Hit me baby, one more time (Sakumoto)
Title: Hit me baby, one more time
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: NC-17
Beta: lover_youshould
Genre: smut (well, and they love each other), includes cheesy aftercare
Warnings: includes kinks such as spanking (paddling to be specific), toys (butt plug), blow job and punishment. All consensual, and in between they can't help but be fluffy.
Summary: Jun likes it when Sho decides that it's time for one of their little games. (Sho as top here)
Notes: Originally written for the smut-meme, but then someone else wrote the request and I didn't want to be impolite by posting it there. So, after waiting a while, I'll just post it like that to my journal.
The bag is black, decent, like a shopping bag from Vogue, with golden letters on it. It says ready. Whenever Sho comes home with one of those bags, Jun’s stomach is jumping in anticipation, his mouth getting dry.
It’s a chilly Friday night, it’s been raining for hours, and Sho has teased him the whole day during their recording. Jun can’t wait for him to finally get his ass back home. When Sho does actually drag his ass back home, Jun knows immediately that this is not going to be a normal fun night.
It doesn’t even take a minute for Sho to come into the living room before he already grabs Jun and pushes him back against the wall, lips kissing him hungrily. “We are free tomorrow?” Sho wants to know.
Jun nods, his heart hammering against his chest madly, when he sees a well-known black bag with gold letters at the entrance.
“Good.” Sho smirks. “Because I expect you not to be able to sit down tomorrow.” He bites into Jun’s earlobe teasingly and moves a step back. “Undress!” he commands, and when Jun blinks a bit, he adds a sharp “Fast.”
Jun nods, unbuttoning his jeans swiftly, and pulling them down. He is wearing them tight, like usual, and he needs some time to tug them down. He can see that Sho’s growing impatient, perfectly in game already. “Do you really need help?” Sho asks, and his voice is so hoarse that it sends tingles down Jun’s spine.
“Sho, I can-“ he starts, but gets interrupted by Sho shaking his head. He smirks, slipping closer again, his hands resting on Jun’s hips. “For tonight,” he whispers. “I’m Sho-san, remember that.”
Jun nods again. “Yes, Sho-san,” he says, well aware of what Sho likes to hear when he is in game like he is now. “I’m all yours tonight. Do as you please.” Something inside Sho’s eyes flickers in anticipation and he bites down on his lips. Jun smirks inwardly, and finally pulls down his trousers.
He is completely naked only a minute later, following Sho’s command to get down on his knees and suck him. Sho’s still wearing his clothes, only his pants slightly down so that Jun can reach his cock. He does immediately, licking at it tentatively, before nipping at the base. Encouraged by Sho’s moan, he takes a larger part of his cock into his mouth, licking and sucking at it, while he rubs the shaft with his fingers.
“You will swallow,” Sho demands, and Jun hums in approval, doubling his efforts to make Sho come. He was pretty hard to begin with, already turned on by their little game. Jun himself can also feel how his cock twitches between his legs, but he assumes it will take a while before Sho allows him to come, and he knows better than to reach down with one of his hands and touch himself. The last time he did, Sho made him wear a butt plug the next day.
Sho’s cock quivers slightly in his mouth and Jun knows he is pretty close, tightening his lips and sucking Sho hard now. Sho grips his hair, tugging at it almost painfully and pulling Jun closer. He fucks his mouth with intent now, before he comes with a loud moan.
Jun gasps a bit, swallowing Sho’s come, before he can feel Sho’s grip against his hair loosening.
Sho smiles. “You did well.”
“Thank you Sho-san.”
Sho smirks, pulling a bottle of lube out of his pocket and pointing at the bag. “Get the item in the pink package. You can unpack it.”
Jun hurries to grab so said item, blushing slightly when he eyes it. It is pink, with a broader middle part and small range at the end before it gets broader again. At the end of it there is a little tail.
“It’s vibrating,” Sho informs him casually, and hands him the bottle with lube. “Insert it yourself. You have two minutes.”
Two minutes sounds like a lot, but he isn’t stretched or prepared and hence he doesn’t have any time to think about the item in his hands and the fact that it has a freaking tail. Jun goes to work immediately, sitting on his knees, his slick fingers working his entrance before he pushes two into his hole at once. The stretch burns a bit, but he has plenty of lube to take and no time to probe too much. He adds some more lube to the butt plug and starts pushing it into himself. He hisses, his muscles tightening. When he curses under his breath, he can feel Sho’s warm hand against his back, moving down to his hand and taking the item from him. “Just relax,” he says softly. “And tell me when it gets too much.”
