feelings...or lack thereof

[yourseventhseal]

So I'm going through the process now of seeing people for the last time. It feels like every spare moment I have is spent hanging out with somebody, possibly for the last time (at least in a very long while). And while I am enjoying spending time with people, and I know that I will miss them, I really don't feel sad. I don't feel anything at all.

Comments

[katie_did84]

You're not emotionless, you're realistic. This phase of your life is over and you're ready to move on. you also know that those of us that matter will make all kinds of crazy efforts to stay in touch with you. We'll miss you, but we're happy for you too. So just send me your damn address before your adventures begin ok???

[meteoricpath]

I feel the same way. I'm a little sad, but more than anything I just want to go NOW, which sort of overrides any sense of sadness I have. I know that I'll figure out a way to stay in touch, and be meeting all kinds of new people besides.

[yourseventhseal]

I'm glad to know I'm not the only one! How is your checklist going?

[meteoricpath]

Oh totally.
The checklist is... going. It seems like every time I check something off I realize another thing that I forgot to do. It's a little maddening. Especially since I know that for the most part, if I had to leave tomorrow I would be just fine. I don't know why I make myself so crazy!

[yourseventhseal]

Ha, yeah, and then I keep thinking of things and not bothering to write them down--I'm going to be in country for 6 months and think, "did I ever mail that book to such-and-such?"

My strategy on weighing luggage--I stole my mom's weight-watchers scale :-). I weigh myself, then I weigh myself holding each bag and subtract. It's the best I can do without buying stuff. But I did see some special luggage-weighing scales at a Samsonite store the last time I was there; they didn't look too expensive.