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Oneshot: Somewhere, a Clock is Ticking { ReitaxRuki }

Feb 17, 2011 14:26

Title: Oneshot: Somewhere, a Clock is Ticking { ReitaxRuki }
Author: yujira
Pairing: ReitaxRuki
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Drama, Angst, Ruki POV
Warnings: Character death
Summary: There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.
Disclaimer: Don ( Read more... )

fanfiction, reitaxruki, the gazette

Comments 12

purity_of_soul February 17 2011, 20:46:31 UTC

It's alright.
You don't need to do anything for the moment yet.
Let it all out. Cry for the whole week if you must.

But then, you must give a time limit for how long you are to dwell in this emotion. You need to pick your pieces back and rebuilt yourself right after the time limit given.

after all, you can't linger on with the past for too long.

"For every single thing that happened in the past, it is the reason for the future"

idk if it helps. but we can keep on talking =)

yujira February 18 2011, 14:00:06 UTC

It's kinda... complicated. I cried already... a lot but somehow it feels a bit like I'm forcing myself to let it out. I'm crying because he's dead yet he's NOT dead to me yet. So once I'll fully realize that he won't come back, probably at the funeral on monday, then the 'real' pain is going to start.
Though yes, I don't want to lose sight of life, I want to look forward to it again.. and well, my family also keeps an eye on me so I guess I can make it, someday.
Thank you very much for the support. It means a lot to me.
♥

happykawaiiday February 17 2011, 22:40:12 UTC

T___T this is so sad!!!!!
This is amazing though. I LOVE YOU!
awww poor Ruki.. being reject omg.. that must hurt!

yujira February 18 2011, 13:51:17 UTC

*feels loved*
Hmm yeah. Life can be such a bitch, huh?

bloodwolfgirl February 18 2011, 01:06:32 UTC

High five for killing Reita in our stories! ...we're such assholes. *cough* Anyways this was so sad, Yujira-sama! I wanna hug you because you seem so sad. First plane ticket to Germany I get I am going to find you and hug you! The story was good and I am so sorry about your loss. Seriously though, if I could hug you I would...but we are thousands of miles apart and I can't :( I hope you fell better soon, honey. If you need to talk just spam my inbox, you know I will reply.

yujira February 18 2011, 13:48:21 UTC

ehh actually this time I just choose him because well.. I needed someone manly.. I'm sorry Reita, I swear I'd NEVER want you to die m(___)m and then I was like 'with who can I identify myself the mo-Ruki' oh yeah. Well I feel sad, I already cried alot but I also feel that it was only a little amount of my actual feelings, only a day has passed so it hasn't quite sunk in yet.. he isn't really dead yet for me. Aww hun, I feel really loved now :') Thank you, I really wish I could give you tons of hugs as well. I will spam your inbox soon, with something nice though. You've experienced this pain too, so I don't want to burden you with mine...

bloodwolfgirl February 18 2011, 22:59:55 UTC

You are bestest internet friend, if you have problems I will listen, I want to make you feel better if I can, hun.

yujira February 19 2011, 00:07:54 UTC

I have to say that right now, at this moment I feel pretty awesome.. probably because I went into denial mode but I can't change it... give me the weekend, cause I know I will be broken from monday on... and if I really can't take it then, I will message you for comfort.. thank you so much. It just.. always makes me a bit uncomfortable because I always feel like a bother and that I shouldn't burden others with my problems because they also have a life.. so yeah. Thanks hun.<3

Angst as theme of a story is somehow lovely in a sense needtoeat February 18 2011, 08:39:51 UTC

somehow, in my heart, there's that tiny voice saying that maybe...well, maybe Akira has some reason for doing this to Taka. Maybe he wanted Taka to give up on him or not see him dying because maybe well...i don't know...he doesn't want Taka to feel that the loss is too much when Aki dies. but that is where Aki would be wrong, the wound is already inevitable. this is just speculations, though. love the fic.

Re: Angst as theme of a story is somehow lovely in a sense yujira February 18 2011, 13:38:56 UTC

well.. but isn't he a complete idiot for making Taka feel hated, unwanted, like a bother even though he tried so hard to please and be there for him? How is it supposed to be easier for Taka when his last memory of Akira is going to be him saying 'I don't want to see you around anymore. Just go already.' He's such a fool, if he really thought it would be easier to let go then.. but we'll never know the true reasons... it hurts.. but Taka really wants to believe that Akira acted like that because he cared...

Re: Angst as theme of a story is somehow lovely in a sense needtoeat February 19 2011, 10:36:37 UTC

yes, maybe Akira never thought of that because if he intended Taka to feel that way...he would be so like a jerk. but i guess taka will never know the truth, now that the only person who could ever unveil it has already been silenced for all of eternity...

roo_kie June 1 2011, 09:29:17 UTC

i hate death, especially somebody close to you or left footprint in our lives.
it's like unfair when you can telling bad about someone died, that you should forgive them, and the most unfair is you don't know if they forgave you or not since they couldn't talk to you anymore.

I wish the best for you.

ps. I stumbling through your journal, and I read some of your work,hope you don't mind....