i'm feeling very inadequate right now. like anything i say or do will never be enough. everything makes me cry. and right now curling up in a ball and sleeping for the rest of my life doesn't sound half bad.
Oh I know how that goes. At times like these I just tell myself I'm doing better then some people. Like a 40 year old man who sleeps on the floor, is a recovering alcoholic, has a dui, has tons of loans for school, and is broke.
i don't know if you ever read the perks of being a wallflower by stephen chbosky. but if you haven't i would really recommend it. it's my all time favorite book. in the epilogue it says: "i think if i ever have kids, and they are upset, i won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. and even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. good and bad." and maybe thinking about people having it worse than you makes you feel better about what you're going through. but that never works for me. it more or less just makes me feel bad that i can't help them. or myself for that matter.
oh my god Mel....that book, the perks of being a wallflower is the bestest book of ALL TIMES! Kelly actually recommended it to me and i after i read it....i totally willl recomend it to anyone! its the best bok of alltime! oh man i cant even talk about it right now im getting WAY too excited! i understand what you mean tho Mel, lately i really feel the same way! i feel so bad about my self, more than i ever have? i caant really even explain it to anyone? its like..i dont even know! AH!! i just wanna scaream somtiems....THat is when im not laying on the ground curled up crying! Keep in there tho! Stay strong and it will boil over hopefully soon! i love you a ton girl!
yeah, like Janae said, i like ur pic... and i'm glad we hung out today, even if it was just for a couple hours, doing nothing, at the parking lot at the beach. twas still fun...and i never see you anymore...but that's really my fault. hope yoou feel better soon, ma'am.
hey shmel mel... you know i'm behind you on whatever you do...and if you feel like curling up in a ball, and dying...well "sleeping" let me know...k? just give me a jingle, cause remember??? we're both in the "i hate my life" club!!! We're in it together!
alright, can't wait til i'm done with work today to see you! ~Ambrosia
Comments 6
Reply
in the epilogue it says:
"i think if i ever have kids, and they are upset, i won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. and even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. good and bad."
and maybe thinking about people having it worse than you makes you feel better about what you're going through. but that never works for me. it more or less just makes me feel bad that i can't help them. or myself for that matter.
Reply
Reply
Reply
and i'm glad we hung out today, even if it was just for a couple hours, doing nothing, at the parking lot at the beach.
twas still fun...and i never see you anymore...but that's really my fault.
hope yoou feel better soon, ma'am.
Reply
you know i'm behind you on whatever you do...and if you feel like curling up in a ball, and dying...well "sleeping" let me know...k? just give me a jingle, cause remember??? we're both in the "i hate my life" club!!! We're in it together!
alright, can't wait til i'm done with work today to see you!
~Ambrosia
Reply
Leave a comment