ok, so i have officially decided that there is nothing at all wrong with my life. i mean... i love being in the position i am in, doing the things i'm doing. i know things have been a little rough lately, but the thing is... they always get so much better. and i can't ever complain about that.

things with mike and i are going well. i really like the ( Read more... )

she shut the front door with a derisive click, not that she could hear it, her thoughts were rushing in her ears. sort of like crashing waves, or stormy wind. she wasn't quite sure anyway... she was never sure of much. placing her keys on the closest surface to her, she made her way down the halls. halls she had walked down far too many times. she ( Read more... )

so i am officially sick, again. i swear that's all i do well. i've just been sitting around my house, hacking and coughing all day. it's pretty nice. LOOOOOVE it.

but i'll tell you, the show friday night was amazing. i had the best time. really cheered me up, don't regret going and making myself sicker. he is legend was so great... i love that band ( Read more... )

come here baby, closer closer
we'll make this right
we'll tell secrets only we can tell
in languages only we can hear
we'll make this better
we'll run far away from the chaos we create

i don't want to be here
(i don't want to be here)
make it right, baby
just like you promised
like you swore it'd be

remember?

and this is where i regress

the rain fell, and we ( Read more... )

so maybe i'll reach the point where all of this will stop hurting. where i can sleep a whole night without waking up every hour in tears. or screaming. my heart is really fragile, and taking this is not easy. i have been through losing someone more than once, why can't i deal with it this time? probably because i feel really betrayed and cheated. ( Read more... )

so alex, kayla, bryan and i were driving tonight. we were on midland drive, at the stop light before the loop. even though this has nothing to do with the story... i felt the need to clarify where we were. on with the tale..

there was a guy in an suv beside us and was doing something really strange with his arm... like holding it up. i wondered out ( Read more... )

so they sent me home from work today because it really wasn't something i could deal with. i mean, i love my job so much... i am so greatful. they're going to pay me for my time out and pay for any therapy/counselling i might need. this job has been such a Godsend... i am so blessed.

i really need to sleep. i really need to eat. but i just can't. ( Read more... )

she was only held here.... by silken strings

her body tied to the ground

she longed to be free, to break those threads

yet with hands bound behind her back, it was impossible

she fought with great fevor

she begged, pleaded

her huge heart was never meant for this world

she was fated from the beginning

she was my heart and all for the longest time

she held ( Read more... )

there is a fog that has settled over this city ( Read more... )

i find it hard to believe that you have a soul ( Read more... )