I take back all the bad things I've ever said about people. Most of them I dont really mean, I'm just rambling. I dont usually hold grudges or hate people. I mean, there are thoes whom I strongly prefer to not be around but I don't truly hate them. And for the most part if I avoide someone it's probably because I dont feel good enough to be around ( Read more... )

I had a super day, i was to busy to let myself get down. I just hope im not setting myself up for a crash landing cause those are really really bad. After school me and trav got some subway and dove. We had a blast with Amy, Rachel H. and Rachel D. It was soo cold diving, like it is every day. So we kept filling our caps with super hott water and ( Read more... )

Right now i feel good, and i like it, it seems so forign to me, but i like it. Eairlier today was bad though, i didnt talk to anyone in first hour, i just felt so different from everyone, and if i would of said something or tried to get in a conversation i would have felt phony, and i hate that fucking feeling! it can die. Things didnt get better ( Read more... )

It is hard for me to let people know how I'm really feeling face to face. I'm ashamed because I know they have this perfect image of me and I feel as if I have to fufill it. But sometimes i just cant, i'm just so sad. I thought this winter would be better because i thought i would have someone that would always be there and help me threw this, but ( Read more... )

I feel so lost, i live in the moment and once it passes it is forever gone, and no longer my life. I leave it to be held in anothers hands unable to touch it. They pull me away as i reach frantically out to grasp something, anything, to bring me back to reality. I'm living in a haze, tumbling, falling, i pick up speed and loose control. I am no ( Read more... )