Fanfic: Never Meant to be Part 1
Never meant to be
It was a difficult love. The kind of things she thought was a puppy love yet it stays without being confirmed over 5 years. She wonder who on earth is as stupid as she is for making this love stay. And she was being delusional with herself. In the end, she should know that he was not the one for her. That life has just turned out to be that way and fate was laughing down at her unfortunate, unanswered love.
Never meant to be
It was hard to let go. He though when the first time he saw her, she is the prettiest of them all. In fact she still is now in his eyes. Nobody in this country can beat her beauty, even if he is exaggerating, that is the truth and agreed by anyone. But he find it hard to even talk in front of her, she looked like she is uncomfortable with him but could easily laugh when he is with the rest of the members. “maybe she hates me?” that was the thought that came across his mind whenever he saw her turning her head away from him. At that time, he knew his love for her could never be expressed. He loves her, loves her for the past 5 years that it hurts himself.
Never meant to be
All Yoona did was looked at him, stealing look but she was caught. Little that she realizes he was right behind her. No wonder the hair behind her neck was standing. No wonder she had this goosebumps. And he was looking at her too. He was looking at her too? Is it for real? But she has no courage to turn around again cause she was afraid her hope will be crushed.
Never meant to be
All Donghae did was watching over her and he was caught. She turned to him but as expected, she turned right back to the front when she saw him looked at her. He wonders if she hates him that much. But why was she turning around just now? He wants to believe she was looking for him but he never wants to trust his hope cause he was afraid his hope will be crushed.
Never meant to be
She was dueling if she has to give up this hope, for being a fool and waiting for nothing in return. This is not even love, she screamed to herself deep inside, this is just crush, your stupid crush Yoona. She wants to let go. So bad she wants to let it go. She thought it will be easy. The moment she saw him again, gave her high 5 as way to congratulate the winning, her heart flutters again and the feeling came creeping back without being invited. Why was it hard to let him go? You are so stupid Im Yoon Ah!!! That is what she has been arguing with herself, telling herself that she is stupid.
Never meant to be
He was fighting with himself to give up hope on her, to stop loving her. This is not even love he yelled to himself, this is just an old love, an ancient crush, your stupid crush Lee Donghae. He wants to let go, so bad he wants to but it was not as easy as he thought. The moment he turned around to congratulate the winning, she was the first one he saw and he felt like it was fate, telling him not to give up, telling him that he still has hope. Weird enough his love blossom again, superior than before. Maybe that is why it’s hard to let go, because over the year, this ancient love of him keep getting stronger. But he needs to let go, she doesn’t love him, she hates him. Why are you so stupid Lee Donghae?
Never meant to be?
The moment Heechul decided him to be Yoona, he told himself there was hope, that he could contact her. Her number has been there for a long time but he never used it, afraid she will never responds. And each time she changed her number, by fate, he will know. Dad, he said to himself, are you helping me from up there? So he gained the courage to call her because Heechul took this very seriously, warning each members that has been chosen not to take this lightly. He could use that as an excuse. Thanks dad for making this possible he said to himself. He dialed her number right after the meeting. The call was connected… but it was silence on the other end. “Hello?” he said. He wonders if he was connected…
Never meant to be?
She heard him, saying hello on the other end. What was she supposed to say? Why he called her?
“hel..hello” there was a hesitation in answering him, like she is not sure whether it’s wise to answers the phone
“emm…. Yoona?”
“ne…”
“Donghae oppa here.”
“ne”
“emmm I called,er because I.. I will be you”
“eh?’
“We… our… Super Junior concert…”
“oh…”
“…to perform Gee. I will… sing your part”
“ne…”
“so… do you, if… you know… can we meet?”
“ne”
“Tomorrow… when do you have time…”
“at 12”
“eh?”
“I’ll be at office… that time”
“okay… so… see you”
He disconnect right away. Her tongue went all numb. She still held the phone though the only thing she heard is a long beep.
What is happening right now?
Was it really never meant to be?