Jun nods. “Yes, Sho-san.” He gets down on his knees again, spreading his legs slightly so that Sho has a good angle to help him.
Sho circles the item skilfully, pushing the tip in and out a few times until Jun gets used to the intrusion. Jun moves his hand back, nodding at Sho and taking the lead again. He pushes the plug into his hole slowly but with drive, panting when it’s finally fully inside.
Sho rubs over his back. “Good,” he says in approval. He takes the bag. “Stand up, Jun,” he commands.
When Jun does, he winces slightly, feeling the plug rubbing inside him. Sho takes his hand and pulls him to the bedroom. He sits down on their bed there, pulling Jun on top of him and making him straddle his hips. He kisses Jun’s neck, sucking at it, before he moves down to his nipples, biting at them softly, licking and sucking at them until Jun can feel them getting more and more sensitive. He hisses slightly when Sho squeezes one of his nipples with his fingers now. Sho’s other hand moves down to Jun’s neglected erection, stroking it lazily. It’s too slow to produce any real friction and Jun has to hold back not to groan in frustration.
Sho grins. “I believe before we go back to that, there is something else that needs to be done.”
His voice sends butterflies through Jun’s stomach and he can only nod. “What did you plan for me, Sho-san?”
“I think,” Sho forces Jun to move away from his lap. “I need to punish you for being so disrespectful.”
Jun blinks for a moment, wondering where that came from. He roams his mind over and over again, until he finally stumbles over a piece that sounds accurate. He blushes deeply. “Sho,” he stutters. “It was TV. What am I supposed to say when someone asks me what I like about you? What…”
Sho smacks his cheek. Not really hard, but well enough for him to feel a slight sting. “What did I tell you? What should you call me?”
“Sho-san,” Jun mumbles, blushing further. “I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.”
Sho chuckles softly. “That’s why we are doing this.” He reaches into his bag, pulling out a little black paddle, with pink dots on it. It’s shaped like a flower, the edges sticking in beautiful velvet. It looks good. To his embarrassment Jun has to admit he freaking likes the design of it.
He is on his knees only a minute later, forehead resting on his hands. Sho pushes his legs apart, and Jun thinks he should feel more embarrassed by being so exposed. “Do you have something to say?” Sho wants to know and dabs one of Jun’s butt cheeks with the paddle.
Jun is beyond questioning anything anymore, giving in to Sho completely now. “I apologize,” he mumbles. “For being disrespectful.”
He can hear the paddle coming down on him before it actually meets his right butt cheek. Jun hisses at the feeling, clenching his muscles. “For what exactly do you apologize?” Sho probes.
“I should have reacted better,” Jun admits, getting smacked almost at the same time. This time his left cheek.
“How?” Sho wants to know and smacks the same cheek again.
Jun moans. “By telling them something personal, yet casual.”
He can feel the paddle twice against his butt, moaning both at the pain and tingles of want. Then he can feel how Sho moves to his butt plug, moving it slightly, and switching it on. Jun shivers, his cock already so hard that he fears he is going to come without Sho even touching him. Sho goes back to work immediately though, continuing to spank him.
“Like what?” Sho wants to know before he lets the paddle come down again.
Jun needs a moment to remember what they were talking about. He bites his lips. “Like… for example, as I said I liked that you are so serious about work… I could give an example. How you sincerely research. And how proud I am that you are going to be a commentator for the Olympics.”
“Hm,” Sho hums and smacks Jun’s butt again.
“I love you, Sho,” Jun says all of a sudden, blushing in embarrassment when he realizes what he just said.
Sho smacks his butt hard, before he puts the item aside. He leans forward kissing Jun’s shoulder blade first and then his lips. “I know,” he says softly. “I do too.”
“What?” Jun asks daringly. “You love yourself?”
Sho’s palm comes down hard on his sore butt, and Jun hisses and laughs at the same time. Sho chuckles. “I love you, you tease.”
“You are spanking me like that and call me tease?” Jun complains.
Sho smiles broadly, his fingers tugging at the butt plug and pulling it out slowly. “Tell me what you want.’”
