So Long And Thanks For All The Fish

[yrucrying]

I don't quite know what to say...

There is still a rift between myself and david. There is still an unknowing in myself in light of recent occurances, let me copy this down....i wrote this on Nikki's computer a while ago when the events had just happened...
subject: A Cut Too Deep

Comments

[cognitoface]

I'm really sorry about all that.

It's never good to feel like you are the only reason the person you are with is living; people need autonomy outside of their relationships and there is a profound need in human beings to find happiness with solitude.

The happiest I have ever been in my entire life was the summer before college, when I was single and reading and writing all the time. It was amazing. You'll probably be a wreck for a while, but embrace your solitude and try to stay out of a relationship for a while.

That Autumn chick, though, are you sure she wasn't raped? Rape, as we all know, is when a woman says no at ANY point and the guy (or girl, I guess) doesn't stop. Maybe you should double check on that, it sounds pretty serious.

Sorry for the long response, I've just been in your shoes.

-Erin

[yrucrying]

i'm sure she wasn't raped...it was a repated offence throughout the whole week. they'd had relations previous to that...i felt badly for them both...

me and david arent' quite sure ending it would be the best thing....but sometimes it really feels like that...and we're going to try the whole seperation thing...it's just still all fucked up....

but things are definately better...so that's a relief....

basically i just feel a little adrift and shakey and unsure...

thanks for your input though, i know how amazing it is to be alone and content with yourself. i'm actually very excited about it. and i'm excited for him....that's really where it gets me, i can't wait for him to discover the joy of self. i want to see what happens. because i know that when i cloister myself, i grow leaps and bounds, things i didn't even know needed growing sprout up.

anyways....

bon apres-midi

-annie

[cognitoface]

It's really hard to let go of someone sometimes, just because you've been with them for so long that the prospect of NOT being with them makes you panic.

In high school I stayed in really destructive relationships just because it seemed outrageous to think I could do without this person...

but you totally can. (That sounded like a Barbie giving advice: TOTALLY.)

Today I put a sweater over my head and said to someone, "Soy fantasma!"
Which totally means, "I am ghost!" I forgot the "a." This is in response to your "bon apres-midi" which I am not sure what it means, but maybe means HAPPY MIDDLE OF APRIL.

-Erin

BON APRES-MIDI

[yrucrying]

means good afternoon....bon=good.....apres=after......midi=noon....

another favorite is a tout a lueure.....means.....see you later....

i love the french language with all my heart....

but i love all languages.....

german, italian, spanish, portugues, you know...all lauguages....

which barbie are you?

i'm super emo barbie, comes with the ability to make people cry....and phrases like "that's so totally rad, it's deck"

hahha, emo kids....gotta love 'em....i AM one....

Re: BON APRES-MIDI

[cognitoface]

When I took that test online I got transgender Barbie. The picure that came up on the screen was one of Ken in drag. I laughed. Really hard.

However, I think if I had to pick a Barbie I'd pick one with superpowers, like the ability to write a good thesis, kick ass, take names, you know.

I take Spanish. I'm okay at it, but I don't love it.

I do love language, like, in general. Syntax, anaphora, alliteration, allusion, enjambment, what have you.

More than anything, I love film. Not the kind that grows in your bathtub, the kind you watch, hopefully, on widescreen.

I hope things are working out for you. Life is simply smothered with disappointment.

[guppyiii]

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