On life and blessings and the MOVE
Your failures do not define you!
Yes, am totally moving on! Movin' on, baby! (am singing that part now)
It's been a while, and I really miss writing. From August to early October, I was still busy with the Black Eyed Peas Live in Manila 2011 project. I never got to finish or watch the show though because I resigned first week of October. Since late July, I have been planning a big move.
My last job made me write scripts and produce television commercials for our local concerts. This wasn't so different from my first love-- news writing and production for Television. Only that I was writing about a different topic--primarily, entertainment and live events. I also got to plan and produce sponsorship packages for the said concerts held in Manila, Philippines. One of the best parts of the job made me write press releases and articles for the concert and my former boss--actor and entrepreneur, Marvin Agustin.
It was fulfilling... but....
Yes, there is a 'but' there.
Many issues came with that work... some I've written about here before too.
On my last few weeks, I was accused of some awful things and words uttered deeply hurt me.
In the end, I was cleared... and my boss said he still wanted me to stay. But some things just can't be undone, right?
Nonetheless, I made some good friends and I still want to see them someday.
That job made me work harder, stretch my limits and really really value the fact that someone believes in me and in my talent-- no matter how small I think it is.
So there. I have no regrets. I gave it my best shot... I planned ahead, I knew it was a good decision.
On my first day, it never crossed my mind that there would be a last day.
Everyday I fought and worked hard to prove myself; To prove my worth and that I deserve a place in that company.
Did my mistakes weigh more than everything I've worked hard for?.. I couldn't help but ask that too...
But as the chapter comes to an end, I believe that there will always be revisions to your plans or goals... and you should be open to it.
But...
and yes, another 'but.'
It. broke. my. heart.
I cried endlessly... I grieved and loneliness flooded me and the inner most parts which no one could see.. or understand.
My confidence and self-worth shattered... my pride--almost gone and yes, my love almost ran out.
I was tired. I was sooooo worn out.
I just kept thinking.. 'Why did it end this way?'
I never thought I would come to this point. Me--getting packed, ready to leave the Philippines and go back to the United Arab Emirates. I was born and raised in Abu Dhabi, UAE. I stayed there until I was almost 9 years old. I came to the Philippines to finish my studies and I loved it here. I actually was comfortable with where I am and my career path in this country. Suddenly, I get this chance to work abroad and build a new life there.
Mixed emotions there. I'll be leaving the family I am very close and dependent to. Same with life long friends and spiritual family. I'll have to leave my ministry which I dearly love and cherish. I'll be in a foreign land and I'll be on my own. That actually scares me. Can I do it? Am I that strong? What to do if I miss everyone here in the Philippines sooo much?
For the past two weeks, I've been praying and praying. Waiting for some answers. Waiting.. and waiting.
And finally, though I still am not 100% sure and confident, I am ready.
More than five people in my life, they are not my relatives but close friends and they have seen me grow over the decade... they encouraged me and comforted me. They told me that there is a purpose in everything.. especially for the part of leaving my family and my country. It might not even be work, but my mission in life is still connected to the country I am going to.
Then I remembered. I remember why UAE will always be special to my heart. Why it has to be UAE. Why a part of me belongs there... and like what I've said as I was leaving UAE when I was almost 9, this isn't goodbye. I will go to the Philippines but I will DEFINITELY come home. Yes, UAE in more ways than one--is also my home.
I thank my creator for showing me a love--so stubborn and an unconditional love like no other! Through my family and some special people, I have come to realize that there really is a purpose for everything. Somehow, it is not just blessing me and what is mine, but roads will lead you to be a blessing to others.
I am far from perfect, as what my favorite female singer-songwriter said.. skeletons in my closet are too big for me to hide.. but yes, your failures-- don't let them define you. You gotta learn from the past, not live in the past. Take the gift of the 'present' and bright, beautiful future!
And I keep repeating this to myself.. Judging others is the result of not loving them. If you only see the negative in others, if you can't see the other side of their hearts, then it's not that they are at fault-- but it's you! You are the one with the critical spirit. I have been this way-- and I want to overcome this too!
Thanks to everyone who have been a comfort and friend to me. I really needed that! You are God's gifts to me! I will continue to learn from life and from the giver of life!
Please continue to support me as well! ^____^
Love,
Grace
The only opinion of you that is important, is God's. Focus on living your life, and let the opinions of others be what they are.