“Fuck me already,” Jun demands. “Just fuck me.”
“Fine,” Sho agrees, and pulls back. He settles between Jun’s legs, pushing them apart further before he enters him in one go. Jun hardly feels any burn as he was stretched pretty good already, immediately pushing back against Sho’s hips.
Sho goes to fucking him hard immediately, doing it exactly like Jun wants him to. Jun can feel the rough fabric of Sho’s trousers against his butt and it makes him shiver at that feeling.
“Please, Sho-san,” he whines. “Please, make me come.”
Sho strokes his back soothingly, before he moves down to Jun’s cock. When Jun can feel his fingers around it, he hisses, not sure if he can handle the feeling of someone touching his over-sensitive cock, but Sho bends forward kissing his shoulder blades softly. “Sh,” he says warmly. “Just relax, babe, it’s alright.” He nuzzles his nose against Jun’s neck. “You are so wonderful.”
He is so freaking cheesy. Jun has to smile, calming down with Sho’s help. Soon he feels Sho picking up the pace of his thrusts again, while his hand starts stroking his dick fast. He drops down on his elbows again, not able to hold himself up. It takes only a few strokes from Sho to make his body shiver, his muscles tensing up almost painfully before the tension goes loose and he comes, moaning out Sho’s name.
Sho lets him ride out his orgasm completely before he speeds up, thrusting into Jun hard and coming for the second time inside of Jun.
When Sho pulls out of him carefully, Jun drops down on his stomach. Sho’s arms catch him into a hug though. He whispers little thank yous to Jun. And you were so great. So wonderful. I love you Jun. You are so perfect.
It’s cheesy but Jun likes to hear it. He snuggles closer against Sho and lets him ramble for a little longer. At one point Sho brushes through Jun’s hair, pushing his bangs aside a little. “Come,” he says. “You are all sore and sticky. You need to relax in a bath. You’ll regret it tomorrow if you don’t.”
Jun grunts something incomprehensible, frowning slightly when he can feel Sho’s laugh against his shoulder. Sho doesn’t give him any time to argue though and instead tugs at his arm and pulls him up. “I’ll help you,” he promises and kisses Jun’s neck softly.
Jun gives in. He can’t help it. He is a sucker for this kind side of Sho. Hence he lets him drag him to their bathroom, settling in the bathtub filled with warm water and lavender oil. The smell of it is almost captivating, making him weirdly sleepy immediately.
Somehow his memory gets blurry from then on. He only remembers remotely how Sho massaged his aching muscles and how he whispered sweet things to him. His hands felt warm and soothing on his body.
Then he is suddenly back on their freshly made bed, lying on his stomach, and a glass of good wine on his bedside table and some chocolate cookies. Sho sits next to him, massaging crème into his sore skin. Jun flinches. As much as he loves their little games, it always feels a bit weird when the soreness settles in completely and makes his body feel exhausted and every part of his skin overly sensitive.
“Sorry,” Sho says softly. “I probably used too much strength with that paddle.”
“Nope, you didn’t,” Jun reassures him. “But I can’t believe you bought a plug with a tail attached to it,” he grumbles.
Sho chuckles warmly. “It looked cute.”
“Don’t tell me you want us to try pet play now?”
Sho laughs, smacking Jun’s thighs softly. “I prefer it the way we normally do it.” He kisses the top of Jun’s head. “But it won’t stop me from getting the whole collection. They have also a bunny version of it~”
Jun blinks before it dawns on him what Sho meant. He has to grin himself, throwing a teasing glance at his lover. “You kinky ass,” he jokes.
Sho giggles slightly and drops down next to Jun, pulling him into a tight hug. “Thanks,” he mumbles into Jun’s hair, but doesn’t specify what he thanks him for. Jun knows it nevertheless, and smiles. His stomach jumps slightly at that fuzzy feeling.
“Sometimes you are so cute,” Jun answers warmly. “So cute.”
Sho chuckles. “You are cuter,” he argues.
Jun can’t help a happy smile. It’s fascinating for him how Sho can change his personality sometimes and get into a rough game like tonight and how he can be so mushy and sweet only an hour later. Jun doesn’t question it though. He likes Sho’s way of doing things way too much.
