i'm in an extremely creative mood right now. i dont want to sleep. i want to paint (and fingerpaint) and cook and bake and draw and knit, and never stop. i need to just devote all of my time home to that ( Read more... )

what a waste of what could have been a beautiful day ( Read more... )

one of my friends saw the leaf i had on my desk that i've been preserving as a reminder of my favorite season. and she thought i should put earthy make up on to match the scarf i made and take faux-toes of it. so upon such inspiration, she photographed me. i don't think i look like me. and i'm really critical of the photo. but i love my leaf. so.. ( Read more... )

i just suffered minor electrocution.

FUCK THAT HURT.

this is almost the fourth time i've deleted//revised something i've written today. i've been so flighty.

( if you so choose. )

previous confusion has been somewhat quelled. i can breathe a bit easier now ( Read more... )

i think i'm still sleeping. my heart is beating too fast. my stomach has been in knots all day. i don't know whats wrong ( Read more... )

its almost quarter to five in the morning, and i have an eight a.m. class. i should be sleeping. but i was woken up by violent coughing fits and an extremely sore throat. i havent been taking care of myself as i probably should. i haven't given myself enough sleep or water or orange juice or vitamins, and i'm guilty about eating meat (it means i'm ( Read more... )

p.s. i have 60 cents to my name

fucked?

yesssss.

tonight i drank what feels like more than i have in my entire life, but was probably not, but feels like it is. i'm beyond gone. my throat is searing like its going to burn at any moment, and my heart is aching and my eyes are flooding. i'm not sad though; i'm thankful. i spent the last hour calling and texting the people that are most important to ( Read more... )