i can't complain about anything at this point, mike makes me the happiest girlfriend ever :)

today was FUCKING FANTASTIC, i couldn't dream anything better then what atcually happened, i said all the things i have ever wanted to say, i've done all the things i wanted to, today was nothing less then perfect

October 12, 2006
when you have your ups, your always going to have your downs
i forgot about that part, and i felt as if i was ontop of ( Read more... )

i was reading my past few entries, and after reading a few, it seems like i'm so depressed, but i just write when i'm upset or in a bad mood, why else would i have a livejournal other then a place to vent my feelings ( Read more... )

scracth that whole entry, i was thinking about it alot, and i admit call me stupid, foolish and dumb cause i am, but i'm sick of blaming myself for other people's actions. Its not my fault at all, YOU USED ME AGAIN. it wasn't me, i had all the right intentions. I might feel worse after yelling at someone, i have such a big heart i can't help it. I' ( Read more... )

you've got to understand something about me, i have a need to be reminded that you feel something for me, a day after, and when i don't get that, i close off, i close off to you, and thats what i'm doing, i'm trying to block you out. It seems like your just pushing me away again and tossing me off to the side, just like i felt before. This is what ( Read more... )

this week has sucked, but my weeks are never good, so i guess i can say, this week was just like the rest. I got my MCAS testing results back, i got "proficient" YES! Not advanced, no needs improvment, just right in the middle, i think thats the best i have ever done on MCAS yet. So i finally got a new job, i'm quiting shaw farm tomorrow, nervous ( Read more... )

this is to much for one day, i can't process this all in my head at once, but i'll sum it up
a friend is trying become more then a friend
a crush is leaving me
a person i despise is trying to reconnect
a best friend is regained
a job i despise
a life i can't take

and all in the process, i can honesty say, I’m haven't been the real me

i know if i had ( Read more... )

so i just got my ipod fixed, its been broken since january, no lie
and i just realized how much i changed and how much i've drifted apart from others. If i knew last year how things were going to be, i'd laugh cause its a far from what it was. Its strange sitting in class with past friends, who you don't even say hi on a day to day bases anymore. ( Read more... )

i admit, i've never been this happy with myself. At this point, i really don't care about anyone else besides people close to me. i don't care what has happened in the past, i only care whats happening now. School starts in 2days, and this year i got to say, i don't care. Don't get me wrong, i do still care about many things, but this summer has ( Read more... )

i don't want summer to end at all, i don't want anything to change,  i don't want to go back to school, this week is the last full week until school, and i'm trying to hang on every last mintute of it cause i know when school hits its not going to be the same, i'm never going to have the same summer again, but i'll always have the memories, ( Read more... )