A/N: I think I should feel embarrassed posting this? Like... omg what did I write? OO
:-)
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: NC-17
Beta: lover_youshould
Genre: smut (well, and they love each other), includes cheesy aftercare
Warnings: includes kinks such as spanking (paddling to be specific), toys (butt plug), blow job and punishment. All consensual, and in between they can't help but be fluffy.
Summary: Jun likes it when Sho decides that it's time for one of their little games. (Sho as top here)
Notes: Originally written for the smut-meme, but then someone else wrote the request and I didn't want to be impolite by posting it there. So, after waiting a while, I'll just post it like that to my journal.
The bag is black, decent, like a shopping bag from Vogue, with golden letters on it. It says ready. Whenever Sho comes home with one of those bags, Jun’s stomach is jumping in anticipation, his mouth getting dry.
It’s a chilly Friday night, it’s been raining for hours, and Sho has teased him the whole day during their recording. Jun can’t wait for him to finally get his ass back home. When Sho does actually drag his ass back home, Jun knows immediately that this is not going to be a normal fun night.
It doesn’t even take a minute for Sho to come into the living room before he already grabs Jun and pushes him back against the wall, lips kissing him hungrily. “We are free tomorrow?” Sho wants to know.
Jun nods, his heart hammering against his chest madly, when he sees a well-known black bag with gold letters at the entrance.
“Good.” Sho smirks. “Because I expect you not to be able to sit down tomorrow.” He bites into Jun’s earlobe teasingly and moves a step back. “Undress!” he commands, and when Jun blinks a bit, he adds a sharp “Fast.”
Jun nods, unbuttoning his jeans swiftly, and pulling them down. He is wearing them tight, like usual, and he needs some time to tug them down. He can see that Sho’s growing impatient, perfectly in game already. “Do you really need help?” Sho asks, and his voice is so hoarse that it sends tingles down Jun’s spine.
“Sho, I can-“ he starts, but gets interrupted by Sho shaking his head. He smirks, slipping closer again, his hands resting on Jun’s hips. “For tonight,” he whispers. “I’m Sho-san, remember that.”
Jun nods again. “Yes, Sho-san,” he says, well aware of what Sho likes to hear when he is in game like he is now. “I’m all yours tonight. Do as you please.” Something inside Sho’s eyes flickers in anticipation and he bites down on his lips. Jun smirks inwardly, and finally pulls down his trousers.
He is completely naked only a minute later, following Sho’s command to get down on his knees and suck him. Sho’s still wearing his clothes, only his pants slightly down so that Jun can reach his cock. He does immediately, licking at it tentatively, before nipping at the base. Encouraged by Sho’s moan, he takes a larger part of his cock into his mouth, licking and sucking at it, while he rubs the shaft with his fingers.
“You will swallow,” Sho demands, and Jun hums in approval, doubling his efforts to make Sho come. He was pretty hard to begin with, already turned on by their little game. Jun himself can also feel how his cock twitches between his legs, but he assumes it will take a while before Sho allows him to come, and he knows better than to reach down with one of his hands and touch himself. The last time he did, Sho made him wear a butt plug the next day.
Sho’s cock quivers slightly in his mouth and Jun knows he is pretty close, tightening his lips and sucking Sho hard now. Sho grips his hair, tugging at it almost painfully and pulling Jun closer. He fucks his mouth with intent now, before he comes with a loud moan.
Jun gasps a bit, swallowing Sho’s come, before he can feel Sho’s grip against his hair loosening.
Sho smiles. “You did well.”
“Thank you Sho-san.”
Sho smirks, pulling a bottle of lube out of his pocket and pointing at the bag. “Get the item in the pink package. You can unpack it.”
Jun hurries to grab so said item, blushing slightly when he eyes it. It is pink, with a broader middle part and small range at the end before it gets broader again. At the end of it there is a little tail.
“It’s vibrating,” Sho informs him casually, and hands him the bottle with lube. “Insert it yourself. You have two minutes.”
Two minutes sounds like a lot, but he isn’t stretched or prepared and hence he doesn’t have any time to think about the item in his hands and the fact that it has a freaking tail. Jun goes to work immediately, sitting on his knees, his slick fingers working his entrance before he pushes two into his hole at once. The stretch burns a bit, but he has plenty of lube to take and no time to probe too much. He adds some more lube to the butt plug and starts pushing it into himself. He hisses, his muscles tightening. When he curses under his breath, he can feel Sho’s warm hand against his back, moving down to his hand and taking the item from him. “Just relax,” he says softly. “And tell me when it gets too much.”
