to Wesley "Mind if I go lay down? or did you want to work some?"
Wesley I shake my head. "I'm on your time schedule. There's no rush or anything. I'm not going anywhere, I assure you."
Willow: "If you want to start...I am ready." I say honestly. "If you want me to be rested, then maybe I should go lay down."
Wesley I nod. "You should be rested and relaxed. I'm glad you're ready, though. I think the sooner we make some progress, you'll feel better," I say gently.
Willow: I hug him. "Thank you. If you allow me to rest, maybe 2 hours?"
Wesley I wrap my arms around her, gently breathing in her scent. "Why don't you just come find me when you wake up. I've gotten used to sleeping during the day recently anyway."
Willow: "Ok." I say unsure what to do now. I walk towards the spare room and stop still nervous. "Wesley "Tell me you will be here when I wake up."
Wesley "I will be. Maybe not right in this exact spot, but I'll be here, I promise," I say, wanting to wrap her in my arms and carry her to my bed.
Willow: "Thank you." I say as I walk into the room and lay down. I clutch the pillow to me, its not like holding someone, but its something.
Wesley "You're welcome," I say softly, walking to my own room. I curl up on my side, looking at the open door, somehow willing her to walk through it.
Willow: I lay in bed and start to cry. I was so lost, and scared.
Wesley I hear her crying softly, wondering if I should go in there. It's breaking my heart to listen to her. I try to ignore it, to give her space, but I can't let her just hurt. I slide out of my bed and walk into the spare room, not saying anything as I crawl in beside her, wrapping my arms around her and just holding her gently.
Willow: I turn over and cling to him. I don't stop myself, instead i lean in and kiss him deeply.
Wesley I wrap my arms tightly around her, surprised when she kisses me deep and hard. I kiss her back, sliding my hands down her back.
Willow: As I kiss him I start to unbutton his shirt. I want to get lost in him, forget everything.
Wesley I moan softly as she begins to unbutton my shirt, reluctantly pausing her hands. "Willow, are you sure you want this?" I ask, already feeling myself growing hard.
Willow: "I want to get lost in you....I know I am probably horrible for wanting this, but I do."
Wesley "Oh god no, you're not horrible, I want it too," I say, moving my hands to the buttons on my shirt that she's wearing.
Willow: "Help me..." I moan as I unbutton his shirt and move to unbutton his jeans.
Wesley I quickly unbutton the shirt she's wearing, moving my hands to unbutton and unzip my jeans. I look up into her eyes and slide my hands across her bare stomach, grazing the bottoms of her breasts.
Willow: I moan, pressing my body into his touch. "Wesley" I moan out.
Wesley I tremble as she presses her chest against my hands, rubbing my thumbs across her small, hard nipples.
Willow: "Wesley...please" I moan loudly
Wesley "Please what, Willow?" I say, pulling her down to kiss her deeply again.
Willow: I kiss him back. "I need you" I moan out
Wesley "You can have me any way you like, Willow," I say softly, sliding my hands between the flannel pants and her skin, caressing her ass softly.
Willow: I gasp "I need you" I beg
Wesley I slide my hands down further, sliding the pants down and tossing them off the bed. "Anything you need, anything," I say, throwing both of our shirts over the side as well.
Willow: I pull back "Wesley...We do this...You are more than one night...Just don't think me evil for wanting this."
Wesley I shake my head. "I don't. I promise you, anything you want, anything you need, I don't expect anything more from you, I'm okay."
Willow: I look at him, feeling bad for how he feels, but right now I just need him. I pull him to my lips kissing him deeply.
Wesley I moan into the kiss, trying to slide my jeans down over my hips.
Willow: I move off of him and pull his jeans down then look him in the eyes. "Please be gentle."
Wesley I meet her eyes, nodding my head. "Always, Willow. I swear."
Willow: I kiss him again then pull his boxers down and throw them aside. "I need you." I whisper as I move back over him and after stroking him a bit I slowly guide him inside me.
Wesley I gasp as she straddles me, sliding slowly down on my hardness. "Oh god Willow," I moan, my hands caressing her small breasts, allowing her to take me into her as she is ready.
