I cannot express how much happiness Leora has brought to me in this short week I have known her! It feels like it has been years because I feel so close to her. I have opened my heart completely to this sweet girl and she seems to be thriving as a result ( Read more... )

I am so excited about taking Leora to the beach tomorrow! Having a couple of hours in the car together we should be able to get better aquanted. I want everything to go perfectly! I pick her up at 900, so we should be in Petaluma by 1030. We can eat there or get sandwiches at the Italian deli and bring to the beach. It will be Kimbo's first time ( Read more... )

I met the beautiful Leora yesterday!! I could not have even wished for last night to go so well!! I fell in love with her beaming smile and sunny disposition within the short time we were together last night! She extrudes and energy and happiness that is contagious. I felt so comfortable with her that looking back, I should have probably reined in ( Read more... )

The Fiesta went off perfectly! Shensi and Jason were both so happy. It warmed my heart to see them that way. It has been a long time. I think the Fiesta brought them closer and made the wedding all very real suddenly ( Read more... )

Already Monday morning but I feel pretty good. I am happy this is a short week for me; leave early Thurs for a doc apt and off Friday to cook for the Fiesta ( Read more... )

Things are getting close for the Fiesta next Saturday. Months of planning have gone into this so I hope it all comes out successfully. I might have bit off more than I can chew by asking to do the co-ed wedding shower. A party for 50 is bigger than I have ever hosted before. My nervousness has been quieted though. A week ago I was stressed about it ( Read more... )

What a lousy week! I am so glad it is finally Friday ( Read more... )

I went to the As Bill Sees It meeting last night although I didnt really feel like it. Of course, once there, I knew I was in the right place. My girlfriend Terri shared when the scheduled speaker didnt show. I always enjoy hearing her story because she tells different parts of it each time so I learn more about her. She has gone through hell. I ( Read more... )

I miss Corina terribly today. Over lunch, I thought of her nearly every bite of my salad and sour dough rolls. How she loves bread, especially when it is chewy and a little hard. These rolls were hard on the outside but soft and almost squishy inside. She would like them. As I picked at my salad, I was reminded of the time I was making a Caesar ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I celebrate one year clean and sober. Why do I feel so unhappy? Why is my diseased mind telling me I should have everything now that I have worked so hard? Why can't I get over the fact that living amends do not fix the wreckage I caused in the past ( Read more... )