Comments | yeuxdusoleil: And we are just breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

yeuxdusoleil

And we are just breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

Oct 21, 2009 19:26

Okay, I'm going to do a "poor me" entry. I am sorry in advance if it's whiny but hey.

Lately I've been toying with the idea of going back home for a few months. I don't know when but I just feel like there isn't a lot that I belong in my own current lifestyle for anymore. I robot my way through the day and go to class and now, go to work. I ( Read more... )

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yeuxdusoleil November 1 2009, 15:43:00 UTC

Sorry it took so long to reply to this.

You're right, I do think it's necessary that I take some time to revise my plans and figure my shit out. I'd never have guessed you were so unhappy but I think it's just universal.

I think that we are all in the same boat for the most part but things just keep flying at me and I feel like they're impossible to tackle. I miss you! I cannot wait until thanksgiving. I'm literally counting the days- I mean it.
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heres_the_plan October 22 2009, 06:41:16 UTC

tess, if things are really this bad, this is NOT where you need to be ( ... )

yeuxdusoleil November 1 2009, 15:48:40 UTC

Sorry for the year it took to give you a real reply. but you know, fucking school never gives me a damn break ( ... )

heres_the_plan November 1 2009, 22:48:29 UTC

Dudette, my door is ALWAYS OPEN. I've even still got an empty bedroom that if you were looking for something long term you could consider ( ... )

heartsandtarts October 24 2009, 13:35:33 UTC

the best thing for you definitely sounds like a break. it took me a year and a half to figure my shit out enough to where i don't feel like i'm losing my mind and feel like i'm actually ready to be in school. letting go of all the "shoulds" is the hard part and then everything else flows really, really easily. if you came home we could get high on my back porch in the middle of the day and talk about how stupid the rest of the world is, and laugh that we ever thought anything was a big deal. we could become optimistic buddhists. ommmm hahaha ommmm.

yeuxdusoleil November 1 2009, 15:52:03 UTC

Your'e right about the "shoulds". They are the ones that are killing me.

I'm spending my days sitting through lectures that actually have nothing to do with my major- and the worst part is that my major isn't really even something that truly makes me happy. I can't even GET to the classes on a subject that barely interests me.

How fucking sad is that?

I need some time away from everything and I need to figure out my shit. I need to travel and I need to feel something other than this. I feel like a zombie, but not as cool.

My youth is slipping away and all I can do is watch and wish I could pause time and find something meaningful in my life.