ヒキコモリになるぞ？Depression
I don't know what is happening to me lately. I keep fighting with my mother about the clothes I wear and how I look verses how I want to look.
I'm so sick of it.
I just am scared to move, having CP and cancer and being in a manual wheelchair.
I also have been starring at the wall or just doing nothing, for about a month now. Going off into space suddenly. I've spoken to my therapist (and my mother) about it and she says that "I" need to figure out why I am doing this (these habits)."
I've tried like heck to divert myself with books and DVDs. Nothing has helped.
I don't know if this is because of my cancer or introverted-ness or why I am doing this.
I told my therapist that I am maybe becoming a "hikikomori".
I feel so dead, that's why I just suddenly got up and logged onto the Internet. You can speak to so many people through it.
...Yes I've tried different Japanese animation, and different live action shows, not just Japanese, but that hasn't worked either. OK, I saw "Blood the Last Vampire" and I liked it. (I am also finding out that I really don't care for a show period, but the music.)
I want two CDs, but the guy at Jpophelp.com wants to charge me $80+. I feel like just seeing what ccmelon.com charges, that is "if" I can find them on Yahoo! Auctions or another site...
(Title: Toei V Anime 'SUPURAITO' Vol. 1 & Vol. 2 ORIJINARU DORAMA &
ORIJINARU SAUNDOTORAKKU
Item's description: CD
Item's ISBN or product number: PSCR-5589
The cost in YEN: 2718
Where I found it: http://www.angelfire.com/ex/nami/music.html and
http://www.amazon.co.jp/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/music/B00005FO88/250-6861652-1790621
Title: Boku Mari Video Attack dondondoon dodongadoon
CD
ISBN: VICL-729
Yen: 3000
Where I found it:
http://catsspat.dyndns.org:2080/anime/Boku_no_Marie/VICL-729/index.html)
(sigh)
I am not trying to be "emo"(tional) either.
I'm so sick of it.
I just am scared to move, having CP and cancer and being in a manual wheelchair.
I also have been starring at the wall or just doing nothing, for about a month now. Going off into space suddenly. I've spoken to my therapist (and my mother) about it and she says that "I" need to figure out why I am doing this (these habits)."
I've tried like heck to divert myself with books and DVDs. Nothing has helped.
I don't know if this is because of my cancer or introverted-ness or why I am doing this.
I told my therapist that I am maybe becoming a "hikikomori".
I feel so dead, that's why I just suddenly got up and logged onto the Internet. You can speak to so many people through it.
...Yes I've tried different Japanese animation, and different live action shows, not just Japanese, but that hasn't worked either. OK, I saw "Blood the Last Vampire" and I liked it. (I am also finding out that I really don't care for a show period, but the music.)
I want two CDs, but the guy at Jpophelp.com wants to charge me $80+. I feel like just seeing what ccmelon.com charges, that is "if" I can find them on Yahoo! Auctions or another site...
(Title: Toei V Anime 'SUPURAITO' Vol. 1 & Vol. 2 ORIJINARU DORAMA &
ORIJINARU SAUNDOTORAKKU
Item's description: CD
Item's ISBN or product number: PSCR-5589
The cost in YEN: 2718
Where I found it: http://www.angelfire.com/ex/nami/music.html and
http://www.amazon.co.jp/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/music/B00005FO88/250-6861652-1790621
Title: Boku Mari Video Attack dondondoon dodongadoon
CD
ISBN: VICL-729
Yen: 3000
Where I found it:
http://catsspat.dyndns.org:2080/anime/Boku_no_Marie/VICL-729/index.html)
(sigh)
I am not trying to be "emo"(tional) either.