I am out of practice at failing.
So.
word vomiting so I quit wanting to cry at something that's TOTALLY NORMAL.
Trying a New Thing (SQL queries in SCCM). Am not so much BAD as TOTALLY FUCKING LOST. I don't even know how to ask the questions that I need to ASK. And every time I run into the wall of You Don't Know This, I want to cry.
I KNOW that it's normal not to know things, and I KNOW that SQL is regarded as, like, one of the Worst Ever, but it still sucks and there's only so many times I can hit my head with a brick before I just want to walk away and Never Try Again, which is BAD FUCKING PRACTICE and I know that, but jfc, is there a better way to learn something then just stabbing yourself multiple times and getting back up to ask for another fucking go-round?