It truely breaks my heart to know that an almost 2 year relationship is ending and someone I've spent so much time with and been through so much with is going to be gone from my life. Because we are not just breaking up, she is planning to move to Washington too. She is already gone. Yes, our relationship was falling apart and no, neither one of us ( Read more... )

Friday, Dec 23rd, 2011 -- You may actually think that today is your lucky day -- and a special fantasy just might come true. Don't be afraid to trust your intuition; however, it's not so smart to assume that you'll receive exactly what you want. Your natural flexibility is the key to landing a delicious surprise that far exceeds your expectations. ( Read more... )

I have been thinking a lot lately about the connections I have had and have now with the people around me. And whether they were negative or positive they had a way of shaping my world and who I am. I feel like I have that effect on others as well. So it is therefore important to me that the majority if not all of those connections leave a positive ( Read more... )

Such a melancholy and bittersweet end to a chapter and beginning to a new chapter in my life. It is hard to even begin to write this for I am at work and every few minutes tears start to well in my eyes. I loved her, was I ever in love? I believed so. I felt it. She did too. Where did it go? Love never lasts. I am understanding this more and more. ( Read more... )

@lotus> so much wrong with the world yet so much to always be thankful for
is "wrong" a matter of perception?
is this who world just an illusion in our minds?
What are the things that really matter to me? not just everyday life living in a society with so many expectations, but what do I really care about?
what do I want to do with my life...in the ( Read more... )

Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken…I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no

You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something’s wrong
I pray to God that it won’t be long

There’s nothing left to try
There’s no place ( Read more... )

So I finally got a job. It has been almost 10 months since I have had a stable job. I have gone through searching vigorously for jobs, giving up and deciding to just party and drink and smoke and live off the money i have, then I stopped doing that and went back to applying, then I started to give up and then finally I was offered this job at Sam's ( Read more... )

"Play Dead ( Read more... )

well it turns out that its creepily correct about me... so I'm posting the results ( Read more... )

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within."
-Elisabeth Kubler-Ross