I haven't posted here before, I've left a few comments - firstly in the very early days of bereavement and also today, when reading this community for the first time in a year and a half
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I am also 18 months out, and my husband died on May 10,2008. He was also the same age. He had a brain aneurysm that he never recovered from.
I have my moments when his picture doesn't make me fall apart, but instead, I feel completely empty inside. Like, I almost prefer it when I fell apart to the vacuum that is left behind. I miss being able to tell him everything, and as the months race by, it hurts to not include him.
But I also believe he would want me to do amazing things with my life, and I'm trying.
I've been really needing to get away by myself, lately. People haven't been supportive of the idea, but I just need to get away so I can lose it, and bawl my eyes out.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I understand. And I hope this holiday season brings hope, release and peace for you.
Thank you for your message, I really appreciate it. I'm sorry for your loss, too.
all we can do is try, and be the best we can be, I guess.
Getting away by yourself is something I've done quite a lot of and it's been a huge help. Sure, moving halfway across the world from my family has made it easier to just pick up and get away on my own, but it's really worthwhile making the effort to do.
Just discovered this community. Reading your post has struck a chord... I could have written much of it. I don't have the answer, but you're not alone. I want to talk, and share all the things I'm going through, and I want to cry, but I just can't. It's so hard :(
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I am also 18 months out, and my husband died on May 10,2008. He was also the same age. He had a brain aneurysm that he never recovered from.
I have my moments when his picture doesn't make me fall apart, but instead, I feel completely empty inside. Like, I almost prefer it when I fell apart to the vacuum that is left behind. I miss being able to tell him everything, and as the months race by, it hurts to not include him.
But I also believe he would want me to do amazing things with my life, and I'm trying.
I've been really needing to get away by myself, lately. People haven't been supportive of the idea, but I just need to get away so I can lose it, and bawl my eyes out.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I understand. And I hope this holiday season brings hope, release and peace for you.
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all we can do is try, and be the best we can be, I guess.
Getting away by yourself is something I've done quite a lot of and it's been a huge help. Sure, moving halfway across the world from my family has made it easier to just pick up and get away on my own, but it's really worthwhile making the effort to do.
I wish you all the best for the holidays.
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