Comments | yourthenewday: wierd day....?

yourthenewday

wierd day....?

Jan 14, 2004 22:07

ok so today was just really wierd! in fact the past couple of days have been so surreal! i have the most major mood swings (im sorry to one and all whom this may affect) but during the day sometimes i get really angry over the stupidest little things... and then i get home and do shtuff around the house or have choir or something and come home and ( Read more... )

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key_to_my_heart January 15 2004, 10:09:05 UTC

Emma im scared. My parents keep threatening to take choir away and they are serious! They can't do it, i wont let them, but in some ways its out of my hands now. Meaning the'll make me take a week/month(s) off. Or maybe force me to quit altogether. Ria says to do what they want so they wont take it away, which would mean doing school work every waking breathing moment and when im done, start the work for tomorrow, and help out around the house more, and idk what else.
but if i entirely change my life to please them they win. It would mean school, choir, school, church, choir. No friends, no Brad, no extra concerts.

it's like they are blackmailing me

???? yourthenewday January 15 2004, 14:19:45 UTC

how can they do that? dont theyy understand that you love choir.. it is something in ur life that makes u the happiet? i dont understand why they would want to take that away... please respons!

Re: ???? key_to_my_heart January 17 2004, 18:16:02 UTC

I dont understand it at all. But it's had me worried/upset for over a week now. I also know I have to do really well on my midterms (which start on tuesday) because if I dont then they have this "evidence" that choir is taking away from my academics. They expect all A's on the friggin midterms which is getting me so incredibly stressed out. Apparently they see choir as a privelige that can be taken away if I slip up. And in their eyes I've already begun to slip. They cant do this to me Emma, I don't know what would happen if they did. Choir is the one thing in my life I can always count on, my safe haven. Where else can I forget about everything and become totally elated as I strive towards my personal best? Where else am I a leader and a student all in one? No one else that I know has 50+ sisters, and like 5 adults that they completely trust, and can come to for advice yet are more like friends themselves? I mean I dont know how many times I've asked for Rebecca's help or opinion on something or she and I have shared "boyfriend" ( ... )