[SERiES] 낙원 (Paradise) - prologue
title: 낙원 (Paradise)
pairing: gdyb, yunjae, todae, yoosu, minri
genre: romance, angst, smut
rating: PG-13, NC-17
warning: abuse, drugs
disclaimer: these ten adorable boys are mine, in my head. youngbae owns jiyong. and i own youngbae's height; 180 cm.
summary: a thorn stuck in one corner of the heart. somehow pain was the only thing they could feel, instead of love. maybe it was true; to be happy, you have to get hurt. and that was their paradise, sinful paradise.
prologue:
i trip, i fall.
you're there, through it all.
most times i really don't deserve it
you give, you take,
you bend, you break,
i know it's soon but i want you to know...
my everything by claude Kelly
Everything you wanted was that he loves you...
Everyone makes mistakes, but you wanted that his past would not be so disgusting. You had accepted him, but his past repeated itself again and again. You saw pieces of his life which you would rather never have seen, known, spoken. You wish that you wouldn't has to feel their pain in your heart. You wish he was not so heartless.
Deep inside they scream for love, tears, lips... They want to feel hands around them. They want to hear gentle voices and to feel heartbeats. They want to know how beautiful they are, how good they are. They want to touch, the one they like and want. They want a life, but it's impossible. - they hate the word 'impossible' -Because they were not perfect.
They were trapped in a sinful paradise.
No way out.
The first rays of the sun showed up. Orange light rays. My heart fell slowly, and I was breathing with difficulty through. The light became brighter and brighter until my eyes began to burn, but I let the warm feeling come to me. Such a warm feeling I had with him, too, and I let myself go into the deep, fiery heaven. I was not scared and will never be.
Because, this was the place where I could be with him, forever, because "to be happy, you have to get hurt."