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[yourclementine]

i've been thinking and i think that the reason that i'm so afraid of the future is because i am generally happy with the present. and with the future comes change and if i am already happy with my life why would i want it to change. because it may get better, but it may also get worse. i dont think i;ll ever be as happy or in such good balance as i

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Bitter McBitterson

[salionus]

Yea that's you. And besides there is always the chance that he actually does like you, calling it denial now just makes it harder for the opportunity that he does like to come to fruitation, cause that would be a change :D On top of that stop scarying the crap out of yourself and you'll be set. payce

Re: Bitter McBitterson

[yourclementine]

hey, so you made it within the week!

naw, cause i actually do want him to, its just i dont want to give myself false hopes.

[twistmymind]

All that should matter is that IIIIIIIIIIII love you, right? OF COURSE.

Now come see me before anyone else, whore. =( Lets make flan and you can sleep on my waterbed one last time before I have it removed for-eh-bur.

[yourclementine]

heheh, you do have a point, that is MOST important.

and

NOOOOOOOO. so many fond memories. where is it going??????

[twistmymind]

Hazel and Camie are trading their bunkbed for it. =P Actually, I think they're getting rid of the water mattress and putting in a regular one.

This meeeeeeeeeeeeans... more room in my room for hanging out, and now I have a bed for people if they want to stay over! ...even though we can fit like 10 on the waterbed. *shrug* I dunno! I need some change. I need more space. Lolz.

[yourclementine]

sweet....in the words of tom hanks.... i call top!

[enigmagnetic]

i've woken from a dream crying before (i forget who died), not sure if it were true or not. its horrifying, or at least disconcerting.

and about boys and perceptions, the thing is, if you believe that he is interested, you will probably respond to him warmly or flirtatiously, and encourage that maybe-more-than-friendly behavior. however if you believe that he is not interested (in that way), then you will respond to him differently, and he will perceive that you are not interested in him, and so will stop trying. its a self-fulfilling prophecy. plus, he probably actually does like you, because you are not only awesome but hot, so be your wonderful self and enjoy some positive thinking.

[yourclementine]

ah, your words make me smile. thank you, my pet