the late happy new year ramble
I know its late but HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!
HOPE YOU ALL GET A MUCH BETTER YEAR THAN 2003!
1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
- I danced on stage.one of ballet and one of jazz.It was a wonderful experience.I had always wanted to do this and after a year of classes and lots of rehearsals I managed to get it right in the end.The theater was beautiful and it was a whole new place for me since im always going to the same places.It felt like an adventure i'd love to repeat again.
I also managed to get into music school.Im learning theory,choir and piano andits been a really rocky road but im still alive(yay).
2. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
A more oganized life.Making much better choices.I'd love to have more confidence in myself and in my abilities.To be able to be more like myself and lesss of what is convenient.There's so many things but they can be all sumed up in this word:balance.I never have it and although most of my grades are rarely affected,the pre-calculus and physics can be and with them my self-esteem.
3. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Hmmm maybe October 25,26 and 27 because I was on stage during those days and it was the best experience of my life.
4. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Its hard to have just one so i made a list:
- Getting the courage to talk with my family about what was bothering me(we don't have a great relationship)
- Meeting friends willing to help me out when things got really sucky.I also met a proffesor that gave me lots of encouragement and advice.
- Dancing on stage.
- Being on music school.
- Going back to that old place tht will always be my hme even if I don't live there anymore.
- Shopping in Borders *laughs*
- Writing more stories and fic pieces than ever before.
- Making some desicions about college.
5. What was your biggest failure?
- This year I had several emotional breakdowns and had nightmares for weeks.The fear that I wasgoing to fail on my last year of high school was freaking me out plus I had a hard time feeling better.I love being in a good mood.It gives me strenght.But its hard to keep it up around here.I would have done everything to stop myself from crying and eventually all I could do was staying away from everyone so I wouldn't keep embarrasing myself with my tantrums and tears and later feeling way guilty.
Reading books was my only help during that time.
- Choosing to stay home instead of going to school.I skipped classes and all.I only wanted to sleep.
- I wasnt chosen for some scholarships.
- avoiding life instead of just facing it.
6. Did you suffer illness or injury?
It was the year of illnesses.I've noticed that when I get depressed,I get very sick with flu,headaches and other stuff.I had to stay home a lot.
7. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My friend Alondra who made a promise and kept it(everyone around here is known for breaking them.All the time)
Dany should win a trophy for patience among other things :)
My teachers and counselors who were helpful.
- Gaby and Pheebs who gave me support.
The Pope(as always ;) )
- And many others
8. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Mine most of the time.crying and what not.I don't like crying or getting hurt in front of people.They can make you feel ten times worse.
A friend of mine decided to attack me one day and I just stood there hearing her because didn't know how to fight bck andmy other friendjust stood there two very quiet.After thatI left to where my other two friends(Gaby and Pheebs) and cry like a child.silly
9. Where did most of your money go?
Shopping for books in Borders.Where I live no one sells worthy books
10. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- Borders
- Dancing on stage!
- Movies(yeah simple things but well lol)
- Can't remember what else :P
11. What song will always remind you of 2003?
Lame Alert: Seasons of Love, from Rent. Because Florida in July was the best thing this eyar, and that was the theme song down there. I miss the Social...
12. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
A bit sad,I thought my eleventh year was hard and stressful but this one ended being one very depressing.
ii. thinner or fatter?
I feel like a cow.Can't help it! *laughs loudly*Everyone will of course tell you otherwise *rolls eyes*.Im making excersise.I want a cool belly :P *smiles*
iii. richer or poorer?
So much poorer.
14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Excercising.
Writing
Drawing
Practicing for school
and many more things.
15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Sleeping!
Crying!
being annoying!
16. Did you fall in love in 2003?
Nope.With who?Im always seeing the same people since I rarely go out.And tourists won't drop by the local supermarket.
17. How many one night stands?
None.
18. What was your favourite TV program?
BTVS but I stopped watching.Everwood.It always cheered me up and seeing Ephram always made me smile.Emily vancamp broke record as a very talented actress.
19. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I rather dislike.Hate is bad.
20. What was the best book you read?
Order of the Phoenix
I don't know how she does it! -Allison Pearson
21. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Vangogh's ear(La Oreja de vangogh - spanish band)
22. What was your favourite film of this year?
Peter Pan!
Return of the King!
Pirates of the caribbean!
23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
It was really simple but meaningful.I didn't expect my friends to remember nor did i remind them but most of them came to me with cards and hugged me tight.It was really beautiful and sad in way.I might not see them again after this year.
24. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If I had been able to control myself and if my computer hadn't crashed.Add to that many more thing that i can't remember.
25. What kept you sane?
Old habits like sleeping too much and a girl on messenger.Plus I think *looks at the sky* he didn't forget about me either and help me out with my sanity.
26. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Gregory Smith.Hayden Christensen and Ewan McGregor.Oh and Tom Felton.
