as of rite now..i really have 2 choices.

1) give up on everything n lose a part of me
2) try so hard that i will burn out but will succeed like i "should" b

well clearly i want to succeed like i "should" b..but that translates into me not having a life, gettin 3-4 hrs of sleep a nite, keeping everything to maiself (or in the confides of mai room), n ( Read more... )

WOOOOOOOO I HAVE MAI G2!!!!!!!!!! HELLA YEA!

OK so lets talk about the break so far. ummmmm last fri..i really dont remember n e thing lol or sat, or sun for that matter. im not gonna lie. i prolly just did alot of sleeping or something.  umm on monday i slept in till iono 12 im guessing, went to work for 4:30, came home 8:30 ish. n did nothing lol tues i had a piano lesson n afterwards i ( Read more... )

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

Cos everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
Cos everytime we ( Read more... )

just one last time..i want to believe, i want to remember y i still do this.
i want to remember y i put maiself through this..but i do knoe y.  bcuz without this i wouldn't b n e thing.  this has become a part of who i am, a part that i refuse to let go but holding on seems to b worse.
i dont knoe wut to do or wut to say n e more. im so tired of life ( Read more... )

OK so lets sum up mai life to date.
1) piano competition this sat. (uh kinda unprepared n super nervous about it)
2) 1st spare is AMAZING
3) report card - 84% overall. not bad, but could b better
4) got new celly - i'm absolutely in love with it..mainly cuz its orange haha
5) i miss him
6) i really really really want someone to b *there* for me (*ahem* ( Read more... )

yes i know, im not effin chinese. buttttt i celebrate the same new years as chinese ppl. so in light of 2nite being new years eve.

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!!!  ^.^

so let me explain how mai exams r goin so far.  on thursday i had mai physics exam...it was ok.  some ?s were hard...others were really simple.  i think i should do well on it...that is good enough to hopefully not let mai mark drop.  ummm today i had english.  it wasn't necessarily hard, but it was really long.  i wrote effin 8 pgs..actually it ( Read more... )

I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
Oooo (oh, oh, oh, oh) oooo

Chemistry was crazy from the get-go
Neither one of us knew why
We didn't build nothing overnight
Cuz a love like this takes some time
People swore it off as a phase
Said we ( Read more... )

OK OK so let me explain mai week.  on friday i got mai isu project bak n guess wut i got on it? 2-, 2-, 1+, 2-...yea. i almost had an anyeurism. i wanted to KILL someone.  yuuup. then i find out @ 3rd that i only have a fuckin 85. like WTF i should have @ least a 90. thats so fuckin b/s. n e ways. i was pissed off beyond belief. soooo on fri nite i ( Read more... )