Jun nods. “Yes, Sho-san.” He gets down on his knees again, spreading his legs slightly so that Sho has a good angle to help him.
Sho circles the item skilfully, pushing the tip in and out a few times until Jun gets used to the intrusion. Jun moves his hand back, nodding at Sho and taking the lead again. He pushes the plug into his hole slowly but with drive, panting when it’s finally fully inside.
Sho rubs over his back. “Good,” he says in approval. He takes the bag. “Stand up, Jun,” he commands.
When Jun does, he winces slightly, feeling the plug rubbing inside him. Sho takes his hand and pulls him to the bedroom. He sits down on their bed there, pulling Jun on top of him and making him straddle his hips. He kisses Jun’s neck, sucking at it, before he moves down to his nipples, biting at them softly, licking and sucking at them until Jun can feel them getting more and more sensitive. He hisses slightly when Sho squeezes one of his nipples with his fingers now. Sho’s other hand moves down to Jun’s neglected erection, stroking it lazily. It’s too slow to produce any real friction and Jun has to hold back not to groan in frustration.
Sho grins. “I believe before we go back to that, there is something else that needs to be done.”
His voice sends butterflies through Jun’s stomach and he can only nod. “What did you plan for me, Sho-san?”
“I think,” Sho forces Jun to move away from his lap. “I need to punish you for being so disrespectful.”
Jun blinks for a moment, wondering where that came from. He roams his mind over and over again, until he finally stumbles over a piece that sounds accurate. He blushes deeply. “Sho,” he stutters. “It was TV. What am I supposed to say when someone asks me what I like about you? What…”
Sho smacks his cheek. Not really hard, but well enough for him to feel a slight sting. “What did I tell you? What should you call me?”
“Sho-san,” Jun mumbles, blushing further. “I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.”
Sho chuckles softly. “That’s why we are doing this.” He reaches into his bag, pulling out a little black paddle, with pink dots on it. It’s shaped like a flower, the edges sticking in beautiful velvet. It looks good. To his embarrassment Jun has to admit he freaking likes the design of it.
He is on his knees only a minute later, forehead resting on his hands. Sho pushes his legs apart, and Jun thinks he should feel more embarrassed by being so exposed. “Do you have something to say?” Sho wants to know and dabs one of Jun’s butt cheeks with the paddle.
Jun is beyond questioning anything anymore, giving in to Sho completely now. “I apologize,” he mumbles. “For being disrespectful.”
He can hear the paddle coming down on him before it actually meets his right butt cheek. Jun hisses at the feeling, clenching his muscles. “For what exactly do you apologize?” Sho probes.
“I should have reacted better,” Jun admits, getting smacked almost at the same time. This time his left cheek.
“How?” Sho wants to know and smacks the same cheek again.
Jun moans. “By telling them something personal, yet casual.”
He can feel the paddle twice against his butt, moaning both at the pain and tingles of want. Then he can feel how Sho moves to his butt plug, moving it slightly, and switching it on. Jun shivers, his cock already so hard that he fears he is going to come without Sho even touching him. Sho goes back to work immediately though, continuing to spank him.
“Like what?” Sho wants to know before he lets the paddle come down again.
Jun needs a moment to remember what they were talking about. He bites his lips. “Like… for example, as I said I liked that you are so serious about work… I could give an example. How you sincerely research. And how proud I am that you are going to be a commentator for the Olympics.”
“Hm,” Sho hums and smacks Jun’s butt again.
“I love you, Sho,” Jun says all of a sudden, blushing in embarrassment when he realizes what he just said.
Sho smacks his butt hard, before he puts the item aside. He leans forward kissing Jun’s shoulder blade first and then his lips. “I know,” he says softly. “I do too.”
“What?” Jun asks daringly. “You love yourself?”
Sho’s palm comes down hard on his sore butt, and Jun hisses and laughs at the same time. Sho chuckles. “I love you, you tease.”
“You are spanking me like that and call me tease?” Jun complains.
Sho smiles broadly, his fingers tugging at the butt plug and pulling it out slowly. “Tell me what you want.’”