27. What political issue stirred you the most?
*runs away from politics*
28. Who did you miss?
The NWTers, always.
29. Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm Gigi.She a distant familiar(sp?) who speaks english and teaches art appreciation.talking with her really helped me.
30. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.
thats hard.Can't remember right now.Somethig along the lines of :
choosing the mature choice and not the childish one.Courage is the resistance of fear not the absence of it.Sometimes we have to stand for what we believe in and sometimes we must stand alone.
I
New Year Resolutions
Lets see how many can I do this time. :)
I - Revise and finish a fanfic in the works.
II - Keep writing my original fiction.
III - make a painting.
IV - draw more. :)
V - Get back to dance school.
VI - Get accepted in a good college.
VII - The magical word is:balance.*nods*
VIII - Re-open my personal site Painted world
IX - Make dolls.*nods*
X - learn more about php,html ect and befriend adobe.
XI - write more fanfic and short stories
XII - make all of the above
II
Some quotes that made me think and some that I just love to pieces:
"You know, after my mom died, everybody told me that I was gonna be ok. That, it would take a little time, but I would heal. Well, that didn't ever happen; not really anyway. . . What you're feeling right now Amy, it doesn't ever really go away -- not completely. It's not like, ya know, you're gonna go back to being the person you were before they died -- the person's gone. It's more like something inside of you breaks and your body finds a way to compensate for it. Like if you busted your right hand, you figure out how to use the left one. And sure, you might resist for awhile because you're pissed off that you have to learn all this stuff again that nobody else does. Eventually your body takes over and figures it out for you. And your glad. because if it was up to you. . . you'd look at your broken hand forever and try to figure out what it was like before."
- Ephram - everwood
"Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine." LOL
Amy: I just want to feel better again. I just want to feel normal.
Dr. Brown: "Are you drunk?"
Ephram: "Obviosly not enbough, but we can change that, toss me a hienekein!"
Amy: Anyone else at County just tries to kill everyone else's good mood with their bad one. But you don't. . .you just make it funny. How do you do that?
Ephram:What do I do?
Amy: You make light of a situation even if it sucks... I want to do that.
III
I've been making icons that look nice.When I have enough,I'll try and post so everyone can be amused.
I also watched Peter Pan recently (see icon) which absolutely rocked.I also went to see Return of The king.
I'll ramble about them later once inspiration hits me :)
*leaves to enjoy upcoming rain*
HOPE YOU ALL GET A MUCH BETTER YEAR THAN 2003!
1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
- I danced on stage.one of ballet and one of jazz.It was a wonderful experience.I had always wanted to do this and after a year of classes and lots of rehearsals I managed to get it right in the end.The theater was beautiful and it was a whole new place for me since im always going to the same places.It felt like an adventure i'd love to repeat again.
I also managed to get into music school.Im learning theory,choir and piano andits been a really rocky road but im still alive(yay).
2. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
A more oganized life.Making much better choices.I'd love to have more confidence in myself and in my abilities.To be able to be more like myself and lesss of what is convenient.There's so many things but they can be all sumed up in this word:balance.I never have it and although most of my grades are rarely affected,the pre-calculus and physics can be and with them my self-esteem.
3. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Hmmm maybe October 25,26 and 27 because I was on stage during those days and it was the best experience of my life.
4. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Its hard to have just one so i made a list:
- Getting the courage to talk with my family about what was bothering me(we don't have a great relationship)
- Meeting friends willing to help me out when things got really sucky.I also met a proffesor that gave me lots of encouragement and advice.
- Dancing on stage.
- Being on music school.
- Going back to that old place tht will always be my hme even if I don't live there anymore.
- Shopping in Borders *laughs*
- Writing more stories and fic pieces than ever before.
- Making some desicions about college.
5. What was your biggest failure?
- This year I had several emotional breakdowns and had nightmares for weeks.The fear that I wasgoing to fail on my last year of high school was freaking me out plus I had a hard time feeling better.I love being in a good mood.It gives me strenght.But its hard to keep it up around here.I would have done everything to stop myself from crying and eventually all I could do was staying away from everyone so I wouldn't keep embarrasing myself with my tantrums and tears and later feeling way guilty.
Reading books was my only help during that time.
- Choosing to stay home instead of going to school.I skipped classes and all.I only wanted to sleep.
- I wasnt chosen for some scholarships.
- avoiding life instead of just facing it.
6. Did you suffer illness or injury?
It was the year of illnesses.I've noticed that when I get depressed,I get very sick with flu,headaches and other stuff.I had to stay home a lot.
7. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My friend Alondra who made a promise and kept it(everyone around here is known for breaking them.All the time)
Dany should win a trophy for patience among other things :)
My teachers and counselors who were helpful.
- Gaby and Pheebs who gave me support.