Willow: I cry out as he slides in me. "Oh God" I cry out
Wesley I moan loudly, feeling her tight wetness squeezing me. I force myself not to move, not wanting to hurt her. "Easy, just relax Willow," I say, pulling her to my mouth as I kiss her again passionately.
Willow: I kiss him deeply, my hands caressing his body as I don't move on him.
Wesley I moan into the kiss, sliding my hands over her bare back. "You are so beautiful," I say softly.
Willow: "Thank you" I whisper as I lean forward and kiss him my hands caressing his body still. I begin to move on top of you, allowing for you to thrust up into me.
Wesley I feel her start to move on my hardness, groaning softly into her mouth as I start to rock my hips up, moving slowly, gently inside her.
Willow: I moan and gasp, my body growing used to him inside me. "Oh Wesley" I cry out "I need you..."
Wesley "God Willow, yes," I gasp, rocking up into her a bit harder, still slowly, wanting to let her get used to my thickness.
Willow: I move off of him and lay on my back, pulling him on top of me. "Don't hold back." I plead.
Wesley "I won't," I say, spreading her legs a bit wider as I slide slowly into her, my body pressing against her.
Willow: I gasp again pulling him down to me kissing him firmly, my tongue sliding into his mouth dueling with his.
Wesley I moan loudly, kissing her hard and passionate as I slide almost all the way out before pushing back in.
Willow: I cry out in pleasure as he thrusts into me.
Wesley "God Willow, you feel so good," I moan, starting to move a little faster inside her. I lean over, taking one of her small nipples into my mouth, sucking gently.
Willow: my eyes roll back in my head as he does this, his mouth on my nipples, his hands on my body, it was almost too much to take. "WESLEY" I gasp out.
Wesley I moan around her small, hard nipple, thrusting into her, feeling her take me deep inside.
Willow: "Harder, please." I plead.
Wesley I lift my mouth from her breast, wrapping my arms underneath her back, gripping her shoulders as I rock my hips hard and deep into her. "Oh god, you feel amazing. So tight and wet," I groan.
Willow: I scream as he thrusts hard and deep in me. "I love you in me." I scream out then kiss him deeply
Wesley I groan loudly, my hips pistoning into her. I can feel my head connecting with her back wall, and leave my cock deep in her, circling my hips before pulling out and fucking her again.
Willow: I couldn't hold back any longer, the feeling of him deep within me, the feeling of him taking me hard makes me scream, my muscles tighten around him and I cum in a flood.
Wesley I cry out, feeling her walls squeeze me, pushing me closer to my own orgasm. I bite my lip and move only slightly inside her, my hand pinching her small nipples.
Willow: I scream with what he does. His fingers on my nipples...my body writhing beneath him. "Wesley" I cry out
Wesley I shudder, feeling her moving more on me, biting my lip to prevent my climax. "Willow, I have to stop," I moan, not wanting to.
Willow: "Why?" I plead "Please don't." holding him to me.
Wesley "No," I gasp, "It's just that I'm not wearing a c-condom," I explain.
Willow: "Its ok" I say loudly "Trust me"
Wesley "God Willow, I can't hold back," I say, feeling my balls tighten. I'm about ten seconds from exploding.
Willow: I buck up against him "I'm on the pill." I say against his ear.
Wesley "Oh fuck!" I cry out, thrusting hard and fast into her, my eyes locked on hers as I pump hard and fast into her, seating my cock deep inside her as I cum, screaming her name.
Willow: I scream out when he cums. "WESLEY" I couldn't hold back my yells.
Wesley I grunt loudly as I thrust a few more times deep into her, kissing her deeply as her walls milk my shaft.
Willow: I hold the kiss, my tongue dueling with his. I have top pull back to breath my hands moving over his back, my body useless for anything now. "Oh Wesley"
Wesley "Willow," I say softly, looking into her eyes. I slide slowly out of her, laying down beside her and pulling her close to me.
Willow: I curl up with him, my body covered in sweat. Who would have thought I would have done this...."Wesley" I whisper
Wesley "I'm here," I say softly, kissing her forehead then nose then cheeks. I can't believe I'm laying here with her, naked, sweating, panting, wrapped tightly in my arms.
