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[youneedtostop]

Well once again i am depressed. I kept think to my self after every guy fucked me over that i had tristan up there loving me and that we would be together soon and i would finally be happy......... i guess this is still too much to ask from god

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I love you

[fairyrckr]

oh heather my love i wish i could take u away... far away where no one would find us where we could start all over... i know what it is like to be drepressed u know that i mine all in a matter of less then 4 months my live was turned upside down... i love the love of my life, started doing more bad shit, got kicked out of my house and now i have no place to go... so i feel for u i feel your pain and u know u always have me... i know u r my bestest friend in the whole world... i mean come on we have only know each other for like 4 months and we r closer then ever... and i am so glad i have had u there these last 4 months... u r the only thing good i got out of this all and i am so glad to have u, so dont be sad be glad b/c u always have me even if u dont have boys!!!

I love u sooooo much heather and someday we r going to excape from this all!! I promise! We will start all over and have the greatest lives ever!!!

[youneedtostop]

i love you too, thank you..... but my heart still breaks!

[fairyrckr]

i know and it will be for a long time god knows mine is... and the thing that scares me the most it that i think mine will be foreever...

[youneedtostop]

i am sure mine will be broken for ever too!!! it always is broken so most likely always will..... we will have broken hearts together.... i would say lets just you and i become lesibeans and get married but sorry i am a lit bit to homophobic!!! sorry! lol

[chuckbob]

im sorry life is so tough on you but it is on everyone just in different ways, if u dont want to hear what i got to say then thats cool, normally people dont listen to me so it wont be anything new. this is a tough time for you, i wanted to say this to you when we played pool, im being serious, i like you, your cool, awesome, and in everyway possible you make me forget about my past and force me to live my life. please dont diss God he is probably helping you right now, have u ever heard the story bout the foot prints in the sand, a guy dies and looks back on his life through foot prints in the sand when he walked with God and he noticed that through all the tough times in life there was only one set of foot prints and he asked God y did you leave me, God answered i carried you. i want to carry you away and i want to chill with you more and not worry about anything, i want to be the one that you dream of, the one that wont break your heart and the one that will hold you close to mine

[youneedtostop]

i would really like to know how oh is fucking helping me!!! i have never had him help me before and i am guess he wont now!!!! i used to pray every night i would ask him to help guid me.... he didnt fucking listen did he give me direction in life no!!! he just kept shiting on me and he kepting giving up on me!!! so you know what fuck it i give up on him!!! yea you heard me i fucking give up on god!!!! you cant carry me aways bobby i cant even carry my self away not matter where i go or what i do the pain will always be there weather it is one form or an other i will always be in pain......... i am used to it.......... why do you want to be that one bobby..... you cant no one can........ you cant be him......... us is not possible..... you think you would be the one tha doesnt fuck me over well guess what they all think that, and what do they do they all fuck me over!!!! so get off your high horse because you cant be then one i dream of and you cant be the one that wont break my heart!!!

[youneedtostop]

oh and i almost forgot please dont do that to me.........please dont use me to get over her cause that is fucked up

[chuckbob]

im not using you to get over her, im talkin about friendship, getting to know you before anything could happen, i know how you make me feel but i dont know everything about you or everything you are. im not a heartbreaker, never have been. im not that type of guy. its so hard to make suggestions to someone to help them especially when you've been there before but all i can say is you'll find the answers your looking for when you're ready to hear them