yeah this really sucks.. the one time i got even close to getting my hopes up they just crashed down.... i hate this..its a terrible feeling like i just got pinched right in the heart.ouch. but i have erik and paia..cause well they know why.and i love them mucho mucho..and everyone else. ilove you too. but thats all. bad day.oh well.
i just want you to be happy...i would never take any of that away from you. so go for it. . your happiness is more important to me than anything. i love you.