Donghae waited for her. It’s 11.45 pm He was nervous but he managed to keep himself from shaking. The basement dancing room was quiet already as trainees were no longer there. He messaged he that he will wat her there but she never reply. And like a fool, he waited by his phone if she would reply. But to his heart disappointment she never did. But what was he expecting? Yoona to reply “ne”? like yesterday’s conversation. It was awkward. Way too awkward it’s not even funny. He sighed, maybe this wasn’t a good idea, perhaps he should asked for change. Tomorrow he will ask Heechul hyung to change him to be someone else. Yes, he will do that.
“oppa…”
but there she was, standing right in front of him, looking beautiful like always. Perhaps he should stick to be what he was fated to be.
“Oo” it was 2 minutes before 12. She was early.
She did that again, turning away from him, has this uncomfortable look. He bit his lower lip.
Come on Donghae, think of something
“ar.. ar,are you alone?” Finally he said to break the ice. It was too awkward now. And a stupid question too. He doesn’t see anyone with her. Of course she is alone!
“emm” she said while nodding her head
Great, one question, one short answer
“…erm… well, if it’s not hard for you… maybe you could… you know, help me.”
“okay”
There was a smile he saw, she smiled. Or was his eyes playing trick on him?
Was it really never meant to be?
Yoona smiled. Thinking it will be funny that her Super Junior oppa will do a parody of Gee. And that Donghae will be her… wait what????
“So maybe we should get in now” Donghae said as he motioned closer to the door of the dancing practice room.
Yoona followed Donghae. The room was dark and Donghae went to switch the light on. Yoona saw him in his casual wearing but it caught Yoona attention that the color of his shirt is similar to her own, apple green color. Out of all green, why he decided to wear that type of green and why tonight? She silently sighed.
Fate is really playing with her.
“eh.. your shirt…” and he noticed it too…
“Coincidence maybe”
The longest word she uttered tonight. She could see the disappointment in his eyes. But she never wants to believe her eyes. Her eyes could have played trick on her.
“So, is it hard to dance to your part?” Donghae said as he stood in front of her. She has no courage to look back at him. She was afraid her feelings to him would give it away.
She just shook her head in response. She heard he let out a heavy breath. He must have feel sorry to himself for he had to be her.
“Maybe we should practice” Yoona finally said as he walked away from Donghae and went to the cd player. Her heart beat so fast. She felt this is wrong, please Yoona, get over your stupid feeling
Gee filled the room as Donghae motioned closer to Yoona who was now standing close to the mirror that surrounding the room.
“it’s not hard, just follow me okay?” Yoona tried to relax as Donghae observed her closely
It was not hard for Donghae to follow as he already know big portion of the dance.it was awkward to dance the song as the song has a lot of butt movement when Donghae is watching. And then it was her part. It was awkward to act cute during her part when Donghae is watching. But she just danced to it.
“wait wait Yoona, I am a bit lost… how do you do that movement?” he was referring to the part where Sica came part came in and she turned to the side after she finish singing her line
“Oh, just take one step back and follow the hand movement. The other will turn around but not you, you just take one step back”
“Oh… could you…em perhaps show me?”
“Starting from my part?”
Donghae just nodded
“ you do like this… the cue is ‘eotteokhajyo’ and you put your hand like this, and during ‘ddeuleeneun maeum’ you know do cute things..,”
“Do it”
Yoona felt awkward to have to do this in front of Lee Donghae, her secret crush. And aegyo is not her things too.
“I don’t know, whatever you feels like.. maybe you… I don’t know shakes your shoulder a bit”
“Do it”
It feels like she was being tortured. And yoona did it but she was stopped by him
“Sing your whole part so I can study your movement”
“You could watch the video..”
“I want to see you because I want to learn, video can’t give direct responds”
Yoona clears her throat to sings to her part while do the movement
Think Donghae oppa a monkey…eh no that is Hyukjae oppa… as a… fish, yes he is a fish and I am not shy in front a fish that wore green shirt… no I am not!
She sang it and danced to it. She hoped Donghae is not too evil as to ask her to do it again. It’ll be embarrassing!
“O…kay… now let’s do it together”
“eh???”
Naturally Donghae pulled her arm and made her dance together with him.
Honestly, from the look of it, he already knows the whole dance.
Please give me the chance…
Donghae smiled. He had fun practicing with her. For the first time, they could really talk.
“oppa…” his distraction died down as he heard her voice. And now he can’t believe she is right next to him, in his car. He won’t let anyone sit there till next year.
