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I'm honestly not sure if I should post this but right now, I really don't care what people would think of me..
You know what's funny? It's when your friends for over 10 years are the ones you expected to care abt you the most but, apparently, they make you feel like you're not capable of being depressed or killing yourself. Like, everything you say or do is a joke, that you're just being overly dramatic stressing over petty stuff. Eventually, they may tell you encouraging words and tell you they'll be by your side but you can't find the sincerity, at all. Tell you to do this, do that, don't do this, don't do that, I miss you, I love you, you'll get through this, blah blah. This is why I have a hard time believing people right now, why I have trust issues. It's easy to say they'll be there for you when you need them and that they care about you but their actions show otherwise.
I trust actions, not words
You know what's funny? It's when your friends for over 10 years are the ones you expected to care abt you the most but, apparently, they make you feel like you're not capable of being depressed or killing yourself. Like, everything you say or do is a joke, that you're just being overly dramatic stressing over petty stuff. Eventually, they may tell you encouraging words and tell you they'll be by your side but you can't find the sincerity, at all. Tell you to do this, do that, don't do this, don't do that, I miss you, I love you, you'll get through this, blah blah. This is why I have a hard time believing people right now, why I have trust issues. It's easy to say they'll be there for you when you need them and that they care about you but their actions show otherwise.
I trust actions, not words