so ive spent about the last 15 minutes crying my eyes out because im so sick of it all. im tired of feeling like this. im tired of feeling like i have no one to talk to about how im feeling. things with steve are..falling apart. im tired of him telling me he loves me only when he drunk. or acting like he even cares about me at all...only when hes ( Read more... )

ok so i am so frusterated and upset and stressed right now. i have no money. i need to pay rent.i need to pay for my books. i need to pay for school supplies and bills and everything fucking else. i hate this. i hate the fact that i try to live on my own and i cant afford it. i hate having parents who can do jack shit to help me out. why can ( Read more... )

so this past few days...weeks....actually the entire summer has been a complete bummer for me. stuck in elk grove with all my friends "home". i went to tahoe on saturday. its not what it used to be. its just boring and meaningless now. my birthday...sucked. well i got to go jet skiing in the morning so that was cool. but the rest of the day blew. ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in awhile. things are good. all i do is work. and talk to steve on the phone. he sent me a dozen red roses today. i felt special. the end :)

not so sure this is completely correct but it was amusing

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Merry is your soulmate.
You truly love Shawna.
You consider Gigi your true friend.
You know that Casey is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Steve for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Lauren is creative, charming, and a bit too ( Read more... )

so let me say. this weekend has been totally kick ass. like the best ever. thursday night we went to haileys and drank. for the first time in a long while i got totally wasted. and regreted it later. felt like the shit the whole night but luckily i had the best roomie in the world and my awesome bf to take care of me. then friday night me deuce, ( Read more... )

because EMILY IS COMING HOME TOMORROW. shes flying down for the weekend. i get to see her. i am soo happy. sooooo happy. omg i missed her so much. yes tomorrow is gonna be good!

so last night was PKA formal. let me tell you. it kicked major ass. major ass my friends! i had sooo much fun. so here is a quick sum up of the events of the evening cause i dont feel like writing it all out. ill post pics later on my aim(sweetstuf145) once i get all the pics ( Read more... )

so ya today...sucked. i was tired...and towards the end of the night hella cranky cause i hadnt eaten anything all day. so i was in dance class, and nick and steve were teasing me as usual, but tonight it was just bugging me cause i was cranky from not eating anything. so i think steve could tell that i was getting upset about the teasing so he ( Read more... )

so tonight was long and crazy. but it really made me realize a lot of shit. danny james and katie came up to visit me and we went out to dinner at jack in the crack with gigi. then we came back to the dorms and figured out what we were gonna do. so steve and gig went to get alcohol and we smoked some of james hookah while we waited. so then steve ( Read more... )