“If you don’t mind I’m asking,why are you smiling?” Yoona asked him
She is cute Donghae, she is everything you want. Just don’t give up on your love now
“Nothing much just… it’s funny…”
“What is funny?”
“We have the same shirt” he was half lying. He was not really lying. They wore the same color shirt every now and then and it was obvious during SUKIRA days.
Then the atmosphere went quiet again.
She does not hate him after all. She could talk to him fine, she could smile when he made silly joke when they were practicing earlier. And now she is right next to him in his car, something he would never dare to dream of before. He insisted on dropping her as it was dangerous for her to take public transport at this hour. Seoul is no joke when it’s 3am.
“Yoona…” he finally said to break the silence. It’s funny how three hours has changed their relationship. Though it’s nothing big, it’s a positive a change. And he knew for certain that she doesn’t hate him.
“emm?”
“Do you know that I always thought you hate me?”
“Eh?”
“Yes, I thought you do… so I want to ask for confirmation cause I am tired of hide and seek now. Do you hate me?”
“No.”
“Ever?”
“Never”
“It’s a relief then” he said with a smile.
He drove ever so slowly so he could spend some time, more time to talk to her.
“But oppa…”
“Yes?’
“Oh nothing… we are almost there”
Donghae felt disappointed a bit. But he should say something before he let her go….
Yoona opened the door and put one of her feet outside when Donghae stopped her by calling her names. Yoona turned to face him.
He hesitated for a moment. Like he doesn’t know what to say, how to comprehend the words. But he needed to say something…
“Tomorrow practice with me again?” he finally said
“Oppa, you were good just now, I don’t think you need my help actually” Yoona smiled. Under the dim light of the night, she is as beautiful as always.
“Do you wanna see me get scolded by Heechul hyung?”
She smiled again.
“But my schedule end up late tomorrow. Around 2am cause I have recording”
“For the new song?”
“Emm” she nodded.
“It’s okay, I can wait. I’m around the office anyway. I have practice with SJ-M members”
“Yeah, I know Henry Oppa told me”
Having Yoona, someone he knew from the day he entered SM till now, so close with Henry is weird. Henry just entered the academy in 2007 while he was practically with her from day one she entered SM Academy. How could she be close to Henry more than she is with him?
“Oh… So, can we practice again?”
He, then saw how red her eyes were, like she was trying to stay awake. He then felt guilty.
“Okay.” She said. Short.
“emm… you know what? That’s okay, you might be too tired to do this. Sorry to bother you tonight. Have a good rest okay?” Donghae smiled at her. He doesn’t want to do this if this is a burden for her. She is tired and he was being selfish right here.
“Oppa, I don’t want to see you get scolded by Heechul oppa. And I will help you as long as you need my help. I will be there. Thank you so much for sending me home”
She closed the door and bow down to him. There is this formality between them that she never able to lose. The weird thing was, she could use informal language with Leeteuk but not him.
Donghae slid down the window
“Yoona-yah, if you are tired, tell me okay? It’s okay if we cancel it. And once you reached you room, message me, okay?”
Yoona looked away and held in her smile. Donghae smile, broadly at her.
“Now go, I’ll watch over you until go safely inside the building”
Yoona bowed down once again. And Yoona being the last person he saw today made him feel secretly happy inside.
Should I give my heart one more chance?
SNSD’s girl rose up early before the sun rise as they have busy schedule ahead of them today. And as usual before anything, they will do their hair first. The saloon was quiet as most of the members sleeps on their chair while waiting for their hair to be done.
“Where were you last night Yoona?” Soo Young asked her while reading through (or rather flipping through) the magazine.
“Eh???” Innocently Yoona said. She felt sleepy and waiting for her hair to get done is tiring. And she is not in the mood to really explain. She usually sleeps while the stylist unnie do her hair.
“Unnie, I want to highlight my hair a little” Sooyoung said to her stylist while looking at the mirror. It seems like she forgot the question earlier.
Yoona closed her eyes a little as the lid of her eyes are heavy and if she doesn’t close her eyes, the coldness of air conditioner will make her eyes red. But before she could fell deep in the dream land, her phone vibrated. She felt lazy to even open her eyes so she just reached for her phone inside her pocket. With all the effort she put in, she managed to open her eyes to look at her phone. It was a message.