Willow: "Thank you" I say as my eyes grow heavy and I rest my head on your shoulder.
Wesley "Thank you," I say back to her, my heart rate finally settling as I feel her relax against me.
Willow: "Rest with me?" I ask
Wesley "I would love to," I say, pulling her body to curl against mine. I was praying she wouldn't kick me out, but I didn't dare ask.
Willow: I fall asleep in his arms, my body at his mercy.
Wesley I hold her protectively against me. I can't believe what just happened. I don't know what to expect when we wake, but I can't worry about that right now. I watch her sleep, memorizing this feeling of her small body wrapped against mine.
Willow: I don't know how long I was asleep but when I woke up I was naked, and wrapped in Wesley. "What have I done" I whisper.
Wesley I swallow hard as she wakes up, immediately regretting our actions. I was afraid this would happen. "It's okay, Willow."
Willow: "I am only going to hurt you" I whisper. I don't regret what we did, just that its going to hurt him in the end.
Wesley "You can't hurt me, Willow," I say softly.
Willow: "Eventually I will..." I whisper as I look away tears falling.
Wesley I loosen my grip on her, allowing her to leave if she wants to. "I don't believe so," I say with confidence. I know she won't hurt me physically, emotionally is a completely different thing.
Willow: I don't move, unsure what to do. "Wesley...I don't regret what we did..." I say softly
Wesley "You don't?" I ask, a little surprised. "I thought I was just a distraction and I'm okay with that," I say honestly.
Willow: "You were...but I also wanted it." I admit..."I just can't bear to hurt you."
Wesley I give her a small smile. "Trust me, Willow. I'm not afraid of you, you're not going to hurt me," I say honestly.
Willow: "So, if this was a total mistake my eyes when I woke up you would have been ok with that?"
Wesley I look away, unable to look into her eyes. "Do you want me to be honest?"
Willow: "Yes...always" I whisper
Wesley I take a deep breath, staring at the ceiling. "Would I have been okay with it? Yes. Is that what I was hoping for? Not at all. I just want to be whatever you need," I say honestly.
Willow: I feel a tear falling "Wesley" I whisper as I look away
Wesley I look back at her, wiping the tear gently away. "Willow, please talk to me."
Willow: "I..I don't know what to say." I admit honestly.
Wesley "Just tell me what you're feeling," I say softly, pulling her close to me again.
Willow: "Lost, scared, lonely yet needed...confused...and like a murderer who shouldn't have someone like you."
Wesley "Sounds about like how I feel right now," I admit softly.
Willow: "Wesley..." I whisper "Would you hate me if I needed some time to think?"
Wesley I shake my head. "I could never hate you, Willow. Do you want me to go?" I ask, willing to give her the time and space she needs.
Willow: "I..I am just going to go for a walk if that is ok."
Wesley "It's perfectly okay. Will you please take a stake with you at least?" I ask, wanting to make sure she's okay. I'm afraid to ask if she'll come back, I'm afraid of what the answer might be.
Willow: "I will...and I promise, I will come back."
Wesley I can't help but grin at that. "I'm glad to hear that. I'd miss you a lot if you didn't," I say sincerely.
Willow: "Thank you" I say as I stand up gathering clothes. "I will wash these for you later." I say as I go to the closet getting a pair of my jeans out and a shirt and bra.
Wesley "There's no need, Willow. Just return safely and that's all I ask." I try not to stare as she moves around the room, but her smooth, pale skin is so gorgeous.
Willow: "I promise I will." I say as I pull my shirt one and slid my feet into my shoes. "I promise."
Wesley "I believe you, Willow," I say softly.
Willow: I kiss his cheek then leave, heading out the front door.
Wesley I swallow the lump in my throat as I hear the front door shut, sliding off the bed and stripping it of the sheets. I don't know what she'll decide, but I'm fairly sure she doesn't want the reminder of what we did in her bed. I toss the sheets and pillowcases in my laundry hamper, easily dressing the bed in fresh sheets, making it neatly. I gather my clothes, tossing mine in the hamper as I hold the ones that she was wearing up to my face, deeply inhaling her scent. Maybe it's a little weird, but I toss them on my bed as I walk to the shower, turning on the water as hot as I can stand it.