And so it starts....

[yoshi_dione]

Well...I'm not sure what hurts more.  Not being a bridesmaid in one of my bestfriends' wedding or actually feeling as if I've lost that friend forever.  And knowing in my heart...that I brought it upon me.  I guess I should've just done what everyone else seems to have done.  I should've just sucked it up and gotten over the fact that I didn't like

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[yoshi_dione]

I really appriciate the advice, Retta. And I guess there's no real way to make me feel any worse so it doesn't matter. It just REALLY kills me that for YEARS, the four of us were always "Oh y'all will be my bridesmaids, no matter what". She even went so far as to try and rationalize it by saying "We've grown apart..." I mean it sounded like a fucking break up "It's not you, it's me". I never told her not to marry him, I never told her I thought it was a mistake...I supported her the whole time. Which leads me to believe Christin was leaking things I said to her. So I guess that's my own fault. But yeah...I guess I always thought more of her than she thought of me. And that really REALLY hurts.

[yoshi_dione]

She really has, hasn't she? And you're right, she has been brainwashed. And you're AWESOMETASTIC! X3