Yoona turned to her right to look at Sooyoung. She was sleeping already. Yoona turned to her right to look at Yuri. She had been sleeping since she sat on the chair.
It was a message. From Lee Donghae (or she saved it as SUJU Donghae Sunbae). The sleepiness gone and was replaced by a sudden trembling.
“Okay Yoona you are done” her stylist said as she took off the cloth that was covering Yoona.
Yoona bowed down to her and said thank you before moving to the sofa not far from her dressing chair.
She opened the message
‘So I guess you are not sleeping well last night? You look tired-.-‘ the message read.
But how does he know?
She hit the reply button. She was hesitating on what to reply. She typed, but then she deleted. She typed again but the she deleted again. In the end she only reply to him
‘=.=’
She flipped close her phone. She can’t stand the smell of the hair dresser now so she decided to go to the coffee shop next to the hair dresser. She is not much of a coffee drinker but in a morning so sleepy like this, she needs to take one at least to stay awake for the next schedule. She opened the door of the coffee shop and was greeted by the barista. Before she could place her order, there a message came in again
‘Coffee to stay awake?^^’ the message read.
Okay now she is scared. Where is he and how does he know she is planning to buy coffee now? She refused to look around, it’ll make it obvious. But it felt weird cause they are not THAT close to begin with.
But she is comfortable with him. And she likes him around…
‘Wherever you are oppa, just come out. Stalker style is not my type’ she replied.
She sat at the table, waiting for her coffee. She decided not to turn around when she heard the door of the shop is opening and closing a few times behind her.
“It hurts me” she heard a guy said behind her and she really recognized that voice.
“Seeing a not-so pretty girl alone in a coffee shop hurts me” Leeteuk said as he took the empty seat in front of Yoona.
Yoona just smiled at whom supposed to be the leader and the oldest member of Super Junior is.
“How do you know I am here oppa?” by asking that she meant where the one who messaged her was.
“I saw you. I think I won’t do my hair today, just go to my schedule as it is. I am pretty good looking even without having to do my hair right Yoona?”
Yoona smiled again. At Leeteuk wittiness in talking, Yoona could just smile. She is pretty sharp-tongued herself considering the many years she has spent with Heechul and Leeteuk, come back words is no longer a problem. But she is too tired to fight today. Plus, the message sender whom she was expecting to see was nowhere in sight.
“You are exceptionally nice today. No words to shoot back at me?” Leeteuk asked.
“No it’s not that oppa, but today I am tired.”
“Yeah I can see that. And having you to trained Donghae I bet it’s not an easy work either”
“How do you know oppa?”
“Well, don’t expect anything less from the leader of Super Junior”
“No wonder you are the leader oppa”
“Well I have to go now, I think I want to make my hair look better than Yoona” he teased her again.
He said his goodbye and leaving Yoona all alone again. It’s not long though
“May I sit here?” Donghae came, with a cup of take away coffee.
Yoona looked at him. She didn’t say anything cause his sudden appearance startled her. She wants to say something but her words seemed too stuck on her throat.
“Yes” she finally managed to get one word out.
“I saw you” Donghae said as he fixicated his eyes on her.
“Since when?”
“I was inside already, doing my hair but on the other side of the room. And when I was about to go out I saw you, your reflection from the mirror”
He must have seen her yawning, opening her alligator mouth so big you-can-count-her-teeth sort of big. Even 2PM Teackyeon could not beat her
“Oh” because it was embarrassing so only oh came out.
“Sorry” he said. She saw the uncomfortable look on his face.
“What for?”
“You know, I should have told earlier instead of messaging you like that” he said
It’s rare.
It’s rare for a guy to say sorry in korea.
It’s rare for a sunbae to say sorry in korea.
It’s rare for oppa that she likes to say sorry.
Saying sorry over a small matter that other might over look nothing.
But it meant big to her.
She smiled.
“It’s okay”
There was doubt in his eyes, like he doubted she meant the “okay” part. Like it was nothing.
“I like your messages” she said.
Author Note
- yup, this long! it worth 27 pages = 8,829 words
- this long yet i wrote it in 3 days cause the ideas was running like water running from water tap.
