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Still felt pretty horrendous today, found it difficult to concentrate on work in the morning. I have been mulling over the options and what seem to be the answers, mostly tried/tested and failed reactions. So there isn't really more choices left. I've even thought of looking at jobs outside of Birmingham, they don't have to be across the country but maybe somewhere a little away from here. But then I'm just running away from the problem and finding other problems elsewhere, that doesn't necessarily always work out for the best either. I could try to cut out the affected person out of my life (which seems to be the most attractive option at this point) but then there's billions of problems associated with that (we have too many common friends making it difficult to avoid one another, eventually he will make me feel guilty and silly for reacting or in his eyes "over reacting" and then I'll succumb and the whole thing will start over). One thing is for sure- the whole thing needs to end. Soon. Somehow. I need to think some more.
I feel like I'm letting people down at work, I'm not working at my best. Yes it's boring and I kind of hate one of the projects but then again so do many others. I should really try harder.
Only 2 days left until Sarah and I go on our little spa holiday, am very much looking forward to the massages, mud bath, pedicures, food and other fun stuff.
Have a very tight budget this month with all the various bills that needed paying (deposit, rent) and upcoming bills (phone bill, littlewoods, virgin media, gas and electric, etc etc). October should be better.
Hmmm minus the complaints, this was a slightly pointless entry I suppose! Ah well.