♥
Yes, am totally moving on! Movin' on, baby! (am singing that part now)
It's been a while, and I really miss writing. From August to early October, I was still busy with the Black Eyed Peas Live in Manila 2011 project. I never got to finish or watch the show though because I resigned first week of October. Since late July, I have been planning a big move.
My last job made me write scripts and produce television commercials for our local concerts. This wasn't so different from my first love-- news writing and production for Television. Only that I was writing about a different topic--primarily, entertainment and live events. I also got to plan and produce sponsorship packages for the said concerts held in Manila, Philippines. One of the best parts of the job made me write press releases and articles for the concert and my former boss--actor and entrepreneur, Marvin Agustin.
It was fulfilling... but....
Yes, there is a 'but' there.
Many issues came with that work... some I've written about here before too.
On my last few weeks, I was accused of some awful things and words uttered deeply hurt me.
In the end, I was cleared... and my boss said he still wanted me to stay. But some things just can't be undone, right?
Nonetheless, I made some good friends and I still want to see them someday.
That job made me work harder, stretch my limits and really really value the fact that someone believes in me and in my talent-- no matter how small I think it is.
So there. I have no regrets. I gave it my best shot... I planned ahead, I knew it was a good decision.
On my first day, it never crossed my mind that there would be a last day.
Everyday I fought and worked hard to prove myself; To prove my worth and that I deserve a place in that company.
Did my mistakes weigh more than everything I've worked hard for?.. I couldn't help but ask that too...
But as the chapter comes to an end, I believe that there will always be revisions to your plans or goals... and you should be open to it.
But...
and yes, another 'but.'
It. broke. my. heart.
I cried endlessly... I grieved and loneliness flooded me and the inner most parts which no one could see.. or understand.
My confidence and self-worth shattered... my pride--almost gone and yes, my love almost ran out.
I was tired. I was sooooo worn out.
I just kept thinking.. 'Why did it end this way?'
I never thought I would come to this point. Me--getting packed, ready to leave the Philippines and go back to the United Arab Emirates. I was born and raised in Abu Dhabi, UAE. I stayed there until I was almost 9 years old. I came to the Philippines to finish my studies and I loved it here. I actually was comfortable with where I am and my career path in this country. Suddenly, I get this chance to work abroad and build a new life there.
Mixed emotions there. I'll be leaving the family I am very close and dependent to. Same with life long friends and spiritual family. I'll have to leave my ministry which I dearly love and cherish. I'll be in a foreign land and I'll be on my own. That actually scares me. Can I do it? Am I that strong? What to do if I miss everyone here in the Philippines sooo much?
For the past two weeks, I've been praying and praying. Waiting for some answers. Waiting.. and waiting.
And finally, though I still am not 100% sure and confident, I am ready.
More than five people in my life, they are not my relatives but close friends and they have seen me grow over the decade... they encouraged me and comforted me. They told me that there is a purpose in everything.. especially for the part of leaving my family and my country. It might not even be work, but my mission in life is still connected to the country I am going to.
Then I remembered. I remember why UAE will always be special to my heart. Why it has to be UAE. Why a part of me belongs there... and like what I've said as I was leaving UAE when I was almost 9, this isn't goodbye. I will go to the Philippines but I will DEFINITELY come home. Yes, UAE in more ways than one--is also my home.
I thank my creator for showing me a love--so stubborn and an unconditional love like no other! Through my family and some special people, I have come to realize that there really is a purpose for everything. Somehow, it is not just blessing me and what is mine, but roads will lead you to be a blessing to others.
I am far from perfect, as what my favorite female singer-songwriter said.. skeletons in my closet are too big for me to hide.. but yes, your failures-- don't let them define you. You gotta learn from the past, not live in the past. Take the gift of the 'present' and bright, beautiful future!
And I keep repeating this to myself.. Judging others is the result of not loving them. If you only see the negative in others, if you can't see the other side of their hearts, then it's not that they are at fault-- but it's you! You are the one with the critical spirit. I have been this way-- and I want to overcome this too!
Thanks to everyone who have been a comfort and friend to me. I really needed that! You are God's gifts to me! I will continue to learn from life and from the giver of life!
Please continue to support me as well! ^____^
Love,
Grace
The only opinion of you that is important, is God's. Focus on living your life, and let the opinions of others be what they are.
♥