“Fuck me already,” Jun demands. “Just fuck me.”
“Fine,” Sho agrees, and pulls back. He settles between Jun’s legs, pushing them apart further before he enters him in one go. Jun hardly feels any burn as he was stretched pretty good already, immediately pushing back against Sho’s hips.
Sho goes to fucking him hard immediately, doing it exactly like Jun wants him to. Jun can feel the rough fabric of Sho’s trousers against his butt and it makes him shiver at that feeling.
“Please, Sho-san,” he whines. “Please, make me come.”
Sho strokes his back soothingly, before he moves down to Jun’s cock. When Jun can feel his fingers around it, he hisses, not sure if he can handle the feeling of someone touching his over-sensitive cock, but Sho bends forward kissing his shoulder blades softly. “Sh,” he says warmly. “Just relax, babe, it’s alright.” He nuzzles his nose against Jun’s neck. “You are so wonderful.”
He is so freaking cheesy. Jun has to smile, calming down with Sho’s help. Soon he feels Sho picking up the pace of his thrusts again, while his hand starts stroking his dick fast. He drops down on his elbows again, not able to hold himself up. It takes only a few strokes from Sho to make his body shiver, his muscles tensing up almost painfully before the tension goes loose and he comes, moaning out Sho’s name.
Sho lets him ride out his orgasm completely before he speeds up, thrusting into Jun hard and coming for the second time inside of Jun.
When Sho pulls out of him carefully, Jun drops down on his stomach. Sho’s arms catch him into a hug though. He whispers little thank yous to Jun. And you were so great. So wonderful. I love you Jun. You are so perfect.
It’s cheesy but Jun likes to hear it. He snuggles closer against Sho and lets him ramble for a little longer. At one point Sho brushes through Jun’s hair, pushing his bangs aside a little. “Come,” he says. “You are all sore and sticky. You need to relax in a bath. You’ll regret it tomorrow if you don’t.”
Jun grunts something incomprehensible, frowning slightly when he can feel Sho’s laugh against his shoulder. Sho doesn’t give him any time to argue though and instead tugs at his arm and pulls him up. “I’ll help you,” he promises and kisses Jun’s neck softly.
Jun gives in. He can’t help it. He is a sucker for this kind side of Sho. Hence he lets him drag him to their bathroom, settling in the bathtub filled with warm water and lavender oil. The smell of it is almost captivating, making him weirdly sleepy immediately.
Somehow his memory gets blurry from then on. He only remembers remotely how Sho massaged his aching muscles and how he whispered sweet things to him. His hands felt warm and soothing on his body.
Then he is suddenly back on their freshly made bed, lying on his stomach, and a glass of good wine on his bedside table and some chocolate cookies. Sho sits next to him, massaging crème into his sore skin. Jun flinches. As much as he loves their little games, it always feels a bit weird when the soreness settles in completely and makes his body feel exhausted and every part of his skin overly sensitive.
“Sorry,” Sho says softly. “I probably used too much strength with that paddle.”
“Nope, you didn’t,” Jun reassures him. “But I can’t believe you bought a plug with a tail attached to it,” he grumbles.
Sho chuckles warmly. “It looked cute.”
“Don’t tell me you want us to try pet play now?”
Sho laughs, smacking Jun’s thighs softly. “I prefer it the way we normally do it.” He kisses the top of Jun’s head. “But it won’t stop me from getting the whole collection. They have also a bunny version of it~”
Jun blinks before it dawns on him what Sho meant. He has to grin himself, throwing a teasing glance at his lover. “You kinky ass,” he jokes.
Sho giggles slightly and drops down next to Jun, pulling him into a tight hug. “Thanks,” he mumbles into Jun’s hair, but doesn’t specify what he thanks him for. Jun knows it nevertheless, and smiles. His stomach jumps slightly at that fuzzy feeling.
“Sometimes you are so cute,” Jun answers warmly. “So cute.”
Sho chuckles. “You are cuter,” he argues.
Jun can’t help a happy smile. It’s fascinating for him how Sho can change his personality sometimes and get into a rough game like tonight and how he can be so mushy and sweet only an hour later. Jun doesn’t question it though. He likes Sho’s way of doing things way too much.
A/N: I think I should feel embarrassed posting this? Like... omg what did I write? OO
:-)