Everyone's general happiness is killing me. I'm a jealous person, I can't get past it. I'm pretty sure this feeling is not okay.

I just finished three tests in three days, and this is total deja vu ( Read more... )

There are so many people who are stronger and braver and tougher then me. To give in to despair I feel sometimes would just be letting them down. I wish I could reverse time and undo all that I've done, but I can't. And I know that there's a really exciting future for me. I get to learn how to live again. I get to do it without being held back.

Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova won an Oscar last night for their music in the film "Once". This are the lyrics to "When you've made up your mind". It's really beautiful and it really hits home and it's on my myspace.So, if you want something ( Read more... )

I've always known that, but all the sadness thats come with this break-up has also helped me to understand there are a lot of other sources of love in my life and that I'm truly blessed ( Read more... )

I haven't cried over you in a while, but tonight I can't help it. I'm not sad that we aren't dating, because I don't want to be with you anymore. I just had this crazy notion that you still wanted to be friends and that you still cared about me. I don't know why I thought that... it's not like you told me that last week or anything.

When your heart is heavy, it's best to lay on a kitchen floor at 3 am and pour your heart out to someone who is exactly where you are in life. Your puddle of troubles will evaporate and your heart will be lighter, for a little while anyway ( Read more... )

It's like it's supposed to be, but not now. Things need to change before they are resolved.

Have you ever loved someone so much, but something was preventing you from being with them?

Oh, well. I'm happy for now.

<3

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.

- Sarah Bareilles, "Gravity"

Once upon a time, I wasn't so alienated.