Painful Fantasy : 8 Jan 2012
My date and timing for my posts are not in sync due my computer not being able to comprehend date and time. =/
I apologise :)
Sometimes I wonder if I would ever stand before the gates, stand before you.
Sometimes I imagined I did and I would feel the wramth and tugs of true happiness, of loving and being loved in my heart and be around those who I could love unconditionally. Never have to deal with betrayal, unlimited expectations, lies, greed and hatred. I'd look further in and I'd see my half, hold hands and join in the music that everyone danced and sang along but then a crack of darkness rips through the ground below me and I, alone fall. As I fall, I see the light getting dimmer and I remember and know that I would never get to belong in fantasy. A sharp contracition in my chest brings me back to reality as I weep silently from my bleeding heart.
I apologise :)
Sometimes I wonder if I would ever stand before the gates, stand before you.
Sometimes I imagined I did and I would feel the wramth and tugs of true happiness, of loving and being loved in my heart and be around those who I could love unconditionally. Never have to deal with betrayal, unlimited expectations, lies, greed and hatred. I'd look further in and I'd see my half, hold hands and join in the music that everyone danced and sang along but then a crack of darkness rips through the ground below me and I, alone fall. As I fall, I see the light getting dimmer and I remember and know that I would never get to belong in fantasy. A sharp contracition in my chest brings me back to reality as I weep silently from my bleeding heart.