- comments = love! Part 2
It was a difficult love. The kind of things she thought was a puppy love yet it stays without being confirmed over 5 years. She wonder who on earth is as stupid as she is for making this love stay. And she was being delusional with herself. In the end, she should know that he was not the one for her. That life has just turned out to be that way and fate was laughing down at her unfortunate, unanswered love.
Never meant to be
It was hard to let go. He though when the first time he saw her, she is the prettiest of them all. In fact she still is now in his eyes. Nobody in this country can beat her beauty, even if he is exaggerating, that is the truth and agreed by anyone. But he find it hard to even talk in front of her, she looked like she is uncomfortable with him but could easily laugh when he is with the rest of the members. “maybe she hates me?” that was the thought that came across his mind whenever he saw her turning her head away from him. At that time, he knew his love for her could never be expressed. He loves her, loves her for the past 5 years that it hurts himself.
Never meant to be
All Yoona did was looked at him, stealing look but she was caught. Little that she realizes he was right behind her. No wonder the hair behind her neck was standing. No wonder she had this goosebumps. And he was looking at her too. He was looking at her too? Is it for real? But she has no courage to turn around again cause she was afraid her hope will be crushed.
Never meant to be
All Donghae did was watching over her and he was caught. She turned to him but as expected, she turned right back to the front when she saw him looked at her. He wonders if she hates him that much. But why was she turning around just now? He wants to believe she was looking for him but he never wants to trust his hope cause he was afraid his hope will be crushed.
Never meant to be
She was dueling if she has to give up this hope, for being a fool and waiting for nothing in return. This is not even love, she screamed to herself deep inside, this is just crush, your stupid crush Yoona. She wants to let go. So bad she wants to let it go. She thought it will be easy. The moment she saw him again, gave her high 5 as way to congratulate the winning, her heart flutters again and the feeling came creeping back without being invited. Why was it hard to let him go? You are so stupid Im Yoon Ah!!! That is what she has been arguing with herself, telling herself that she is stupid.
Never meant to be
He was fighting with himself to give up hope on her, to stop loving her. This is not even love he yelled to himself, this is just an old love, an ancient crush, your stupid crush Lee Donghae. He wants to let go, so bad he wants to but it was not as easy as he thought. The moment he turned around to congratulate the winning, she was the first one he saw and he felt like it was fate, telling him not to give up, telling him that he still has hope. Weird enough his love blossom again, superior than before. Maybe that is why it’s hard to let go, because over the year, this ancient love of him keep getting stronger. But he needs to let go, she doesn’t love him, she hates him. Why are you so stupid Lee Donghae?
Never meant to be?
The moment Heechul decided him to be Yoona, he told himself there was hope, that he could contact her. Her number has been there for a long time but he never used it, afraid she will never responds. And each time she changed her number, by fate, he will know. Dad, he said to himself, are you helping me from up there? So he gained the courage to call her because Heechul took this very seriously, warning each members that has been chosen not to take this lightly. He could use that as an excuse. Thanks dad for making this possible he said to himself. He dialed her number right after the meeting. The call was connected… but it was silence on the other end. “Hello?” he said. He wonders if he was connected…
Never meant to be?
She heard him, saying hello on the other end. What was she supposed to say? Why he called her?
“hel..hello” there was a hesitation in answering him, like she is not sure whether it’s wise to answers the phone
“emm…. Yoona?”
“ne…”
“Donghae oppa here.”
“ne”
“emmm I called,er because I.. I will be you”
“eh?’
“We… our… Super Junior concert…”
“oh…”
“…to perform Gee. I will… sing your part”
“ne…”
“so… do you, if… you know… can we meet?”
“ne”
“Tomorrow… when do you have time…”
“at 12”
“eh?”
“I’ll be at office… that time”
“okay… so… see you”
He disconnect right away. Her tongue went all numb. She still held the phone though the only thing she heard is a long beep.
What is happening right now?
Was it really never meant to be?
