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[youtoldmeso]

i need to get away from here so i can grow up. i'm scared about going away for college, but i know if i didn't, i would stick with most of the same people and keep being really dependent and would grow up the same way as everyone else around here and not the way God wants to grow me up. also, i keep having really irrational thoughts or wanting to

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[im_a_pirate_arg]

Okay, I'm not sure who you are, but you're on my friends so oh well.
Pressure is a tough thing, but you'll learn to cope with it. I won't say that College is going to be easier, because pressure only amplifies ten fold once you get here. The only piece of advice I could give would to forget about what you need to do, forget about what people want you to do, and focus instead on what you want to do, and what you feel right doing. All of that other stuff is just stupid and should be thrown to the way side, because it just bogs you down.

[youtoldmeso]

i know college isn't easier, especially since i'll have the pressure of trying to make all new friends. it's just that i've gotten into a routine of being the same way all the time with the people i'm always around, but it isn't who i want to be.

and i'm chelsea. i think we met at the galleria on black friday once. don't ask why i remember that.

[im_a_pirate_arg]

I won't ask then, haha.

Well if you don't like the way you're acting then change it. It's really simple, it just takes a little bit of courage. If you don't mind me asking, what is it that you don't like about yourself?

[youtoldmeso]

well, it isn't so much that i don't like this about myself, it's just that it isn't how i really am. like, around friends from school, i'm generally not serious at all. i goof off most of the time and it's a lot of fun. it's just that really, in four years of high school, i feel like most of the people who are my closest friends there don't really know me. it's totally my fault, because i put up this wall of "haha, i'm so fun and not serious" most of the time. i just don't trust most people to know beyond that point. it isn't like i'm not being real with them, because that is a side of me, it's just that i don't let them see any other sides.