all signs point to... NO. bad idea bad idea bad idea

I don't think anybody reads this but I think having things written down somewhere more easily accessible than the composition book conveniently located between my mattresses will be a good idea in the future. who knows. this summer is slowly drawing to a close and i am so ready for it. today was actually an unexpectedly good day. i woke up around 6 ( Read more... )

1. my mind was cloudy when i thought i wanted you to come home from london and be my boyfriend. stay there ( Read more... )

everyone's the same. it is hard to imagine that so many people are still just barely functioning. i wish a certain somebody would come back from europe and be my boyfriend again. that's all i really want. but its okay. given a couple years and i'll be in new zealand.

the past few months i have subconsciously related myself to the little engine that could. i think i can i think i can i think i can. and i can, and i have, and i will continue to do so. everything is looking up. I'm on good terms with all of my friends, which is so very important to me. when things were shaky with my relationships, it caused me to ( Read more... )

Im trying to figure out everything that has happened the past few weeks but nothing is coming in clear. I find myself questioning everything more, but not the things that I should be questioning. It feels so shitty to know I do not connect with other people anymore, and I don't think I can ever get back that feeling of closeness to someone like I ( Read more... )

i prefer to be lost. and quite fond of it.

okay i havent seen anyone but my family in almost three weeks. i can't take it iti it it it. my parents are sick and hogging the tv which is also the access to playstation 2 and to hbo. no porn or guitar hero. kinda funny.i'm watching space jam and trying to clean out my closet. i need inspiration. i dont have anything in mind, its like, empty. ( Read more... )

course I got excited about wal-mart giving me free stuff.

the school weeks go by so quickly. My weekends with Jenny just keep getting better. I can't believe we actually were able to feel like we did in fall 2k7. I followed through with my new years resolution; however not completely. the emotional attachment is gone, and there's an occasional conversation...I don't care. Jess is in Africa and it makes me ( Read more... )