Donghae waited for her. It’s 11.45 pm He was nervous but he managed to keep himself from shaking. The basement dancing room was quiet already as trainees were no longer there. He messaged he that he will wat her there but she never reply. And like a fool, he waited by his phone if she would reply. But to his heart disappointment she never did. But what was he expecting? Yoona to reply “ne”? like yesterday’s conversation. It was awkward. Way too awkward it’s not even funny. He sighed, maybe this wasn’t a good idea, perhaps he should asked for change. Tomorrow he will ask Heechul hyung to change him to be someone else. Yes, he will do that.
“oppa…”
but there she was, standing right in front of him, looking beautiful like always. Perhaps he should stick to be what he was fated to be.
“Oo” it was 2 minutes before 12. She was early.
She did that again, turning away from him, has this uncomfortable look. He bit his lower lip.
Come on Donghae, think of something
“ar.. ar,are you alone?” Finally he said to break the ice. It was too awkward now. And a stupid question too. He doesn’t see anyone with her. Of course she is alone!
“emm” she said while nodding her head
Great, one question, one short answer
“…erm… well, if it’s not hard for you… maybe you could… you know, help me.”
“okay”
There was a smile he saw, she smiled. Or was his eyes playing trick on him?
Was it really never meant to be?
Yoona smiled. Thinking it will be funny that her Super Junior oppa will do a parody of Gee. And that Donghae will be her… wait what????
“So maybe we should get in now” Donghae said as he motioned closer to the door of the dancing practice room.
Yoona followed Donghae. The room was dark and Donghae went to switch the light on. Yoona saw him in his casual wearing but it caught Yoona attention that the color of his shirt is similar to her own, apple green color. Out of all green, why he decided to wear that type of green and why tonight? She silently sighed.
Fate is really playing with her.
“eh.. your shirt…” and he noticed it too…
“Coincidence maybe”
The longest word she uttered tonight. She could see the disappointment in his eyes. But she never wants to believe her eyes. Her eyes could have played trick on her.
“So, is it hard to dance to your part?” Donghae said as he stood in front of her. She has no courage to look back at him. She was afraid her feelings to him would give it away.
She just shook her head in response. She heard he let out a heavy breath. He must have feel sorry to himself for he had to be her.
“Maybe we should practice” Yoona finally said as he walked away from Donghae and went to the cd player. Her heart beat so fast. She felt this is wrong, please Yoona, get over your stupid feeling
Gee filled the room as Donghae motioned closer to Yoona who was now standing close to the mirror that surrounding the room.
“it’s not hard, just follow me okay?” Yoona tried to relax as Donghae observed her closely
It was not hard for Donghae to follow as he already know big portion of the dance.it was awkward to dance the song as the song has a lot of butt movement when Donghae is watching. And then it was her part. It was awkward to act cute during her part when Donghae is watching. But she just danced to it.
“wait wait Yoona, I am a bit lost… how do you do that movement?” he was referring to the part where Sica came part came in and she turned to the side after she finish singing her line
“Oh, just take one step back and follow the hand movement. The other will turn around but not you, you just take one step back”
“Oh… could you…em perhaps show me?”
“Starting from my part?”
Donghae just nodded
“ you do like this… the cue is ‘eotteokhajyo’ and you put your hand like this, and during ‘ddeuleeneun maeum’ you know do cute things..,”
“Do it”
Yoona felt awkward to have to do this in front of Lee Donghae, her secret crush. And aegyo is not her things too.
“I don’t know, whatever you feels like.. maybe you… I don’t know shakes your shoulder a bit”
“Do it”
It feels like she was being tortured. And yoona did it but she was stopped by him
“Sing your whole part so I can study your movement”
“You could watch the video..”
“I want to see you because I want to learn, video can’t give direct responds”
Yoona clears her throat to sings to her part while do the movement
Think Donghae oppa a monkey…eh no that is Hyukjae oppa… as a… fish, yes he is a fish and I am not shy in front a fish that wore green shirt… no I am not!
She sang it and danced to it. She hoped Donghae is not too evil as to ask her to do it again. It’ll be embarrassing!
“O…kay… now let’s do it together”
“eh???”
Naturally Donghae pulled her arm and made her dance together with him.
Honestly, from the look of it, he already knows the whole dance.
Please give me the chance…
Donghae smiled. He had fun practicing with her. For the first time, they could really talk.
“oppa…” his distraction died down as he heard her voice. And now he can’t believe she is right next to him, in his car. He won’t let anyone sit there till next year.
