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Title: Heavy
Chapter: N/A
Author: YoshiLei
Rating: PG-13
Band(s): Gazette
Pairing(s): ? x Ruki
Syn: Ruki's admierer is finding it hard to come to terms with his feelings..
Warning(s): M X M
Disclaimer: I don't own muses
I felt him shudder as I slipped my hand under the back of his coat, my cold fingers making contact with warm, flustered skin. I almost hesitated, anxious, until I felt his shaky rush of breathe brush my ear, only then did I move forward, trapping his smaller body between mine and the wall of the building outside. I kept my palm pressed against the small of his back, just letting the tips of my fingers move down slightly to brush the skin below his belt as I let the other hand support myself on the concrete of the wall behind him. I felt his body jerk a little at the movement and his hands gripped the shoulders’ of my jacket tighter.
He mumbled shy, half hearted attempts at telling me to stop, how I’d regret it in the morning, he thought I was drunk.
Good.
That’s what I wanted him to think, how else could I touch him like this? In any other situation I’d be labelled for liking men, I didn’t…I just…it was just …Ruki. At least drunk I could say I didn’t mean it to happen, I didn’t know what I was doing…
… except I did.
I knew what I was doing and I knew exactly what I wanted to do to him, my chest felt light as if it was just filled with frantic air that wanted to escape but couldn’t because of the nervous lump in my throat blocking it. My breath sounded heavy, even to me as I pressed my lips down the line of Ruki’s throat, which I knew was a sensitive part to him in more ways than one…
He cut his efforts at reasoning with me short, and I felt the sound of his whimpering vibrate up the length of his neck against my mouth, it went right through the rest of my body. I wanted the experience to be like this, treasuring every noise that I brought from him, but I suddenly I felt like I wasn’t making a convincing act of a drunken fondling and I’d be found out. So I quickened the pace, pressing him up harder in contact with the wall, bringing both hands under the cover of his coat and other layers to run them along the sides of his slim waist. I got myself so worked up in not getting caught in my act, that I almost didn’t hear his calls as my hand brushed his navel, making its way down lower...
He grabbed my hand and that jerked me back to reality, his voice was shaking a little, like it was about to crack and I could hear it now.
‘’Please, don’t…Reita.’’
My head snapped up and caught his tearful glance up at me; I stood still for a moment before quickly pulling back.
That’s what gave me away.
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