i just finished the book "choke ( Read more... )

Dylan is in Florida
Kacey is in France
& Morgan is in Philidalphia

blehhh.
my phone is shut off
& i need a job soon soon soon

i've been high everyday for the past week
eeeeeek

he fucking leaves today
he fucking leaves for a month
the past 3 days i've come home and cried

why is something so amazing being ripped away from me?
is this fair at all?

i will suck it up
and wait for him to come home
i can do this
i can
i can
i can

this is so scary to me
not because i think he is fucking me over
-well slightly
but that i will fuck him over
and that isn't what i want
i wont let it happen this time
i swear it's different

i miss things.
i miss people.

it's okay 
because
i'm okay
:]

I can't explain why I feel the way I do towards certain people
towards a lot of people actually

so I heard I’m different
but if it's me wanting to change
and I am comfortable with myself
then this is me being myself
and if you don't like the different me
then please don't be fake to me

I’m comfortable
I'm happy
I’m hopeless
I’m sad
I’m empathetic
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i'm trying to deal
and trying to cope
i'm trying to be strong
i'm trying not to cry

i'm trying
but it's not good enough

why can't everything just be semi-close to normal?
well, it's almost summer
next year i will be a senior.
i don't feel like it
tim and i have been dating for over 2 months
this is my longest

mannn,
what do i do?
i need to know if i will be okay ( Read more... )

   how we waste our prescious time
   marching in the picket line
   that surround those striking hearts
   & the time is never now
   & we know who we should love
   but we're never certain how

-the time is now
 & i know who to love
 & i'm learning how

<3

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things are well
as well as they could be i guess
parents are pathetic
friends are fantastic
boyfriend is breath taking
school is stupid
home is hopeless

:]
i'll be fine.