There is nothing in the world like hearing your father cry. The person you consider your protector, being so vulnerable, is chilling to me. And to know the reason why he's crying is at the thought of losing you, is even more saddening. I need to be home now.

i feel as if no one wants to get to know anyone anymore. everyone is too caught up in their own insignificant endeavors that they don't care enough to see the people around them. i want to have an in depth conversation. i want to learn about someone who i know little about. i want someone to get to know me, realize that i'm a special girl with ( Read more... )

today was a lot of fun.

last night i had the most vivid dream. my grandfather was still alive, just barely, sleeping in the room beside mine. we lived our normal lives, but he wouldn't move from his bed, connected to all sorts or tubes and machines. i would stop in everyday and lay beside him and talk about things, like my life and how he was feeling. he looked so pale, ( Read more... )

I just got drunk off of the scent of a passerby. Gross.

With the holidays just around the corner I want nothing more than to be with my family. I have the worst seasonal depression ever. I don't want to be around anyone.

Next semester is going to be so hard. Its going to be the worst thing since dumb and dumberer.

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in south station. I just took the train from home and I should be on my way to work, but that is the last place in the world I'd like to be. I'm so temped to hop on a bus to new york city. The summer before last when I lived there was incredible. So free and so accomplished. I'm like 87% sure that after I graduate early next december I' ( Read more... )

Every hopeless romantic should watch "a lot like love" at least once.

This is the first year in seven years zach hasn't come over for thanksgiving ( Read more... )

If nothing else, its promising to know that I am still capable of getting butterfiles in my stomach.