“If you don’t mind I’m asking,why are you smiling?” Yoona asked him
She is cute Donghae, she is everything you want. Just don’t give up on your love now
“Nothing much just… it’s funny…”
“What is funny?”
“We have the same shirt” he was half lying. He was not really lying. They wore the same color shirt every now and then and it was obvious during SUKIRA days.
Then the atmosphere went quiet again.
She does not hate him after all. She could talk to him fine, she could smile when he made silly joke when they were practicing earlier. And now she is right next to him in his car, something he would never dare to dream of before. He insisted on dropping her as it was dangerous for her to take public transport at this hour. Seoul is no joke when it’s 3am.
“Yoona…” he finally said to break the silence. It’s funny how three hours has changed their relationship. Though it’s nothing big, it’s a positive a change. And he knew for certain that she doesn’t hate him.
“emm?”
“Do you know that I always thought you hate me?”
“Eh?”
“Yes, I thought you do… so I want to ask for confirmation cause I am tired of hide and seek now. Do you hate me?”
“No.”
“Ever?”
“Never”
“It’s a relief then” he said with a smile.
He drove ever so slowly so he could spend some time, more time to talk to her.
“But oppa…”
“Yes?’
“Oh nothing… we are almost there”
Donghae felt disappointed a bit. But he should say something before he let her go….
Yoona opened the door and put one of her feet outside when Donghae stopped her by calling her names. Yoona turned to face him.
He hesitated for a moment. Like he doesn’t know what to say, how to comprehend the words. But he needed to say something…
“Tomorrow practice with me again?” he finally said
“Oppa, you were good just now, I don’t think you need my help actually” Yoona smiled. Under the dim light of the night, she is as beautiful as always.
“Do you wanna see me get scolded by Heechul hyung?”
She smiled again.
“But my schedule end up late tomorrow. Around 2am cause I have recording”
“For the new song?”
“Emm” she nodded.
“It’s okay, I can wait. I’m around the office anyway. I have practice with SJ-M members”
“Yeah, I know Henry Oppa told me”
Having Yoona, someone he knew from the day he entered SM till now, so close with Henry is weird. Henry just entered the academy in 2007 while he was practically with her from day one she entered SM Academy. How could she be close to Henry more than she is with him?
“Oh… So, can we practice again?”
He, then saw how red her eyes were, like she was trying to stay awake. He then felt guilty.
“Okay.” She said. Short.
“emm… you know what? That’s okay, you might be too tired to do this. Sorry to bother you tonight. Have a good rest okay?” Donghae smiled at her. He doesn’t want to do this if this is a burden for her. She is tired and he was being selfish right here.
“Oppa, I don’t want to see you get scolded by Heechul oppa. And I will help you as long as you need my help. I will be there. Thank you so much for sending me home”
She closed the door and bow down to him. There is this formality between them that she never able to lose. The weird thing was, she could use informal language with Leeteuk but not him.
Donghae slid down the window
“Yoona-yah, if you are tired, tell me okay? It’s okay if we cancel it. And once you reached you room, message me, okay?”
Yoona looked away and held in her smile. Donghae smile, broadly at her.
“Now go, I’ll watch over you until go safely inside the building”
Yoona bowed down once again. And Yoona being the last person he saw today made him feel secretly happy inside.
Should I give my heart one more chance?
SNSD’s girl rose up early before the sun rise as they have busy schedule ahead of them today. And as usual before anything, they will do their hair first. The saloon was quiet as most of the members sleeps on their chair while waiting for their hair to be done.
“Where were you last night Yoona?” Soo Young asked her while reading through (or rather flipping through) the magazine.
“Eh???” Innocently Yoona said. She felt sleepy and waiting for her hair to get done is tiring. And she is not in the mood to really explain. She usually sleeps while the stylist unnie do her hair.
“Unnie, I want to highlight my hair a little” Sooyoung said to her stylist while looking at the mirror. It seems like she forgot the question earlier.
Yoona closed her eyes a little as the lid of her eyes are heavy and if she doesn’t close her eyes, the coldness of air conditioner will make her eyes red. But before she could fell deep in the dream land, her phone vibrated. She felt lazy to even open her eyes so she just reached for her phone inside her pocket. With all the effort she put in, she managed to open her eyes to look at her phone. It was a message.