The Pope(as always ;) )
- And many others
8. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Mine most of the time.crying and what not.I don't like crying or getting hurt in front of people.They can make you feel ten times worse.
A friend of mine decided to attack me one day and I just stood there hearing her because didn't know how to fight bck andmy other friendjust stood there two very quiet.After thatI left to where my other two friends(Gaby and Pheebs) and cry like a child.silly
9. Where did most of your money go?
Shopping for books in Borders.Where I live no one sells worthy books
10. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- Borders
- Dancing on stage!
- Movies(yeah simple things but well lol)
- Can't remember what else :P
11. What song will always remind you of 2003?
Lame Alert: Seasons of Love, from Rent. Because Florida in July was the best thing this eyar, and that was the theme song down there. I miss the Social...
12. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
A bit sad,I thought my eleventh year was hard and stressful but this one ended being one very depressing.
ii. thinner or fatter?
I feel like a cow.Can't help it! *laughs loudly*Everyone will of course tell you otherwise *rolls eyes*.Im making excersise.I want a cool belly :P *smiles*
iii. richer or poorer?
So much poorer.
14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Excercising.
Writing
Drawing
Practicing for school
and many more things.
15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Sleeping!
Crying!
being annoying!
16. Did you fall in love in 2003?
Nope.With who?Im always seeing the same people since I rarely go out.And tourists won't drop by the local supermarket.
17. How many one night stands?
None.
18. What was your favourite TV program?
BTVS but I stopped watching.Everwood.It always cheered me up and seeing Ephram always made me smile.Emily vancamp broke record as a very talented actress.
19. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I rather dislike.Hate is bad.
20. What was the best book you read?
Order of the Phoenix
I don't know how she does it! -Allison Pearson
21. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Vangogh's ear(La Oreja de vangogh - spanish band)
22. What was your favourite film of this year?
Peter Pan!
Return of the King!
Pirates of the caribbean!
23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
It was really simple but meaningful.I didn't expect my friends to remember nor did i remind them but most of them came to me with cards and hugged me tight.It was really beautiful and sad in way.I might not see them again after this year.
24. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If I had been able to control myself and if my computer hadn't crashed.Add to that many more thing that i can't remember.
25. What kept you sane?
Old habits like sleeping too much and a girl on messenger.Plus I think *looks at the sky* he didn't forget about me either and help me out with my sanity.
26. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Gregory Smith.Hayden Christensen and Ewan McGregor.Oh and Tom Felton.
27. What political issue stirred you the most?
*runs away from politics*
28. Who did you miss?
The NWTers, always.
29. Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm Gigi.She a distant familiar(sp?) who speaks english and teaches art appreciation.talking with her really helped me.
30. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.
thats hard.Can't remember right now.Somethig along the lines of :
choosing the mature choice and not the childish one.Courage is the resistance of fear not the absence of it.Sometimes we have to stand for what we believe in and sometimes we must stand alone.
I
New Year Resolutions
Lets see how many can I do this time. :)
I - Revise and finish a fanfic in the works.
II - Keep writing my original fiction.
III - make a painting.
IV - draw more. :)
V - Get back to dance school.
VI - Get accepted in a good college.
VII - The magical word is:balance.*nods*
VIII - Re-open my personal site Painted world
IX - Make dolls.*nods*
X - learn more about php,html ect and befriend adobe.
XI - write more fanfic and short stories
XII - make all of the above
II
Some quotes that made me think and some that I just love to pieces:
"You know, after my mom died, everybody told me that I was gonna be ok. That, it would take a little time, but I would heal. Well, that didn't ever happen; not really anyway. . . What you're feeling right now Amy, it doesn't ever really go away -- not completely. It's not like, ya know, you're gonna go back to being the person you were before they died -- the person's gone. It's more like something inside of you breaks and your body finds a way to compensate for it. Like if you busted your right hand, you figure out how to use the left one. And sure, you might resist for awhile because you're pissed off that you have to learn all this stuff again that nobody else does. Eventually your body takes over and figures it out for you. And your glad. because if it was up to you. . . you'd look at your broken hand forever and try to figure out what it was like before."
- Ephram - everwood
"Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine." LOL
Amy: I just want to feel better again. I just want to feel normal.
Dr. Brown: "Are you drunk?"
Ephram: "Obviosly not enbough, but we can change that, toss me a hienekein!"
Amy: Anyone else at County just tries to kill everyone else's good mood with their bad one. But you don't. . .you just make it funny. How do you do that?
Ephram:What do I do?
Amy: You make light of a situation even if it sucks... I want to do that.
III
I've been making icons that look nice.When I have enough,I'll try and post so everyone can be amused.
I also watched Peter Pan recently (see icon) which absolutely rocked.I also went to see Return of The king.
I'll ramble about them later once inspiration hits me :)
*leaves to enjoy upcoming rain*