no, no pictures...
i wish i weren't updating this today because it would seem like a very ungrateful emotion for one's birth day.
before i get to my point, i really shouldn't be receiving any gifts. what on earth did i do to be worthy of receiving gifts just for being born? i had absolutely no control over that. i should be giving gifts to those around me for putting up with my existance for 19 years. how does that make any sense? our society is selfish and we've been trained to believe things are about us, individually. "Quench YOUR thirst" not "Quench a poor, emaciated child's thirst."
i've been doing a lot of thinking and i've realized that a fair amount of my friendships are based on the fact that i love people so much. In general, I like people. I like being around people, I like differentiating people and learning about them. And because of this, rather than analyzing each friendship, I have this nice glaze over them that consists of me blindly catering to those friends because i merely enjoy their company. i'm done with that. So, if our friendship is based off of me doing things for you, constantly calling you to keep up the friendship, and catering to your every need with nothing in return, that just came to a screeching hault. you can either be completely happy with that or you can begin to put something into the friendship, which i'm more than welcoming at this point. your choice.
thanks to KT, Noel, Christen, Mitch, John Phoebus, Gwen, Whitney, Ingrid, Dave, Scott, John, Annikki, and CJ for their birthday wishes this morning. Way to be awesome friends and completely make my day.
first test of the semester = 100%. hiYA.
it's funny how birthdays are so hyped up verbally.
whitney and marie have started painting now, it's way fun to watch.
i'd love to see everyone.
we're going to the freakingradascrap ft. lauderdale science museum around noon (you're more than welcome to come), getting lunch, and then coming back. i hope everyone can come say hi when we all hang out.
i can't really, honestly complain. my parents were amazing enough to take me out for crab legs, my ffffavorite, and give me some very nice gifts that i definitely didn't deserve.
THIS is like having an emotionally abusive boyfriend. Sometimes he adores you and makes you feel warm and fuzzy and sometimes he makes you feel cold and unloved and lonely.
"Be strong and courageous! Don't be afraid nor dismayed. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9