Yoona turned to her right to look at Sooyoung. She was sleeping already. Yoona turned to her right to look at Yuri. She had been sleeping since she sat on the chair.
It was a message. From Lee Donghae (or she saved it as SUJU Donghae Sunbae). The sleepiness gone and was replaced by a sudden trembling.
“Okay Yoona you are done” her stylist said as she took off the cloth that was covering Yoona.
Yoona bowed down to her and said thank you before moving to the sofa not far from her dressing chair.
She opened the message
‘So I guess you are not sleeping well last night? You look tired-.-‘ the message read.
But how does he know?
She hit the reply button. She was hesitating on what to reply. She typed, but then she deleted. She typed again but the she deleted again. In the end she only reply to him
‘=.=’
She flipped close her phone. She can’t stand the smell of the hair dresser now so she decided to go to the coffee shop next to the hair dresser. She is not much of a coffee drinker but in a morning so sleepy like this, she needs to take one at least to stay awake for the next schedule. She opened the door of the coffee shop and was greeted by the barista. Before she could place her order, there a message came in again
‘Coffee to stay awake?^^’ the message read.
Okay now she is scared. Where is he and how does he know she is planning to buy coffee now? She refused to look around, it’ll make it obvious. But it felt weird cause they are not THAT close to begin with.
But she is comfortable with him. And she likes him around…
‘Wherever you are oppa, just come out. Stalker style is not my type’ she replied.
She sat at the table, waiting for her coffee. She decided not to turn around when she heard the door of the shop is opening and closing a few times behind her.
“It hurts me” she heard a guy said behind her and she really recognized that voice.
“Seeing a not-so pretty girl alone in a coffee shop hurts me” Leeteuk said as he took the empty seat in front of Yoona.
Yoona just smiled at whom supposed to be the leader and the oldest member of Super Junior is.
“How do you know I am here oppa?” by asking that she meant where the one who messaged her was.
“I saw you. I think I won’t do my hair today, just go to my schedule as it is. I am pretty good looking even without having to do my hair right Yoona?”
Yoona smiled again. At Leeteuk wittiness in talking, Yoona could just smile. She is pretty sharp-tongued herself considering the many years she has spent with Heechul and Leeteuk, come back words is no longer a problem. But she is too tired to fight today. Plus, the message sender whom she was expecting to see was nowhere in sight.
“You are exceptionally nice today. No words to shoot back at me?” Leeteuk asked.
“No it’s not that oppa, but today I am tired.”
“Yeah I can see that. And having you to trained Donghae I bet it’s not an easy work either”
“How do you know oppa?”
“Well, don’t expect anything less from the leader of Super Junior”
“No wonder you are the leader oppa”
“Well I have to go now, I think I want to make my hair look better than Yoona” he teased her again.
He said his goodbye and leaving Yoona all alone again. It’s not long though
“May I sit here?” Donghae came, with a cup of take away coffee.
Yoona looked at him. She didn’t say anything cause his sudden appearance startled her. She wants to say something but her words seemed too stuck on her throat.
“Yes” she finally managed to get one word out.
“I saw you” Donghae said as he fixicated his eyes on her.
“Since when?”
“I was inside already, doing my hair but on the other side of the room. And when I was about to go out I saw you, your reflection from the mirror”
He must have seen her yawning, opening her alligator mouth so big you-can-count-her-teeth sort of big. Even 2PM Teackyeon could not beat her
“Oh” because it was embarrassing so only oh came out.
“Sorry” he said. She saw the uncomfortable look on his face.
“What for?”
“You know, I should have told earlier instead of messaging you like that” he said
It’s rare.
It’s rare for a guy to say sorry in korea.
It’s rare for a sunbae to say sorry in korea.
It’s rare for oppa that she likes to say sorry.
Saying sorry over a small matter that other might over look nothing.
But it meant big to her.
She smiled.
“It’s okay”
There was doubt in his eyes, like he doubted she meant the “okay” part. Like it was nothing.
“I like your messages” she said.
Author Note
- yup, this long! it worth 27 pages = 8,829 words
- this long yet i wrote it in 3 days cause the ideas was running like water running from water tap.
- comments = love! Part 2