Dad.
My counseler told me to write a letter to my father.
I don't have to give it to him, but I wanted to post it anyway.
Dear Johnny.
I can't forgive you.
I can't forgive what you have done to my family.
You hurt us all so badly. You cheated on my mother, not only that you lied and left your children at home alone for sex. I know you weren't getting that from my mother and that's between you and hurt. But did you ever consider the lives you screwed up?
You abandoned us.
Your whore girlfriend, was more important than you 13+ year marriage and your children.
Way to go Dad.
You were never the best father, but looking at what you and mom had for parents deal with I can't blame you.
What I can blame you for is all the absentee fathering and the lack of investment in my life. Who always came to my softball games, who helpped me with my homework? I grant it that you did come to my parent teacher confrences, but then again, that might have just been because no one ever had anything bad to say about Charm and I.
You never knew I tried to kill myself, you never knew about how I planned to run away and die. You never knew and you will never know.
What you will know is that I love you.
You were my ally and my friend. I could trust you to accept my pain and never try and make it better, unless I needed it.
You chose your girlfriend over your life. It might not have been the greatest, but it had us in it. Now it's a wonder if our Venns even connect. You could have patched it up with mom, you could have prevented me from hating everything you stand for. But you chose to have that life, instead of the one with me in it.
Thanks for 14 years and the pain of the rest of my life.
C. H.
I don't have to give it to him, but I wanted to post it anyway.
Dear Johnny.
I can't forgive you.
I can't forgive what you have done to my family.
You hurt us all so badly. You cheated on my mother, not only that you lied and left your children at home alone for sex. I know you weren't getting that from my mother and that's between you and hurt. But did you ever consider the lives you screwed up?
You abandoned us.
Your whore girlfriend, was more important than you 13+ year marriage and your children.
Way to go Dad.
You were never the best father, but looking at what you and mom had for parents deal with I can't blame you.
What I can blame you for is all the absentee fathering and the lack of investment in my life. Who always came to my softball games, who helpped me with my homework? I grant it that you did come to my parent teacher confrences, but then again, that might have just been because no one ever had anything bad to say about Charm and I.
You never knew I tried to kill myself, you never knew about how I planned to run away and die. You never knew and you will never know.
What you will know is that I love you.
You were my ally and my friend. I could trust you to accept my pain and never try and make it better, unless I needed it.
You chose your girlfriend over your life. It might not have been the greatest, but it had us in it. Now it's a wonder if our Venns even connect. You could have patched it up with mom, you could have prevented me from hating everything you stand for. But you chose to have that life, instead of the one with me in it.
Thanks for 14 years and the pain of the rest of my life.
C. H.